When it Costs the Most (John 19:17-42)

When it Costs the Most (John 19:17-42)

Most people show up for Jesus when it's safe. Nicodemus had been quietly watching for the entire Gospel of John, showing up at night, speaking carefully, covering his tracks. But something about the cross changed that. In this episode, we look at John 19 and the strange, costly responses of the people who stayed when everyone else had gone, and we ask what it means to follow Jesus at the moment it would cost you the most. Watch the episode on video: https://youtu.be/JcI_nrHwsqA [https://youtu.be/JcI_nrHwsqA]  ----------------- My new book, The Edge of the Inside, is now available. You can get a signed copy or in whatever form you prefer: https://www.edgeoftheinside.com/ [https://www.edgeoftheinside.com/] Join the online community and get access to exclusive content and experiences: https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/online-community [https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/online-community] Trying to make sense of faith? Download my free Deconstruction Field Guide. It's a ten-page resource to help you navigate what's next so you don't have to do it alone. https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/opt-in [https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/opt-in]

The Coward’s Defense (John 18:28-19:16)

Pilate says "I find him not guilty" three times, then hands Jesus over to be crucified anyway. In this episode of Rebuilding Faith, we look at the slow-motion moral collapse of a man who knew exactly what he was doing. Pilate isn't a monster. He's something more familiar: someone who disagrees with what's happening but goes along with it because the cost of refusing feels too high. The crowd, the pressure, the threat to his position, all of it adds up until his stated innocence becomes a kind of theater, a defense built on words while his actions tell a different story. The question this passage puts to us isn't whether we'd recognize injustice. It's whether we'd do anything about it. Watch the episode on video: https://youtu.be/v9FQw_tBE3Q [https://youtu.be/v9FQw_tBE3Q]  ----------------- My new book, The Edge of the Inside, is now available. You can get a signed copy or in whatever form you prefer: https://www.edgeoftheinside.com/ [https://www.edgeoftheinside.com/] Join the online community and get access to exclusive content and experiences: https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/online-community [https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/online-community] Trying to make sense of faith? Download my free Deconstruction Field Guide. It's a ten-page resource to help you navigate what's next so you don't have to do it alone. https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/opt-in [https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/opt-in]

The Charcoal Fire (John 18:15-27)

Peter said he was ready to die for Jesus. Twenty-four hours later, he was warming himself by a charcoal fire, telling strangers he'd never met the man. Most of us know what it's like to mean something and then discover, under pressure, that we didn't quite mean it the way we thought. The gap between who we intend to be and who we actually are in the moment of cost is one of the most honest places in all of Scripture. And it turns out, it's not the end of Peter's story. Watch the episode on video: https://youtu.be/R4SiWgQ95Zw [https://youtu.be/R4SiWgQ95Zw]  ----------------- My new book, The Edge of the Inside, is now available. You can get a signed copy or in whatever form you prefer: https://www.edgeoftheinside.com/ [https://www.edgeoftheinside.com/] Join the online community and get access to exclusive content and experiences: https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/online-community [https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/online-community] Trying to make sense of faith? Download my free Deconstruction Field Guide. It's a ten-page resource to help you navigate what's next so you don't have to do it alone. https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/opt-in [https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/opt-in]

A Creative Force (John 18:1-14)

What would you do if you knew exactly what was coming and walked straight into it anyway? In John 18, Jesus doesn't hide, doesn't run, and doesn't let Peter fight his way out of it. He steps forward to meet the soldiers and then he willingly goes with them. This episode explores what it means to face suffering not as something to escape, but as something to leverage, and how Jesus models the most counterintuitive move in history: turning the worst thing into a creative force that changes everything. Watch the episode on video: https://youtu.be/-2DJNMJeo_o [https://youtu.be/-2DJNMJeo_o] ----------------- My new book, The Edge of the Inside, is now available. You can get a signed copy or in whatever form you prefer: https://www.edgeoftheinside.com/ [https://www.edgeoftheinside.com/] Join the online community and get access to exclusive content and experiences: https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/online-community [https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/online-community] Trying to make sense of faith? Download my free Deconstruction Field Guide. It's a ten-page resource to help you navigate what's next so you don't have to do it alone. https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/opt-in [https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/opt-in]

The Prayer of Jesus (John 17)

Most of us assume we know what prayer is supposed to look like, and most of us quietly feel like we're doing it wrong. In John 17, we get something rare: an unfiltered look at how Jesus actually prayed. Not a model prayer with blank lines to fill in, but a real conversation that reveals what Jesus cared about most in his final hours. What he says about eternal life alone might rearrange everything you thought you knew. This episode sits with that prayer and lets it breathe. Watch the episode on video: https://youtu.be/YmfwaAWzRF4 [https://youtu.be/YmfwaAWzRF4]  ----------------- My new book, The Edge of the Inside, is now available. You can get a signed copy or in whatever form you prefer: https://www.edgeoftheinside.com/ [https://www.edgeoftheinside.com/] Join the online community and get access to exclusive content and experiences: https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/online-community [https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/online-community] Trying to make sense of faith? Download my free Deconstruction Field Guide. It's a ten-page resource to help you navigate what's next so you don't have to do it alone. https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/opt-in [https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/opt-in]