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I’m beating myself up and getting rsd over a podcast

4 min · 21. maj 2026
episode I’m beating myself up and getting rsd over a podcast cover

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In this episode, I’m talking about my emotionally unhealthy attachment to Spotify analytics… because apparently ADHD brains can turn literally ANYTHING into a dopamine spiral 😭 One minute I’m casually checking my podcast stats… The next I’m: ✨ refreshing plays every seven minutes ✨ analysing listener retention like a detective ✨ emotionally attaching my self-worth to episode performance ✨ wondering if I’m uploading too much ✨ spiralling because one title got 4 plays instead of 24 This episode is a funny, honest, chaotic reflection on ADHD, dopamine, validation, reassurance-seeking, perfectionism, creative obsession, and the very neurodivergent experience of overanalysing EVERYTHING you care deeply about. But underneath the humour, I also talk about: 💜 rejection sensitivity 💜 needing reassurance 💜 fear of failure 💜 attaching worth to productivity 💜 creative vulnerability 💜 why neurodivergent people can become obsessed with feedback and progress Because honestly? Sometimes it’s not even about the numbers. Sometimes it’s about finally feeling understood for the first time in your life. Topics include: ADHD, AuDHD, dopamine, validation, rejection sensitivity, creator burnout, podcasting, perfectionism, reassurance-seeking, neurodivergent anxiety, self-worth, emotional overwhelm, and obsessive checking behaviours.

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