Not There Yet

Ep. 3 —6 Things I Had to Learn the Hard Way

This was the semester that gave me me back. From a lakeside engineering retreat to finally joining my dream rocket team, working retail, and taking a soul-resetting trip to Banff — this was my quiet comeback. But it came with lessons. Honest ones.  Here are 5 of the 6 that shaped that term: 1. Your environment will either shrink you — or awaken you. 2. Start before you’re sure. 3. There’s power in earning something. 4. Rest isn’t weakness — it’s a reset. 5. Boring is discipline. 6. (The last one… is the reason I made this episode. You’ll hear it.) If you’ve ever had to rebuild yourself in silence — this one’s for you.  With love,  Ayaan Felt something? Drop me a text [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2504188/fan_mail/new] 🎙️ New episodes weekly. 📱 Instagram: @thekhanayaan

Ep. 2 —Winter Didn’t Kill Me, But It Tried.

I came from 40°C sun to -30°C silence. In this episode, I open up about the semester that broke my body, blurred my mind, and introduced me to something I never expected in friendships — toxicity. It's not just my story, though. If you've ever felt disconnected in a crowd, emotionally cold in a room full of people, or like the drama around you wasn’t even yours to begin with… this one’s for you. I also introduce something new: a voice that isn’t mine. One that listens, reflects, and speaks when needed — not to guide, but to observe. Episode 2 isn’t about rising. It’s about staying afloat. And sometimes, that’s enough. 🎙️ New episodes weekly.📱 Instagram: @thekhanayaan Felt something? Drop me a text [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2504188/fan_mail/new] 🎙️ New episodes weekly. 📱 Instagram: @thekhanayaan

Ep. 1 — Have You Ever Felt Completely Lost?

Back in school, I was the all-rounder.  Known for leading, creating, and being everywhere but the classroom — because I was always doing something. Then I moved to Canada.  I was excited. I made friends, settled into my dorm, and did well in classes. For a while, life looked good. But two months in, something shifted. I realized I didn’t feel like me. I had gone from being someone everyone knew… to someone I didn’t even recognize. This episode is about that quiet identity crisis — where you’re not falling apart, but you’re slowly fading from your own life. If you’ve ever felt lost, even when things seemed fine… This one's for you.   Felt something? Drop me a text [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2504188/fan_mail/new] 🎙️ New episodes weekly. 📱 Instagram: @thekhanayaan

Trailer — Not There Yet

🎙️ “I’m your host — Khan Ayaan Abdulla. And this is what you might want to know.” Welcome to Not There Yet — a podcast for anyone who’s in the middle of figuring things out. This is not about success stories. It’s about the in-between.  The doubts, the reboots, the quiet rebuilds.  The messy process of becoming. I’m a mechanical engineering student, an artist, and just a young guy trying different versions of myself — semester by semester — to find what really works in the real world. In this trailer, I introduce you to the heartbeat of this podcast: * Honest weekly reflections * Personal lessons from failures, wins, and burnout * An ongoing experiment in growth, identity, and intentional living If you’ve ever asked yourself: * “Am I doing enough?” * “What if I just restarted everything?” * “How do I grow into the person I imagine?” ...this space is for you. 🎧 New episodes will drop weekly — including real stories, mindset shifts, and quiet experiments in becoming. Because we’re all still learning.  We’re not there yet —  But we’re getting closer. ➤ Subscribe now and follow along on Spotify, YouTube, or wherever you listen to podcasts. Let’s experiment together.  — Ayaan Felt something? Drop me a text [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2504188/fan_mail/new] 🎙️ New episodes weekly. 📱 Instagram: @thekhanayaan