‘Who am I if not a soldier?’ Exploring creativity, identity and healing after service with Ryan Hawkyard
In this episode of Mind Beyond the Mission, hosts Laryssa Lamrock and Brian McKenna explore the role of creativity and the arts in healing, identity and meaning-making in life after military service. They are joined by Ryan Hawkyard, a Canadian Armed Forces (CAF) Veteran with 20 years of service, who shares how acting and improv became an unexpected but critical part of his recovery following a posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) diagnosis.
Ryan reflects on the challenges many Veterans face when leaving the military, including the loss of structure, purpose and identity, and asks a question so many struggle with: “Who am I if I’m not a soldier?” He shares how creative practices can help Veterans process what they’ve been carrying, reconnect with their humanity and find new ways to express vulnerability without fear of failure.
Ryan Hawkyard served 20 years in the CAF and completed three tours in Afghanistan. During that time he was diagnosed with PTSD. After his service, Ryan co-founded Soldiers in the Arts, a program using creativity and performance to help Veterans process trauma, build trust and foster healing. Ryan uses storytelling, acting and his passion for the arts to guide fellow Veterans on their recovery and reintegration journeys.
Key topics
* Identity, purpose and finding meaning after leaving the military
* How embracing vulnerability, creativity and the arts can support healing from trauma
* The power of finding common humanity through storytelling and performance
* The contrast between military culture’s focus on end goals and outcomes, and how the arts encourage being present in the moment
* The differences between acting, authenticity and “putting on a mask” when living with a mental health injury
* Practical ways to get started with the arts, even if you don’t consider yourself creative
Resources
* Soldiers in the Arts: A transformative platform empowering Veterans and their Families through creative exploration [https://www.rgf-sita.com/]
* Perspectives blog — Hands of purpose: Crafting identity, renewing purpose and bridging worlds [https://atlasveterans.ca/perspectives/hands-of-purpose-crafting-identity-renewing-purpose-and-bridging-worlds/]
* Veterans Transition Network: A charity that provides free group counselling programs to help Veterans of the CAF and Royal Canadian Mounted Police transition successfully to post-service life [https://vtncanada.org/]
* Watch Grant’s digital story of an adult child of Veterans who found solace in the arts [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_5zc1y47kaU]
* Guitars for Vets Canada: A program matching Veterans and still-serving members with PTSD or other service-related injuries with guitars and lessons [https://vetscanada.org/english/guitars-for-vets]
* Echo for Life (Ottawa, ON): Music workshop for Veterans of the CAF and RCMP — running from March 25 – May 27, 2026 [https://redcap.montfort.on.ca/redcap/surveys/?s=A9XYW8A3JA43LPJN&fbclid=IwY2xjawPTjAlleHRuA2FlbQIxMABicmlkETFUeUNOdkk0azZ2WDgxN25Jc3J0YwZhcHBfaWQQMjIyMDM5MTc4ODIwMDg5MgABHglY5FXEKReVYRr7Hk1Oojp53n_kjt9AxJMvPvl0sqqmIscYYDYSRHB4r-lr_aem_pG-h4aZH7hm1tc11vElOsQ]
* Then, I Was A Dragon: Writing from women who have served in the Canadian military [https://www.amazon.ca/THEN-WAS-DRAGON-Canadian-military/dp/1738695271]
* Resources for Families and friends: Includes information on signs and symptoms of posttraumatic stress injuries, potential impacts on Families and coping strategies [https://atlasveterans.ca/knowledge-hub/families-and-friends/]