Scrubbed In, Checked Out

CaRMS Match Day: The Highs, the Lows, and the In-Between

Match Day is supposed to be one of the happiest days of medical school. But the truth? It’s often far more complicated than that. In this episode, I talk honestly about the emotional rollercoaster that comes with CaRMS Match Day — the excitement, the relief, the disappointment, and everything in between. Some students open that email and feel pure joy. Others feel confused, conflicted, or quietly heartbroken — even if they did match. I share my own experience matching, the complicated emotions that followed, and why it’s okay if your reaction to match day doesn’t look like the perfectly curated celebrations you see online. If you’re celebrating your result, this episode is for you. If you’re struggling with it, this episode is definitely for you. Because match day isn’t just one emotion — and whatever you’re feeling right now is valid.

Med School Relationships: Friends, Family, and the People Who Don’t Get It

In this episode of Scrubbed In, Checked Out, Penelope gets real about friendships that fade, family members who try (but don’t quite get it), med school trauma-bonding, and the chaos of dating while chronically exhausted. From drifting from old friends to building intense new ones, navigating long-distance relationships, breakups, guilt, and the constant feeling of letting someone down — this is an honest look at how medical training reshapes the people around you. If you’ve ever felt torn between studying and showing up for the people you love, wondered why med school friendships feel so intense, or questioned whether you’re “doing relationships wrong” — this episode is for you. No sugarcoating, no toxic positivity, just the truth about growing, changing, and learning to set boundaries while becoming a doctor.

Cardio for the Soul: Lessons from Palliative Care

In this episode, I’m talking about my two-week placement in palliative care — a rotation I went into expecting to be heavy, emotionally draining, and quietly devastating… and instead found to be one of the most meaningful experiences of medical school. We talk about what palliative care is actually like, the incredible staff who make it such a special environment, and why a place so closely associated with death can still be full of warmth, humour, and humanity. I share a personal story about a patient I got to know well, and how my last day on placement became his last day before going home — a moment that reminded me why caring matters. This episode is about emotional boundaries, why medicine can sometimes feel cold, and why letting yourself care doesn’t make you weak or unprofessional — it makes you human. A reminder that not all of medicine is about fixing things, and that sometimes the most important part is simply showing up.

Studying in Med School: What Actually Works vs What TikTok Told You

In this episode, we’re ripping the glittery, productivity-core bandaid off and talking about what actually works when studying in medical school — and what TikTok lied to you about. Spoiler: you don’t need ten pastel notebooks, a stack of overpriced highlighters, and a 47-step morning routine. You need a functioning brain, a system you stick to, and a reality check. We dive into active recall (AKA: using your neurons like they were intended), spaced repetition, interleaving, how to make notes that don’t look like you’re writing a bible commentary, and how to stop sabotaging yourself with “aesthetic” studying that produces absolutely nothing except hand cramps. Plus: the unsexy, boring, adult habits that actually move the needle — sleep, hydration, exercise, and not pretending you’re immune to basic biology. If you want a study system that works in real life — not just on your For You Page — this one’s for you.

Prepping for and Surviving First Year Medical School

A chaotic, caffeine-soaked deep dive into the fever dream that is first year of medical school. In this episode, I break down everything I wish someone had told me before I walked into med school with my shiny new stethoscope and completely misplaced optimism. From whether you need to pre-study (you don’t), to buying gear you’ll never use (looking at you, reflex hammer), to surviving anatomy’s personal vendetta against your sanity — we’re covering it all. If you’re an IMG, we’re also talking about the pure emotional circus of moving countries, missing home, balancing relationships, and pretending you absolutely aren’t about to sob in the airport bathroom. And then, of course, we get into the real first-year experience: the panic, the imposter syndrome, the unhinged group project dynamics, the delusion that you’ll “catch up later,” and all the little moments that make med school feel like high school with scalpels. Whether you’re about to start first year, deep in the trenches, or emotionally triggered just reading this — this one’s for you. Grab your caffeine, abandon your expectations, and let’s get into the beautiful mess that is Year One.