“Excommunication Can Be Fun” with Rachel Dispenza | Cross My Heart # 13

“Excommunication Can Be Fun” with Rachel Dispenza | Cross My Heart # 13

This week I'm joined by comedian Rachel Dispenza (@racheldispenser)! We  went deep on therapy, religion, and whether gay people ever actually break up with their exes (they don't) New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤 0:00 Intro 0:31 The Sheep Detective Review 5:37 The Door Holder Story 14:13 Confessional: Are You Gay? 15:00 Identity Labels 20:00 Do You Want Kids? 26:22 Do You Believe in God? 27:44 What Did Death Look Like? 33:18 Excommunication  34:48 Signs You Were Gay  39:27 First Queer Relationships & Never Blocking Exes 43:38 Going to Our Exes' Weddings 44:47 Cross My Heart: Childhood Embarrassment 47:08 Hula Hoop Injustice 50:00 Forgive Me But: Devil Wears Prada 2 55:00 Forgive Me But: Call Me on the Phone 58:27 Analog Summer & Deleting Spotify 1:02:21 Starting a Show + Where to Find Rachel Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah Beck dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram.  Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

Solo Stoned Episode: The Lesbian Mafia, 2.5mg Edibles, & the Gilded Age | Cross My Heart #12

It's another Solo Stoned episode! I answered your questions, reviewed everything I watched and read, went deep on the Gilded Age, and accidentally got too high to finish the episode.  We talked about: turning down Ozempic ads, the lesbian mafia (my ex-girlfriends network of favors), The Sheep Detectives, Big Mistakes, Famesick by Lena Dunham, Piranesi, why Great Gatsby still hits in 2026, old money vs. new money, Mother's Day when you don't have a mom, dressing like your younger self, my '90s mom summer era, and the time I went to prom. Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest. Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤 Chapters: 0:00 – Cold open: the prom story 0:51 – Intro & the edible situation 2:20 – Turning down Ozempic ads 2:21 – Fidget toys & Jeannie B ASMR 4:03 – Roses & Thorns: NYC trip & getting sick 5:26 – Starting a cult for: The Sheep Detectives 7:00 – Forgive me but: engage with old media 7:26 – Great Gatsby & the guy who peaked at 21 9:29 – Gilded Age hyperfixation: old money vs. new money 11:15 – Passage of time high thought 13:03 – Forgive me but: take alone time on trips 14:45 – Q&A: favorite lesbian stereotype 15:35 – Advice: newly gay in Utah 17:45 – The lesbian mafia 19:26 – Media review: Sheep Detectives, Big Mistakes, Kimmy Schmidt, Fame Sick, Piranesi 27:00 – Mother's Day without a mom 28:42 – Dressing like your younger self 30:06 – The prom story (full version) 31:26 – Starting a cult for: '90s mom summer 32:11 – Writing a pilot & journaling 33:15 – Stand-up shows & Mortified Chicago #HannahBeck #CrossMyHeartPodcast #GayPodcast #LesbianPodcast #QueerComedy #TikTokComedian #DearDaddyGod #ChicagoComedy #SoloStoned #LesbianMafia #GildedAge #GreatGatsby #90sMomSummer #ExEvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #QueerTikTok #Podcast Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, solo stoned episode, lesbian mafia, Great Gatsby, Gilded Age, Lena Dunham Famesick, Piranesi, Sheep Detectives, '90s mom summer, religious trauma, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, stand-up comedy, coming out stories, mental health, chosen family, comfort creator Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

“Lesbians Are Doing Something Worse Than Sex” with Lauren Warwick | Cross My Heart Episode 11

Lauren is here for episode 11! (@notfunnylauren) This week we talked about leaving religion on TikTok before it was a thing, the shifting TikTok era, dream jokes, consciousness, signing an NDA, restorative justice, women being the original perverts, and the Big Bang Theory Cinematic Universe. Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest. Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤 Chapters: 0:00 – Victoria's Secret & gay signs 0:33 – Confessional: are you gay? 1:36 – Religious deconstruction  5:25 – Shifting TikTok, dream jokes, consciousness 9:36 – Hannah’s NDA 16:06 – Fletcher, JoJo Siwa, lesbian icons 20:31 – sneaking out & sex collages 26:23 – Women are the original good perverts 30:57 – What are you starting a cult for? 40:01 – Forgive me but: Partiful & the Big Bang Theory universe 45:26 – TV recommendations, writing a pilot HannahBeck #CrossMyHeartPodcast #GayPodcast #LesbianPodcast #QueerComedy #TikTokComedian #DearDaddyGod #ChicagoComedy #ComingOut #MidwestLGBTQ #ExEvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #ChristianDeconstruction #QueerTikTok #Podcast Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, religious trauma, ex-evangelical, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, religious deconstruction, legal system, stand-up comedy, viral TikTok, queer, podcast, comfort creator, coming out stories, mental health, chosen family Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

“Homoerotic Friendships” with Chloe | Cross My Heart Episode 10

Chloe is here for episode 10! This week we talked about homoerotic friendships, turning 25, “Cry Thursdays”  at church camp, chosen family over blood family, ASMR, and all-time favorite albums. . Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤 Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest. Chapter:  0:00 – Hannah’s birthday party 11:21 – Confessional: are you gay? 17:42 – God is a woman (and we worship her) 25:19 – Embarrassing middle school stories (the refrigerator box) 31:00 – Homoerotic friendships 35:21 – Starting a cult for: Midwestern ways of showing love & full albums 45:00 – Forgive me but: put your dog on a leash & write letters 48:06 – Roses & Thorns HannahBeck #CrossMyHeartPodcast #GayPodcast #LesbianPodcast #QueerComedy #TikTokComedian #DearDaddyGod #ChicagoComedy #ComingOut #MidwestLGBTQ #ExEvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #ChristianDeconstruction #ChosenFamily #MentalHealth #ComfortCreator #StandUpComedy #QueerTikTok #Podcast Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, religious trauma, ex-evangelical, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, Caleb Hearon, So True Podcast, Brittany Broski, Broski Report with Brittany Broski, comfort creator, coming out stories, Christian deconstruction, mental health, therapy podcast, chosen family, lesbian dating, stand-up comedy, viral TikTok, queer, podcast Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

Youtube Raised Me Gay with Kaitlin | Cross My Heart Episode 9

My friend Kaitlin is here! This week we talked about lesbian fanfics, the youtubers that raised us (and the ones that were cancelled), Alexander Hamilton, miniskirts, and a DM from a lady named Paula that I feel weird about!  Follow Kaitlin @k.aitlin.joi on IG Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤 Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest. #HANNAHBECK #CROSSMYHEARTPODCAST #GAYPODCAST #LESBIANPODCAST #QUEERCOMEDY #TIKTOKCOMEDIAN #DEARDADDYGOD #CHICAGOCOMEDY #COMINGOUT #MIDWESTLGBTQ #EXEVANGELICAL #RELIGIOUSTRAUMA #CHRISTIANDECONSTRUCTION #CHOSENFAMILY #MENTALHEALTH #COMFORTCREATOR #STANDUPCOMEDY #QUEERTIKTOK #PODCAST Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, religious trauma, ex-evangelical, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, Caleb Hearon, So True Podcast, Brittany Broski, Broski Report with Brittany Broski, comfort creator, coming out stories, Christian deconstruction, mental health, therapy podcast, chosen family, lesbian dating, stand-up comedy, viral TikTok, queer, podcast Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤