Bad Memory, CPTSD & the Brain That’s Just Trying to Survive

Bad Memory, CPTSD & the Brain That’s Just Trying to Survive

In this episode of Healing Out Loud, I talk about something that used to really worry me, my memory.I used to think my bad memory meant something was wrong with me. Through CPTSD and therapy, I learned it’s often a nervous system doing its best to survive, not a broken brain. This episode explores how trauma can affect memory, attention, and presence, not as a character flaw, but as a nervous system doing its best to keep you safe. It’s honest, a little funny at times, and a reminder that you’re not broken, you’re adapting. If your brain has ever felt like it’s running on spotty Wi-Fi… this one’s for you.

CPTSD, Emotional Ambiguity & Nervous System Healing

In this episode of Healing Out Loud, I talk about CPTSD, emotional ambiguity, and that strange in-between space where you look fine on the outside… but internally everything feels a bit unlabelled, noisy, and hard to pin down. We get into the “I’m Fine. I Think. Maybe. Hold On.” moments, when your nervous system is scanning for danger, your brain has 47 tabs open, and you’re trying to function while not fully sure what you’re actually feeling. This episode explores what it’s like when confusion gets mistaken for crisis, why emotional “muck” isn’t always a malfunction, and how healing often looks less like clarity, and more like learning to stay with yourself in uncertainty.

The Cost of Being ‘Low Maintenance’

Being “low maintenance” can sound like a compliment. Easygoing. Chill. No drama. But for many with CPTSD, it isn’t a personality trait, it’s a survival strategy. In this episode of Healing Out Loud, Jack explores how constantly saying “I’m fine” or “you pick” can quietly turn into self-abandonment, and how the fawn response shapes the way we show up in relationships. Because real connection doesn’t come from being easy to deal with… It comes from being known.

You’re Not Doing This Wrong

Some days you feel nothing. Other days it all hits at once, and neither feels “right.” In this episode of Healing Out Loud, Jack talks about the messy, unpredictable nature of healing, especially when you’re living with CPTSD. The emotional whiplash, the quiet numbness, the sudden overwhelm… it’s all part of the process, even when it makes no sense. This isn’t about fixing it or getting it “right.” It’s about learning to stay with yourself through the shifts. If you’ve ever questioned whether you’re coping the way you’re supposed to… this one’s for you.

Mid-Healing Identity Crisis: Who Am I Now?

We all know healing isn't east. It’s messy, confusing, and occasionally makes you wonder, “…who the hell am I?” In this episode, I dive into the weird, awkward, and surprisingly familiar shifts that happen when you start untangling trauma from your personality. Expect laughs, honesty, and a little “CPTSD shitathon” survival tips along the way. I’m Jack, I have CPTSD, and I’m figuring out what it really means to show up for yourself… and for you.