When Survival Is the Only Prayer You Have Left

What Happens After You Ruin Your Life?

Wayne Ogden had money, success, status, and a life that looked untouchable from the outside. But behind the image was shame, secrets, fear, and a collapse that eventually led to prison, public humiliation, and a moment sitting alone in a barn ready to end his life. In this raw conversation, Wayne shares what happened when everything fell apart — and how he discovered that God still moves toward broken people who think they’ve gone too far. Check out Wayne's website: https://www.bigdogacademy.com/ [https://www.bigdogacademy.com/]

When Survival Is the Only Prayer You Have Left

Join us for a raw and unforgettable conversation with Tawny, who was born into chaos: a mother she describes as a “professional alcoholic,” a father tied to a 1%er motorcycle gang and meth manufacturing, and a childhood where survival felt normal. Her story moves through addiction, motherhood, recovery, and the devastating death of her son — the kind of loss that shattered every illusion of control she had left. But standing in the wreckage of what she could not fix, Tawny says she found God. This episode is about grief, surrender, and the brutal mercy of discovering that even when people like her don’t know how to find God, God still knows exactly where to find them.

When Shame Says God Is Done With You

Shame does not just tell you that you did something wrong. Shame tells you you are wrong. It tells you God is tired of the same prayer, the same weakness, the same relapse, the same need, the same mess. It makes you imagine God with folded arms, disappointed eyes, and disgust in His voice. And when you already feel dirty, broken, exposed, or too far gone, shame can start sounding more believable than God. In this raw episode, Deb and Scott talk honestly about the lies shame tells, the way we project human disappointment onto God, and the healing truth that God is not disgusted by our weakness. From addiction and public shame to the woman taken in adultery, the prodigal son, and Peter’s denial, this conversation is for anyone who has wondered, “Is God done with me?” Shame says hide. God says come. And no matter how messy the mess is, He is still reaching, still inviting, still loving, and still not done with you

Come As You Are

In the first episode of Look To Him, Scott and Deb open the heart behind this new podcast: creating a place for real people, real struggles, and real hope in Jesus Christ. “Come As You Are” is an invitation for anyone who feels tired, ashamed, disconnected, spiritually numb, or unsure where they belong. Scott and Deb share personal stories of desperation, recovery, shame, faith, and learning that we do not have to clean ourselves up before coming to Christ. He meets us in the mess, in the questions, in the pain, and in the places we often think make us unworthy of Him. This episode explores the difference between guilt and shame, the exhausting trap of trying harder without healing, and the peace that begins when we stop hiding and simply turn toward Him. Whether you feel close to God, far from Him, or unsure what you believe, this conversation is a reminder that Jesus already knows your name, your story, and your heart. You do not have to fix everything first. Just come as you are.