Episode 7: Ancient Company — You Are Not the First to Feel This

Episode 7: Ancient Company — You Are Not the First to Feel This

🎨 Join Paris for Giving Shape to Sorrow — a guided grief art retreat, [https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/offers/HRpheoco/checkout] June 13 (online, 90 min) 💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠Notes from the In Between⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/notes-from-the-in-between] ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ [https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/] One of the cruelest things about the wall is what it whispers: everyone else's faith is working. Yours is the one that broke. The historical record says otherwise. In this episode, Paris introduces you to the people who have been here before you. Elijah under the broom tree, asking God to take his life. Paul, writing that he despaired of life itself. Jesus in Gethsemane, sweating blood. John of the Cross, writing about the dark night from a prison cell. Julian of Norwich, whispering all shall be well from inside her own suffering. The Desert Fathers and Mothers, who went into the wilderness not to escape — but to find. They were not weak. They were not faithless. They were faithful people who hit the wall and wrote it down — so that someone like you could find it one day and exhale. You are not crazy. You are not uniquely broken. You are not the first. You are in ancient, holy, hard company. And you are held.

Episode 6.5: When You Can Name the Trigger Before It Names You

The Story That's Been Shaping You Behind the Scenes Something happened this week in a relationship that matters to me. A trigger surfaced. My body felt it before my mind had words for it. And for the first time in a while, I could name what was happening before it named me. In this episode we talk about the difference between head faith and embodied faith, how the brain stores and recalls patterns from your past, what bodily resistance actually is and why it feels almost uncontrollable, and what becomes possible when the story that has been shaping you behind the scenes finally comes into the light. Referenced in this episode: Geoff and Cyd Holsclaw, Landscapes of the Soul: How the Science and Spirituality of Attachment Can Move You into Confident Faith, Courage, and Connection (Tyndale, 2025) Center for Embodied Faith: embodiedfaith.life Attaching to God podcast: available on all podcast platforms Bessel van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score BGG Episode 4.5 (the war zone and disorganized attachment) Free resource mentioned: What Are You Really Feeling? — Free guided workbook https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/What-Are-You-Really-Feeling-Opt-in Embodied Integration Practices: https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/offers/4mrQghrR/checkout

Episode 6: The Two Spiritualities — When the Faith You Were Taught Stops Being Enough

🎨 Join Paris for Giving Shape to Sorrow — a guided grief art retreat, [https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/offers/HRpheoco/checkout] June 13 (online, 90 min) 💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠Notes from the In Between⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/notes-from-the-in-between] ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ [https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/] You did everything right. You showed up. You pressed on. You did the Bible programs, the prayer lists, the accountability. And somewhere along the way — it stopped working. Not because your faith is broken. Because the container you were given was never built for what you are now carrying. In this episode, Paris introduces one of the most clarifying concepts in this entire series — the two spiritualities. The first half of faith and the second. And why the wall between them is not a punishment, a failure, or the beginning of deconstruction. It is a doorway. If you have been wondering why trying harder keeps making things worse — this episode will give you the language you have been missing. You are not losing your faith. It is going deeper than it has ever gone.

Episode 5.5: Your Body Is Not Your Enemy: What the Psalms Actually Do to Your Nervous System

Most of us were taught the Psalms as inspiration. Beautiful, ancient poetry to lift us when we feel low. But David was not writing inspiration. He was processing. He brought his fear, his rage, his grief, his abandonment — raw, unfiltered, completely unpolished — and he voiced it to God. Not the cleaned-up version. The real one. And what modern neuroscience is now confirming is that what David was doing in those Psalms was not just spiritually significant. It was physiologically significant. He was metabolizing his pain — moving it through his body and his soul with God — in a way that actually changed him from the inside out. In this episode, I am sitting with something that surfaced powerfully in the last two Seen in the Wilderness sessions. Many of the women in that room could not name what they were feeling. Some felt shame about that. And I want to address it directly — because what was happening in that room was not a spiritual failure. It was a nervous system doing exactly what it was designed to do. We are going to talk about: * Why so many of us disconnected from our bodies in the first place, and why that was never weakness * What actually happens when your body starts to wake up during healing, and why it feels like your body is attacking you * The theology underneath all of this: Incarnation, embodied resurrection, image-bearing, and why your spirituality cannot be separated from your physical body * What your nervous system actually needs to heal, and why thinking your way through is not enough * Why the Psalms were written to be sung, not just read, and what music does to your nervous system at a cellular level * How a contained music practice became one of the most faithful things I did for three years of my life Your body is not your enemy. It never was. This episode is for the woman who has been treating it like one. Books: * The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk * The Boy Who Was Raised as a Dog by Bruce D. Perry Scripture References (NASB95): * Psalm 22:1 * Psalm 42:1 * Psalm 62:1 * Psalm 139:13-14 * Ephesians 5:31-32 Work with Paris: Storyline: Seen, Known & Restored — a 9-week trauma-informed formation journey for women ready to do the deep work of healing, story, and reconnection with God. betweengriefandglory.com/storyline Instagram: instagram.com/betweengriefandglory Website: betweengriefandglory.com You do not have to keep carrying this alone. Storyline: Seen, Known & Restored is a space for women who are ready to stop performing their healing and start actually doing it — in their bodies, their stories, and their faith. Learn more at betweengriefandglory.com/storyline

Episode 5: When You Don't Know Where You Are — Finding Solid Ground in the Disorientation

💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠Notes from the In Between⁠⁠⁠ [https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/notes-from-the-in-between] ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ [https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/] You are at the wall. But which one? Because not all darkness is the same. And if you have been treating your wall like something it is not — applying remedies that don't fit, wondering why nothing is working — you may have been wandering in the right territory with the wrong map. In this episode, Paris walks through the six types of walls that show up in the Christian life — burnout, spiritual burnout, blowout, personal crisis, faith crisis, and the dark night of the soul — and why knowing which one you are in is the beginning of knowing how to stay. This is not a clinical checklist. It is a pastoral map. And it might give you the first language you have had for something you have been carrying alone for a very long time. You are not lost. You are going deeper.