Episode 12 | What If It Was You Holding Your Own Hand?

Episode 28 | The F Word — Who Decides The Value

Someone wanted me to come speak to their people. Real opportunity. Real money. One condition — no F-word. I said I couldn't promise that. They said thanks anyway. And I've been thinking about that moment ever since. Not with regret. With clarity. Because here's the actual question underneath all of it — who decides what gives your expression value? The organization that sets the terms? The audience that needs you to be palatable? The version of yourself that knows how to play it safe until you're in a position where you can finally be real? I've covered my tattoos for employers. I've said what partners needed to hear. I've done the disingenuous dance more times than I can count. And every time I did it I was handing someone else the authority to decide what I was worth and how I was supposed to show up. The F-word isn't the point. It never was. The point is whether you get to decide what your expression looks like or whether you keep outsourcing that decision to whoever is holding something you want. I turned down the gig. Not because I couldn't speak without profanity — clearly I can. But because I couldn't make that promise honestly. And if I can't be honest in the room I'm in, I have no business being in that room talking about honesty. Who decides the value? You do. Or you don't. Those are the only two options.

Episode 27 | Q&A — And The First Time Sharon Shows Up ("uninvited" no less - LOL!)

What you're about to hear was recorded March 22nd, 2023. At the time I was doing courses, Sharon was in the middle of serious medical challenges we didn't fully understand yet, and the podcast existed primarily because I needed somewhere to put what I was feeling while the ground was shifting under both of us. Before you get to that episode I want to flag a few things. You'll hear me talk about a course. That course existed then. It doesn't exist in its current form right now as of June 10th, 2026. It's being rebuilt. If you want to stay informed go to theloveofyourlifetime.com or write me directly at Chase.MurphyJr at theloveofyourlifetime.com. You'll also hear something that wasn't planned. Sharon was sitting across from me while I recorded this intro and she started talking. I didn't ask her to. She corrected me, filled in details I was dancing around, and at one point I genuinely lost control of my own podcast. That's not a bit. That's just us. She's coming. Wednesdays and Saturdays. For real this time.

Episode 26 | What Does Their Relationship Have To Do With You

Sharon and I were watching a YouTube video about an interracial couple — he's from Ghana, she's from the Netherlands — and the comments were full of people telling them they'd betrayed their respective races by being together. And I thought — what does their relationship have to do with how you feel about yourself? That's not a rhetorical question. That's the whole episode. Because if you're getting upset about what two people are doing in their own relationship — calling them names, feeling outraged, feeling betrayed — that's not about them. That's about you. That's your relationship with yourself showing up in the only place it knows how to show up — in your reaction to what's outside of you. I also take a swing at the everyone is me pushed out crowd today. Not to be cruel. But you can't say everyone is a reflection of you and then get upset when they do something you don't like. That's not how it works. You don't get to have it both ways. What I'm talking about on this podcast — all of it, every episode — comes down to one thing. How you see the world is a direct reflection of how you see yourself. Change that relationship and the world stops looking the way it did. I know this because I lived the other version for a very long time and I'm not going back. Sit the fuck down somewhere, be quiet, and just listen.

Episode 25 | I Wasn't Her Caregiver. I Was Her Husband.

I'm recording this at 12:34am because I realized I'd missed some upload days and I wanted to address that honestly before moving on. But something else happened first. Sharon and I went to a PRG gathering in Chesterfield — somewhere between five hundred and a thousand people — and they called for survivors to stand by years. Fifteen years. Ten years. Five. One to three. Newly diagnosed. And they referred to me as the caregiver. I wasn't her caregiver. I was her husband. Her partner. The person who was fully prepared to do whatever was necessary for her to stay with me for as long as we have life on this earth. You can call that caregiving if you want. I'm not arguing the word. But the word doesn't fit what it actually was and words matter — not because I'm being precious about language but because how we define our relationships shapes how we experience them. This episode is also about the gaps. The missed days. The fact that this is just Sharon and me doing all of it with no team, no Upwork, no Fiverr. Learning hashtags at 60. Figuring out transcription as we go. Life doesn't always go to plan and we have to be okay with that without beating ourselves up about it. It's okay to bump your fucking head. It doesn't make you a lesser person. It just means you bumped your head.

Episode 24 | Don't Pay Your Light Bill And Tell Me Time Is An Illusion

It's 11:33pm on a Monday. I watched a YouTube video about how time isn't real and it got under my skin enough that I couldn't go to bed without getting behind this microphone. Look — if crystals work for you, keep doing crystals. If affirmations work, keep affirming. If you're deep in Neville Goddard and living in the end and revising your past, do your thing. I'm not here to take that from you. But don't tell me time is an illusion and then show up to work late. Don't tell me there's only now and then spend your now trying to manifest someone into treating you differently instead of asking yourself why you're okay being treated that way in the first place. That's the question. That's always been the question. What I do here is blue collar. Down in the dirt. No quantum this, no vibration that. Just a person sitting with themselves long enough to ask the uncomfortable questions and then being willing to actually hear the answers. My son Malachi died July 31st, 1999. It'll be 27 years this July. All the deals I made with God didn't change that. All the revision in the world didn't bring him back. What I have is now. This moment. And the willingness to ask myself what I'm actually feeling in it. You're going to have to get comfortable with I don't know. That's as close to an absolute as I ever get. Write down 10 things that represent what love is to you. Don't tell me you already know. Write them down anyway.