How Trauma Is Secretly Running Your Life... And You Don't Even Realize It | Manifestations of Sexual Trauma

Until You Can Say It, You Are Not Free: Call the Thing a Thing - Guest Appearance On: Staci Speaks

I was invited onto Staci Speaks Hope, a podcast dedicated to healing the little girl within, and I left that conversation knowing it needed to live on this platform too. This is one of the most honest conversations I have ever had on record. We talk about what it really means to call a thing a thing. Why so many of us are still bound not because we have not prayed, not because we have not tried, but because we have never been able to say out loud exactly what happened to us. And until you can say it, shame still has an address inside you. I share my own story. The decades of silence. The protection I thought I was giving other people while I was dying inside. The moment I had to choose between my healing and my death. The court case. The family that would rather bury me than face the truth. The journaling, the poetry, the recording myself just to survive. And then the moment that changed everything. 4 o'clock in the morning in a hospital bed. Words flying out of my mouth that I could not take back. And a voice that said say it again. I also talk about what I did not know was blocking me for years. I was performing healing. I was praying, showing up, doing the work, but I was keeping God at arm's length because I did not know I still resented Him. And you cannot heal what you are hiding, even from yourself.This isn’t just a channel ~ It’s a movement ~ A safe space ~ A soul revival ~ A faith-led rebellion against silence.What You’ll Find Here:~ Survivor-centered truths + unspoken conversations~ Scripture-based healing and identity work~ Faith-fueled affirmations, devotionals, and reflections~ Spoken word and original encouragement~ Interviews with survivors and experts~ Conversations around trauma, identity, and healing~ Safe, sacred content to stir your soul and remind you: you are not alone🦋 Journey with Me:Website: www.journey2free.comPodcast: Awakened 2 PurposeShop: Books & Merch: https://linktr.ee/Journey2FreeConnect: Speaking/Media Inquiries: larissa@journey2free.com💛 Let’s Connect:Instagram: @journey2freeTikTok: @journey2freeFacebook: facebook.com/journey2freeSubstack: thedefiantdisruptor.substack.comLinkedIn: linkedin.com/in/larissarhone🙏🏾 Want to Support the Mission?CashApp: $Journey2FreeZeffy: https://www.zeffy.com/en-US/donation-form/give-the-gift-of-healing-help-a-child-survivor-thriveYour giving helps us support survivors, host retreats, and create life-giving content.💙 Subscribe, share, and stay awhile.Your voice matters, your healing matters.Let’s heal forward, together.**DISCLAIMER: Episodes may contain graphic details. ***Please be advised - Maybe triggering to trauma survivors ~ If triggered, please call your local sexual assault hotline.***

The Survival Strategy That Saved Me | Was Secretly Keeping Me Stuck | Awakened 2 Purpose Podcast

At 47, I had a revelation in therapy that cracked something wide open. I realized I am afraid of adults, and that fear traces all the way back to a childhood without safe people. No protected father. No shielding mother. Seven women who knew about the abuse and chose silence. In this solo episode I share how that wound became a survival strategy that has been quietly sabotaging my calling, my visibility, and my ability to ask for help. I also share three commitments I'm making to step out of hiding and a declaration you can use too. This one is raw, real, and recorded straight from the revelation. Reassign the shame. It was never yours to carry. #survivalstrategytrauma #childhoodtrauma #healinginnerchild #healing #fearofadults #traumahealingafterchildhoodabuse #traumaresponse #adulthood #self-sabotage #traumafaithbased #traumahealing #survivorhealingjourney #childhoodbetrayal

Thirty years of research | One finding | And survivors already knew | Speak 2 Heal

Welcome back to Speak 2 Heal through the Awakened 2 Purpose Podcast. This is Part Two of our conversation with survivor advocate, activist, and social justice clinician Ms. Regina Dyson. Last week we talked about why survivors stay silent when their abuser holds power. Today we go deeper. A landmark study spanning three decades just confirmed what sexual abuse survivors have been living their entire lives. The number one reason survivors do not disclose is not fear, it is not threats. It is shame. And in this episode we are going to call it by its name. We talk about what shame actually feels like in the body, not as a concept but as a lived physical experience. We talk about how shame is layered across race, culture, gender, and chronic illness. We talk about the moment the shame starts to shift, when you stop carrying what was never yours to carry and give it back to the one it belongs to. This episode includes one of the most powerful moments in Speak 2 Heal history - Larissa's courtroom testimony, the moment she looked her abuser in the eye and watched him hang his head, and felt the shame leave her body and land exactly where it belonged. This is also the episode where we address something almost no one talks about openly, what happens when a child's body responds physically during abuse, and why that response does not create shame or culpability. If you have carried that specific silence your whole life, this episode is for you. We close with a direct word to the survivor who is still deep in shame right now. The one who still believes somewhere inside that what happened was their fault. It was not. The shame was never yours. And today we are going to give it back. This podcast is by survivors for survivors of childhood sexual trauma and chronic illness warriors. We shift mindsets, change the narrative, and create a new norm. We reassign the shame and we journey to free. Anchored in Revelation 12:11 and Romans 12:2. CRISIS RESOURCESNational Sexual Assault Hotline - 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) and RAINN.org Crisis Text Line - text HOME to 741741 National Suicide and Crisis Lifeline - call or text 988Jamaica Child Development Agency Hotline - 1-888-PROTECT (776-8328) CONNECT WITH US: Website: journey2free.com Journey 2 Free Publishing: journey2freepublishing.com

What Happens When Your Hero Hurts You | Part 1 | Speak 2 Heal

**TRIGGER WARNING** Discussions of Child Sexual Abuse. Episodes may contain graphic details. Hi! You didn’t land here by accident; this is divine alignment.Welcome to Journey 2 Free, where survivors heal out loud, shame is reassigned, and we awaken to our God-ordained purposes.What do you do when the person who hurt you is the person everyone else is celebrating?In this episode of Speak 2 Heal, host Larissa and survivor advocate, activist, and social justice clinician Ms. Regina Dyson sit down for a raw and necessary conversation about what happens when survivors are silenced not just by shame or fear, but by the weight of protecting a hero.Using the story of Dolores Huerta and Cesar Chavez as the entry point, we unpack why survivors stay silent when their abuser holds power, leads movements, and is loved by the community. This is not just a headline. This is the lived reality of survivors everywhere who have had to choose between their truth and the reputation of someone the world calls great.We talk about why victims of sexual violence do not tell. We talk about what it costs a woman to come forward when the abuser is untouchable. We talk about the cultural and historical layers that have kept women and children silent for generations. And we speak directly to the survivor who is sitting right now watching someone who hurt them receive a standing ovation.Your silence was never weakness. It was survival.And this is just Part 1. Come back next week because we are going deeper. The research just dropped. Thirty years of studies. One finding. And it is not fear that keeps survivors silent. It is something heavier. Something that lives in the body. We are going to call it by its name. And when we do it is going to set somebody free.This podcast is by survivors for survivors of childhood sexual trauma and chronic illness warriors. We shift mindsets, change the narrative, and create a new norm. We reassign the shame. We journey 2 free.Anchored in Revelation 12:11 and Romans 12:2.CRISIS RESOURCESNational Sexual Assault Hotline - 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) RAINN.orgCrisis Text Line — Text HOME to 741741Jamaica Child Development Agency Hotline - 1-888-PROTECT (776-8328)🦋 Journey with Me:Website: www.journey2free.comPodcast: Awakened 2 PurposeShop: Books & Merch: https://linktr.ee/Journey2FreeConnect: Speaking/Media Inquiries: larissa@journey2free.com💛 Let’s Connect:Instagram: @journey2freeTikTok: @journey2freeFacebook: facebook.com/journey2freeSubstack: thedefiantdisruptor.substack.comLinkedIn: linkedin.com/in/larissarhone🙏🏾 Want to Support the Mission?CashApp: $Journey2FreeZeffy: [Insert link to donation/sponsorship page]Your giving helps us support survivors, host retreats, and create life-giving content.💙 Subscribe, share, and stay awhile.Your voice matters, your healing matters.Let’s heal forward, together.

How Trauma Is Secretly Running Your Life... And You Don't Even Realize It | Manifestations of Sexual Trauma

You survived the abuse. But now you have to survive the healing. In this raw, unfiltered conversation, I sit down with intimacy and relationship coach Tammy Bodie to talk about what the manifestations of sexual trauma actually look like in everyday life, in your relationships, your intimacy, your parenting, your mental health, and your body. We are not talking in theory. We are talking from lived experience as survivors. This is Part 1 of an ongoing series on the Speak 2 Heal arc of Awaken to Purpose Podcast. Topics covered: hypervigilance, triggers, dissociation, body shame, prayer vs. doing the work, generational patterns, and beginning the healing journey. If you or someone you know needs support:National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-4673 | rainn.orgCrisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741Jamaica — CPFSA: 1-888-PROTECT (776-8328) You are worthy. The healing is possible. Let's talk about it.