Okay, But What If I Don't Want To Be Here?

The Pause I Didn't Choose

There’s a kind of pause no one prepares you for. The one after the breakup, after graduation, after the plan falls apart. In this episode, I share what happened when my life went quiet- the OCD spiral, the uncertainty, the loss of identity, and the uncomfortable space of not knowing who I was becoming. This podcast is going to explore that space, the messy middle, through conversations with women who’ve experienced their own pauses. Because social media shows the milestones, but rarely the middle. And I think the middle deserves to be talked about!!

The Journey of a Diagnosis

The day I got diagnosed with OCD!! (and apparently ADHD now woo!) In this episode I discuss how I was officially diagnosed with OCD, how I got an appointment in the first place, and why getting answers mattered so much. If you've ever questioned your mental health, doubted your thoughts, or felt lost in your mind - this one is for you! Gab x

Okay, But What If I Don't Want To Be Here?

This week has been really, really hard. The kind of week where I couldn’t see a future. Where the medication felt like it was making everything worse. Where I felt numb, hopeless, and like I was slipping back into something I’ve fought so hard to crawl out of. In this episode, I open up about what that’s looked like for me- the scary thoughts, the complete lack of motivation, and the terrifying idea that maybe I’ll never feel better again. I also share a few things my therapist said that helped me just hold on… even when I couldn’t believe them yet. If you’re in that space too, I’m not here to fix it. But I am here to sit with you in it. You are not alone in the dark. Gab x

What OCD Actually Is

I always thought OCD meant being tidy- until I realised I had it. In this episode, I'm talking about what OCD really is, and what it definitely isn't, and how it really feels to live with it. If you've ever felt stuck in your own head or want to understand someone who is, this one's for you. Insta @okaybutwhatifpod Gabriella x

The Spiral Isn't Who I Am

I started this podcast in the middle of an OCD spiral- not after it, not once I'd figured it all out. This first episode is about what happens when your thoughts get so loud you don't know what's real anymore. When OCD, anxiety and depression collide and suddenly you don't trust your own brain. I used to think my spirals made me broken, and that they were who I was. But now i'm starting to believe, maybe they're not. This is the beginning of me saying the things I used to be scared of out loud. If you've ever asked yourself "what if something is wrong with me?" - this is for you.