The Felonist

The Core and the Current

18 min · 13. maj 2026
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These entries capture the moment when the core — the truest part of me — rose back to the surface, and the current — the force of surrender — began to guide me instead of fear. In The Core and the Current, I start to see the self I had buried under years of effort, noise, and pride, and I begin to understand how far I had drifted from God and from myself. The Rule of Prayer was already written by this point; what I was learning here was how to live it — how to apply it to daily life, how to listen, how to wait, and how to let discernment replace panic. I write about hunger, humility, vocation, pride, the book idea that wouldn’t let go, and the interior discipline Bedford demanded. This is where I stopped gripping the wheel of my life and let the current pull me back to the core I had forgotten.

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