My Act Four

Episode 36: Let That Shit Go

When you’re operating with a business mindset, you do exactly the opposite of what I recently did. I should know: I ran my own successful consulting business for over a decade. And I wouldn’t have recommended to any of my clients to do what I’ve just done. I took down my website--my decades-old blog disappeared with it–and I deleted my Facebook, Instagram and Twitter accounts.

Episode 35: Breathe and Remember Who the Fuck You Are

Post election and post visit to the Midwest, I review what I’ve learned about protecting my peace.

Episode 34: It's Me. Hi. I'm the Problem

Messing up the sound on last week’s podcast wasn’t a big deal. Except for the ten minutes between the discovery of the problem and my decision to delete and re-record the episode. My thoughts during those ten minutes weren’t pretty. I’d like very much to shorten the time I spend in shame in the future. Because it’s completely in my power to do so. On the bright side, it reminded me of a time when a nurse, a professional screwed up big time, and we both lived to tell the tale.

Episode 33: The Stormy Present

What would you do if you had more time? If you’re someone who doesn’t think she has enough time, I learned something today that you might find helpful: most of us spend 32% of our time stuck in the past or worrying about the future. That means that we’re only spending 68% of the time we’ve been given in the present. Can you imagine what your life would look like if you stopped time traveling? I’ve said before that learning to live in the present is my life’s work. I realized that I still have some work to do in this area when I caught myself thinking, “I’ll be able to relax after we close on the condo.” The reality is there’s nothing left for me to do except sign the papers. The sellers have already signed!  Purchasing this condo has been a mini project for me to manage. Bank statements, the property tax bill, the building’s master insurance policy and HOA budget, and our IDs have been uploaded. Our income has been verified. And closing costs have been wired to the title company. There’s literally nothing left to do except sign on the dotted lines. We don’t even have to collect keys or move. We already live here! So what do I think will change when we close? Sure, there are a few things to do, like purchasing a home warranty policy, and setting up automatic mortgage and HOA payments. But that’s about it.  So what, again, do I think will change? Honestly, I don’t think anything changes. I think I’ve become so accustomed to drama around change that I’ve felt the need to create it in this instance where none exists.

Episode 32: All by Myself

My husband is gone for three weeks, so I’ve decided to recalibrate and reset. I was surprised when I encountered overwhelm. Here’s how I found clarity and got back on track.