I Was a School Shooter

R*ped in Police Custody

At just 14 years old, Chris entered the juvenile justice system for minor offenses, where he encountered a trusted county sheriff who would profoundly alter the course of his life. After being groomed and sexually abused, the trauma followed him into adulthood, leading to years of addiction, mental health struggles, and silence. Today, Chris is sharing his story to expose the abuse of power that went unchecked, advocate for survivors of sexual abuse, and prove that healing is possible even after decades of carrying the weight of the past. Check Out Chris:  → Facebook [https://www.facebook.com/people/A-Survivors-Voice/61591676901788/?mibextid=wwXIfr&rdid=Cyqjv0ur6jsDEEh6&share_url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.facebook.com%2Fshare%2F1ERyKmfidH%2F%3Fmibextid%3DwwXIfr] Topics Discussed: → Growing Up in the Juvenile Justice System → Surviving Childhood Sexual Abuse → The Lasting Effects of Trauma → Holding Powerful People Accountable → Finding Healing Through Advocacy Sponsored By: → Wayfair | Find furniture, decor, and essentials that fit your unique style and budget. Head to https://Wayfair.com [https://wayfair.com] right now to shop all things home. On This Episode We Cover:  → 00:00:00 - Introduction → 00:01:40 - How did one false accusation change his life? → 00:03:58 - How did he meet Sheriff Bullock? → 00:05:18 - How did the grooming begin? → 00:07:02 - What happened during the first assault? → 00:10:36 - How did the abuse continue? → 00:11:20 - What happened during the second assault? → 00:15:12 - What was life like at Warren Acres? → 00:17:02 - Why did he keep returning to detention? → 00:19:07 - What happened during the third encounter? → 00:21:18 - How did he cope with the abuse? → 00:25:20 - Why did he begin acting out? → 00:27:03 - Why was he sent back to Warren Acres? → 00:29:54 - What happened during the final assault? → 00:31:12 - When did he first attempt suicide? → 00:35:30 - Why did he keep the abuse a secret? → 00:42:40 - How did the trauma follow him into adulthood? → 00:43:40 - How was Sheriff Bullock finally exposed? → 00:46:42 - What did life look like after the abuse? → 00:52:50 - What led to his next suicide attempt? → 00:55:24 - How was his life saved? → 00:56:38 - What was psychiatric treatment like? → 00:57:42 - What made him choose recovery? → 00:59:08 - How did sobriety change his life? → 01:07:12 - How did he discover the sheriff's trial? → 01:08:10 - Why did he decide to testify? → 01:19:18 - What was it like facing his abuser in court? → 01:27:14 - How did meeting another survivor change him? → 01:29:22 - How did survivors help change New Jersey law? → 01:30:23 - How many victims may there have been?  Further Listening:  → My Father Was a Pastor and a Predator [https://youtu.be/ChjEtgNM1EI?si=lbv7F6KLxVjYcwNk]  - OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time [https://were-all-insane.myshopify.com/] - Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts  [https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane] Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices [https://megaphone.fm/adchoices]

Dove in a Lake and Broke My Neck

At 20 years old, Zach Cheremski dove into a lake he'd grown up on and instantly became paralyzed from the neck down. In this episode, Zach shares the moments leading up to the accident, what it was like to survive a catastrophic spinal cord injury, and the physical and emotional challenges that followed. He reflects on resilience, hope, and how one split-second decision changed the course of his life forever. Check Out Zackary:  → https://x.com/Geodezics [https://x.com/Geodezics] Topics Discussed: → Surviving a life-changing diving accident → Living with a spinal cord injury and quadriplegia → The physical and emotional challenges of recovery → Navigating addiction, chronic pain, and healing → Finding purpose, resilience, and hope after trauma On This Episode We Cover:  → 00:00:00 - Introduction  → 00:01:20 - Why did they decide to go night swimming? → 00:04:29 - What was going through his mind while trapped underwater? → 00:05:26 - How was he finally rescued? → 00:11:26 - What happened after he arrived at the hospital? → 00:18:38 - Who helped his family find hope during the darkest days? → 00:20:20 - What unexpected complications happened after the accident? → 00:23:30 - Why did he ask to "pull the plug"? → 00:27:38 - How did the support of others change his mindset? → 00:36:50 - Which unexpected visitor gave him hope? → 00:41:46 - What was recovery in the ICU really like? → 00:52:12 - How did pain medication become another battle? → 01:01:48 - What was it like returning to college after paralysis? → 01:13:20 - Why was going home harder than the hospital? → 01:16:42 - Did the hallucinations change the way he saw life? → 01:20:00 - Why did he question what was real after the accident? → 01:35:20 - How did he finally overcome addiction? → 01:51:20 - What does healing really look like after surviving trauma? → 01:57:45 - What message does he hope others take away from his story? → 02:01:10 - How has this experience changed the way he lives today? Show links: → Hung From a Power Line By My Leg for an Hour [https://youtu.be/JETyHRqgiLE?si=9s-xC1UdHYX-Nct2] More We Are All Insane!  - OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time [https://were-all-insane.myshopify.com/] - Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts  [https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane] Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices [https://megaphone.fm/adchoices]

My Mother Married My Rapist

For 14 years, Cynthia endured unimaginable abuse at the hands of the man she believed was her father. From the age of five until she escaped at 19, she was groomed, manipulated, and repeatedly sexually abused by her stepfather…all while living in what appeared to be the perfect family. When she finally found the courage to tell someone at 16, she expected protection. Instead, she was met with disbelief, shame, and pressure from the very people who should have stood by her. Resources:  → https://rainn.org/ [https://rainn.org/]  → https://paar.net/ [https://paar.net/] Check Out Cynthia:  → https://www.instagram.com/cynthiaadelgado?utm_source=qr [https://www.instagram.com/cynthiaadelgado?utm_source=qr] Sponsored By: → Shopify | Every story has a turning point. If you're ready to build something of your own, start your journey with a free trial at https://shopify.com/insane [https://shopify.com/insane] → HERS | Ready to reach your goals? Visit https://forhers.com/insane [https://forhers.com/insane] to get personalized, affordable care that gets you. → AquaTru | Go to https://AquaTru.com [https://aquatru.com/] now for 20% off (your purifier) using promo code INSANE. AquaTru even comes with a 30-day best-tasting water guarantee.  On This Episode We Cover:  → 00:00:00 - Introduction  → 00:00:00 - What was her family dynamic?  → 00:01:48 - What was her first memory of sexual abuse?  → 00:02:51 - What was her next memory of abuse?  → 00:05:51 - What feelings dominated her childhood?  → 00:07:37 - Why didn't she know her stepfather wasn't her biological father? → 00:08:56 - How did she feel when she found out he wasn’t her father?  → 00:09:49 - How often was she abused?  → 00:10:13 - What happened when she became seriously ill? → 00:13:08 - How did everyone react when they found out? → 00:14:17 - Did her mom know what was happening? → 00:16:51 - Who else did he sexually abuse?  → 00:19:01 - How did the abuse escalate as she got older? → 00:24:26 - How did the abuse change when she was 14? → 00:26:06 - How did her high school girlfriend change everything? → 00:27:32 - What happened after the school reported the abuse? → 00:29:26 - Why was the police investigation so traumatizing? → 00:30:22 - How did her stepfather manipulate her from jail? → 00:33:19 - How did her family convince her to protect her abuser? → 00:36:09 - How was she manipulated into staying silent? → 00:38:48 - Why did the abuse begin again after he returned home? → 00:43:51 - How did her mother treat her differently from her sister? → 00:46:03 - What is a mother wound? → 00:48:38 - How did her mother also groom her?  → 00:51:56 - How does her family treat her abuser to this day? → 00:53:29 - Why does she still struggle to cut off her mother? → 00:57:17 - Why is it so difficult to understand her mother's choices? → 00:59:29 - How did her mother respond to the allegations? → 01:02:55 - What happened when he got out of jail? → 01:05:01 - How did her stepfather regain her trust? → 01:08:01 - What happened after he slapped her? → 01:14:37 - How did he continue manipulating her emotionally? → 01:17:19 - Why did she finally leave home? → 01:20:01 - When did she leave the city?  → 01:23:53 - What happened during the court proceedings? → 01:27:09 - How has family betrayal impacted her adulthood? → 01:30:20 - When did they get married? → 01:31:22 - How did the assault affect her mental health? → 01:34:05 - How is she breaking cycles moving forward? → 01:37:41 - How is she struggling with people pleasing?  → 01:40:02 - What is her relationship with her family like now? → 01:42:48 - Why do so many survivors feel guilty?  → 01:46:02 - How has becoming a stepmother changed her perspective? → 01:48:35 - How do you live your life with trauma? → 01:51:02 - Why does she feel obligated to share her story?  → 01:54:38 - Why is it so important for survivors to speak out?  Further Listening:  → My Father Was a Pastor and a Predator [https://youtu.be/ChjEtgNM1EI] More We Are All Insane:  → OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time [https://were-all-insane.myshopify.com/] → Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts  [https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane] Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices [https://megaphone.fm/adchoices]

I Was a School Shooter

Some stories are incredibly difficult to hear—but that doesn't mean they shouldn't be told. At 16 years old, he brought a shotgun into his high school. One teacher was shot, countless lives were forever changed, and he would spend the next 17 years in prison living with the consequences of his actions. Today, he works alongside educators, law enforcement, and mental health professionals, speaking openly about warning signs, intervention, accountability, healing, and hope for those who may be struggling in silence. Topics Discussed: → What causes someone to become a school shooter? → Can childhood trauma lead to violent behavior? → What are the warning signs before school violence? → How does untreated depression affect teenagers? → Can someone truly change after prison? Sponsored By: → AirDoctor | Head to https://AirDoctorPro.com [https://airdoctorpro.com/] and use promo code INSANE to get $250 off select AirDoctor air purifiers, including the 3500, 4000, and 5500 models. A 30-day money-back guarantee backs every purchase. → Cozy Earth | Stay comfortable all summer long with Cozy Earth’s Bamboo Sheet Set, Everywhere Pant, and Everyday Polo. For an exclusive offer, head to https://cozyearth.com [https://cozyearth.com/] and use code INSANE to receive 20% off your order. On This Episode We Cover:  → 00:00:00 - Introduction  → 00:01:57 - What can we learn from someone who committed school violence?  → 00:02:52 - Why is he telling his story now? → 00:05:24 - What was his childhood really like? → 00:07:27 - How did childhood sexual abuse shape his mental health? → 00:08:01 - When did depression begin to take over? → 00:09:05 - Why did he attempt suicide? → 00:12:21 - How did his relationship with school change? → 00:13:59 - Did the mental hospital actually help? → 00:16:16 - How did his mental health spiral so quickly? → 00:17:36 - Why did his mom hire an attorney?  → 00:20:18 - Why didn't he tell anyone about the abuse? → 00:22:59 - What is the impact of being open about your trauma?  → 00:26:20 - How can we all relate to each other more?  → 00:27:57 - What happened after he left school for the summer? → 00:28:43 - How did he feel when he returned to school?  → 00:29:55 - How did it feel to drop out of high school?  → 00:31:48 - How did he start to feel at community college?  → 00:33:55 - How was his mom handling his mental decline?  → 00:35:21 - What is the gun safety process?  → 00:37:12 - When did he become suicidal again?  → 00:38:33 - Why did he decide to bring a gun to school? → 00:40:51 - What was in his suicide note?  → 00:41:29 - What was going through his mind that morning? → 00:42:33 - How was he feeling throughout the shooting?  → 00:44:36 - Did he come in with a plan?  → 00:46:50 - When did he decide to start shooting?  → 00:49:06 - What happened when he fired the first shot?  → 00:51:22 - How was the shooting stopped? → 00:53:37 - Why did he finally give up?   → 00:54:17 - How does he feel about being alive today?  → 00:55:36 - What is his mission in life?  → 00:57:52 - How did his friends and family respond? → 01:01:32 - What was prison really like? → 01:04:29 - Who did he maintain contact with while in prison?  → 01:08:09 - When did he decide to share his story? → 01:13:01 - How does it feel to share his story now?  → 01:14:15 - What did he do after getting out of prison?  → 01:16:28 - What happened when he experienced an act of violence?  → 01:24:31 - Why did he accept his death?  Further Listening: → My Dad Planned To Kill Us [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zz47y_L2VgA] Check Out Jon Romano:  → https://www.tiktok.com/@jonseekingpeace [https://www.tiktok.com/@jonseekingpeace] → https://chooselovemovement.org/ [https://chooselovemovement.org/] → https://988lifeline.org/ [https://988lifeline.org/] More We Are All Insane: - OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time: https://shop.wereallinsane.com [https://shop.wereallinsane.com/] - Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts: https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane [https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane] Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices [https://megaphone.fm/adchoices]

My Dad Planned to Kill Us

Victoria grew up watching her father abuse her mother, never knowing what would happen behind closed doors. In this episode, she shares what it was like growing up in a home shaped by domestic violence, addiction, and fear, and how those experiences continued to impact her long after her father was arrested.  She opens up about the night everything changed, the grief of losing multiple family members while trying to rebuild her life, the complicated relationship she has with her father today, and how she's worked to break generational cycles of abuse. Victoria's story is one of resilience, healing, and choosing a different future despite the trauma she endured. Topics Discussed: → Growing Up in a Home Affected by Domestic Violence → Living With the Effects of Childhood Trauma → Escaping Abuse and Rebuilding a Life → Grief, Loss, and Healing Through Family Tragedy → Breaking Generational Cycles of Abuse and Addiction → Navigating a Complex Relationship With an Abusive Parent → Finding Healing by Sharing Her Story Sponsored By: → Cozy Earth | Stay comfortable all summer long with Cozy Earth’s Bamboo Sheet Set, Everywhere Pant, and Everyday Polo. For an exclusive offer, head to https://cozyearth.com [https://cozyearth.com/] and use code INSANE to receive 20% off your order. On This Episode We Cover: → 00:00:00 - Introduction → 00:01:31 - What was her childhood like growing up in a Mexican household? → 00:07:10 - When did she first realize something was wrong at home? → 00:12:49 - What was it like growing up with domestic violence? → 00:18:03 - Why did her mom stay with her father for so long? → 00:24:18 - Why did she feel safest with her family in Mexico? → 00:31:12 - How did her family finally escape the abuse? → 00:37:58 - What happened after her father was arrested? → 00:43:55 - How did her family begin rebuilding their lives? → 00:47:07 - How did losing her grandfather change her quinceañera? → 00:48:34 - How did her mom turn a quinceañera into buying their first home? → 00:50:12 - How did growing up with abuse affect her relationships? → 00:54:05 - How did losing her aunt and cousin change her outlook on life? → 00:57:14 - Why didn't she want her father at her graduation? → 01:00:45 - What did a detective tell her that changed everything? → 01:05:32 - How did she begin healing from years of trauma? → 01:09:48 - How did healthy relationships change her perspective? → 01:14:18 - How did alcohol become a coping mechanism? → 01:18:42 - What helped her finally begin letting go of the past? → 01:24:09 - Why did she decide to reconnect with her father? → 01:31:56 - How did she learn to forgive without forgetting? → 01:38:27 - What did she discover after searching her father's room? → 01:46:35 - Why was telling the truth so difficult? → 01:52:18 - What is her relationship with her father like today? → 02:00:45 - What did investigators uncover during the case? → 02:05:15 - Why did she decide to tell her family's story? → 02:09:02 - How does she protect her peace while keeping her father at arm's length? → 02:13:12 - Why did she decide to share her story publicly? → 02:16:38 - What does she hope other survivors take away from her story? Further Listening:  → I Lived With Bill Gates After Escaping Abuse [https://youtu.be/afqLxNaCauw] Check Out Victoria:  →  https://www.instagram.com/ruizandrobledocleaningco/ [https://www.instagram.com/ruizandrobledocleaningco/] Resources:  → https://www.houseofruthinc.org/ [https://www.houseofruthinc.org/] → https://www.loveisrespect.org/ [https://www.loveisrespect.org/] → https://www.thehotline.org/ [https://www.thehotline.org/] → https://www.cpedv.org/ [https://www.cpedv.org/] → https://ncadv.org/ [https://ncadv.org/] Megaphone  - OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time [https://were-all-insane.myshopify.com/] - Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts  [https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane] Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices [https://megaphone.fm/adchoices]