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04. Shame Spirals, ADHD & a Baby in a Blizzard | GAYDHD with Emma Willmann

Emma Willmann sits down with comedian Ashley Austin Morris for an honest, hilarious deep-dive into life with ADHD — from shame spirals over undone dishes to hyperfocus mysteries, lost wallets, and thriving in total chaos. Ashley opens up about growing up in Texas housing projects, being pulled in and out of school, and never having ADHD formally explained to her — yet somehow always knowing her brain worked differently. Emma and Ashley bond over the peculiar ADHD gift of shining in a crisis (even one you personally created), the complicated feelings around medication, and why the early days of the pandemic felt like a bizarre relief. They also get into postpartum life, emergency C-sections, fighting with nurses on morphine, the surprisingly slow arrival of that "instant bond" with a newborn, and how having a baby can finally snap ADHD priorities into focus. Plus: a Reddit 'Am I the Asshole?' segment about an ADHD husband who is, in his wife's words, "a golden retriever with direct deposit." Check out Ashley Austin Morris at @AshAustinMorris on all platforms! If you relate to any of this — the lost wallets, the cabinet doors you need open, the hamsters you definitely did not mean to lose — drop a comment below. Subscribe so you never miss an episode of GAYDHD.

03. ADHD, Top Surgery & Phone Addiction with Molly Kearney | GAYDHD with Emma Willmann

Molly Carney joins Emma Willmann on GAYDHD for one of the most relatable conversations we've had yet. From phone addiction and TikTok rabbit holes to ADHD cabinet doors left open forever — if you've ever spent 18 hours on your phone on a random Tuesday, this episode is for you. Molly opens up about growing up queer at a Catholic all-girls school, the stomach anxiety that came with being in the closet, and how therapy helped her build real tools to cope. She also shares her experience getting top surgery, dealing with unexpected health setbacks, and why every shirt she puts on now feels like a gift. Emma and Molly also get into the chaos of being neurodivergent performers — the social media pressure, the auditions that just don't feel right, and what it's like to be hyper-aware of how audiences perceive you. Plus, a wild Reddit 'Am I the Asshole' deep dive about a girlfriend who talks to her car like it's a person named Angie. This episode goes everywhere: Vyvanse vs. Adderall, sex robots that just say 'good job,' Justin Bieber, Seinfeld's gay subtext, and why Molly wants to be a stagehand for JB more than a backup dancer.

02. The Art of Small Talk (and Why I’m Bad at It) | GAYDHD with Emma Willmann | BONUS EPISODE

Small talk is harder than it looks — and a cruise ship is the worst place to figure that out. Emma Willmann just got back from performing comedy on a cruise and came home with one big realization: she's lost the ability to have a normal short-form interaction with another human being. From blurting "I'm not a prostitute" to a stranger at the breakfast buffet, to derailing elevator conversations with true crime documentaries about people going feral on ships, Emma breaks down exactly how and why small talk goes wrong — and why it actually matters that we get it right. This episode covers the real reason small talk exists (spoiler: it's about making people feel safe), what it means to vibe-match, why jumping straight to existential dread is not the move, and how a deceased friend's rigorous honesty in early sobriety helped Emma finally understand the concept of "giving people somewhere to go" in a conversation.

01. Intrusive Thoughts, OCD, and Botox Confessions with Jordan Jensen | GAYDHD with Emma Willmann

Welcome to GAYDHD with Emma Willmann! This week I sit down with Jordan Jensen and we go deep on the real experience of intrusive thoughts (yes, including the ones that terrify you), what it's actually like managing OCD with exposure therapy and Prozac, and why sleeping 10 hours still feels like a hangover. We also get into under-eye fillers, tummy tucks, and what happened when a cosmetic clinic basically told me to go home because I didn't need anything done. If you've ever punched a car, said the wrong thing at the worst possible moment, or convinced yourself you're allergic to pineapple — this one's for you. See me live: https://www.bandsintown.com/a/10807299-emma-willmann ✅ Stay Connected With Me. 👉Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/EmmaWillmannComedy/ 👉Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/emmawillmann 👉Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@iamemmawillmann 👉Twitter: https://twitter.com/iamemmawillmann

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Emma talks about getting back from a cruise and realizing she might be bad at small talk. What starts with one awkward interaction turns into a riff on group chat anxiety, conversational “vibe matching,” and why some people make casual conversation look effortless while others somehow turn it into a hostage situation. A funny solo episode about awkwardness, overthinking, and the hidden social rules everyone else seems to understand.