Episode 54: What the Dentist Taught Me About Coaching (And About You)

Episode 54: What the Dentist Taught Me About Coaching (And About You)

Twenty-eight weeks ago, I sat down in a dentist chair and said yes to something I had been quietly talking myself out of for years. This episode is the whole story and by the end of it, I think you're going to recognise something. Not about teeth. About that thing. The one that's been sitting in the background of your life for longer than you probably want to admit. A few years before that appointment, I was already in that world. Four of my kids were in braces, one right after the other, often overlapping. I sat in orthodontist waiting rooms more times than I can count, and somewhere in all of those visits, I actually looked into getting my own teeth sorted. I considered it. I met with the orthodontist. And then I set it back down. Not because it wasn't possible. Because it felt like too much. Too much money going in my direction when the kids needed theirs. Too much time. Too much me. That's the part I want to be honest about in this episode, because it matters more than the teeth. When I finally picked up that pamphlet and followed through, the only thing that had changed was this: I had finally given myself permission to just want what I wanted. Not because it was urgent. Not because it was medically necessary. Not because anyone else had even noticed the problem. Because I wanted it. And I decided that was enough. If something in this episode landed for you, I want to invite you to schedule a consultation at It Gets Better Now [https://itgetsbetternow.com/]. It's just a conversation. No commitment, no pressure just an honest look at where you're starting and what the plan might look like from here. What You'll Learn: * [00:00 - 03:00] The pamphlet moment and why picking it up the second time was completely different * [03:00 - 07:00] The real reason she set it back down the first time (and why "it wasn't the right time" was only part of the story) * [08:00 - 11:30] What the dentist analogy reveals about how coaching actually works * [11:30 - 14:00] The stubborn tooth: what happens when the plan needs adjusting and nobody treats it as failure * [14:00 - 16:30] Why "better than before" is not the same thing as what you actually came for * [17:00 - 23:00] Why every woman she's worked with says the same thing at the end and what to do before you move on from this episode Your Next Steps * Schedule a Consultation [https://itgetsbetternow.com/] — just a conversation, no commitment * Listen on Apple Podcasts * Listen on Spotify

Episode 53: The 30 Rules Every Physician Spouse Has Been Quietly Following

I was cleaning up my kitchen late at night. He wasn't home yet. And I just... filmed it. I posted a reel with a voiceover I'd written. Quiet, a little too honest, the kind of thing that travels when it says something people have been carrying without words. It did well. Maybe too well, because when content reaches outside your community, the opinions that come in are not always from people who know this world. Two comments landed that I couldn't quite put down. The first: "He can also be home at 3:00 PM and bring home $40,000." The second came from a female physician. "What's with all the whining? Your spouse is working so you can clean your beautiful kitchen on Instagram for everyone to see. As a female physician, this is such an eye roll moment." I sat with both of them for a moment. And then I thought: they're right. I clearly have not been following the rules. So I wrote them down. All thirty of them. Grouped into five categories: speaking and visibility, money and potential, identity and worth, the emotional load, and the pecking order. But here's what I actually came to say. Every single rule on that list, some part of you has already been following it. Not because someone handed you a list, but because the world handed it to you one small moment at a time. Through the at leasts. Through the eye rolls. Through the quiet but consistent message that your needs are a burden and your feelings are ungrateful and your life, however hard it has been, is too comfortable to complain about. You didn't make those rules up. You absorbed them. And you, being the capable, adaptable, hold-it-all-together woman that you are, you followed them. Because that is what survival mode does. It takes the rules of the environment and makes them your own. It convinces you that shrinking is wisdom. That silence is grace. That needing less is the same thing as being okay. It is not the same thing. None of those rules were ever yours to follow. Not one of them. And it gets better. Not eventually. Now. If this one found you at the right moment, will you share it? The women who need it most are still out there, still following rules that were never theirs. A share is how they find us. What You'll Learn * [00:00:00 - 01:00] The reel that traveled too far and the two comments that followed * [00:03:00 - 05:00] What the $40,000 comment and the female physician's eye roll actually reveal about the culture around physician families * [00:05:00 - 18:00] All 30 official rules, covering speaking and visibility, money, identity, the emotional load, and the pecking order * [00:18:30 - 20:00] The moment I dropped the script and said what I actually came to say * [00:20:00 - 22:00] Why none of those rules were ever yours to follow, and what it looks like to wake up inside your own life Your Next Steps * Share this episode with a physician spouse who needs to hear it * Leave a review on Apple Podcasts and tell us what Supporting Physician Spouses means to you * Listen on Apple Podcasts * Listen on Spotify

Episode 52: Celebrating One Year, Life Updates, Top Episodes, and What Comes Next

One year. Fifty-two weeks. Not a single one skipped. Today we're talking about what it actually looks and feels like to reach a milestone you weren't always sure you'd make and what it means to celebrate that, out loud, without waiting until everything is perfectly settled. In this episode, we talk about: * What it felt like for Katie to be at the tail end of residency and why having her own professional transition first made the landing softer. * Why Kendra stepped back from years of volunteer leadership roles, and what that clearing made room for (two books, as it turns out). * The tension between acting quickly on an inner prompting and waiting until you feel certain and why the waiting is where doubt creeps in. * What it means to follow a creative thread for 15 years without knowing where it leads, and then look back and see exactly why every step mattered. * Why Katie is stepping back from her co-host role, and what honoring your season actually looks like in practice. You'll hear: * Katie describe the shift from feeling trapped inside a life she didn't fully choose to standing at what she calls "the summit" and what the view looks like from there. * Kendra trace the origin of two books back to an anonymous blog she started writing during residency, 15 years before she knew what it would become. * A real conversation about what it feels like to move toward community instead of away from it and why that one thing changes everything about a relocation. * The top five most downloaded episodes of the year, with honest reflection on why each one resonated. This episode is especially for you if: * You're approaching the end of training and you expected to feel relief by now but instead you feel strangely braced, waiting for the other shoe to drop. * You have a creative project, a desire, a quiet knowing about something you want to do and you keep putting it off until the season settles down. * You've been carrying most of the weight for years and you're finally starting to ask what it would look like to put some of it down. Links & resources mentioned: Download our free guide, Life After Survival Mode [https://subscribepage.io/skYpZa] Ready for deeper support? Apply for a free call to see if coaching is right for you. [https://itgetsbetternow.com/apply/] Stay connected: Follow us on Instagram: @supportingphysicianspouses | @kendra_itgetsbetternow Learn more about coaching: www.itgetsbetternow.com

Episode 51: Silently Surviving: One Physician Spouse's Honest Story About Anxiety and Depression

Nobody warns you that you can be drowning and still make the lunches, still answer every question, still show up for bath time with a smile. Mental health doesn't always look like falling apart. Sometimes it looks like holding it together so well that nobody thinks to ask if you're okay. That's where this conversation begins. My guest today is Ally Hayward. She is a mother of four, a physician spouse deep in orthopedic surgery residency in Shreveport, Louisiana, and the woman behind the Instagram community Silently Surviving Souls. Ally and I first connected in the DMs back in February of 2021, when her husband had just started medical school. Four years later, we're finally sitting down together, and I think this conversation is one this community has needed for a long time. Ally was first diagnosed with anxiety and depression in 2012, during the eleven months she spent on a church mission before coming home early because things had gotten too bad to keep going. She came home to a world that wasn't quite ready to talk about any of it. So eventually, she built a space where people could. What I didn't expect from this conversation was how clearly Ally would name the thing so many physician spouses carry quietly. Not just the anxiety itself, but the deliberate decision to hide how bad it was. She didn't tell her husband the depth of what she was experiencing. She didn't tell her parents. She didn't tell her in-laws. Because she didn't want to be another weight on someone already carrying too much. Because everyone kept telling her how strong she was, and admitting the truth felt like surrendering the only thing she had left. She said something that stopped me mid-conversation. "If I'm not strong enough to do this, then what do we do?" That question is not just hers. I have heard some version of it from nearly every woman I work with. The strength that has carried you through the hardest years of your marriage can quietly become the thing keeping you from getting the help you actually need. We also talked about what a panic attack really feels like when it arrives out of nowhere at three in the morning, while your husband is at a conference and your parents are asleep down the hall. The tingling. The certainty that something is terribly wrong. The adrenaline that keeps you wide awake long after it passes. Ally describes it with the kind of honesty that makes you feel less alone in your own body. And then she tells you what helped. Not in a tidy, packaged way. Honestly, imperfectly, the way real answers usually come. Medication. Therapy. A neighbor who showed up on a night shift night and helped get four kids to bed without being asked. A primary care physician who took one look at her situation and said, "It's understandable that you feel this way." Those small moments of grace inside an incredibly hard season. Ally doesn't skip over them. She names them carefully. And I think that matters. If you've been carrying this quietly, this episode is for you. What You'll Learn * [00:06:00 - 00:08:00] How a pre-existing anxiety diagnosis collides with the specific pressures of medical training and why residency hits differently * [00:09:00 - 00:11:00] Why Ally hid the depth of her panic attacks from her husband and the identity trap that kept her silent * [00:12:00 - 00:13:00] The "strong wife" pattern and why being told you're amazing can quietly become the thing keeping you stuck * [00:13:00 - 00:16:00] What a severe panic attack feels like from the inside and one unexpected technique that actually helped when everything else was too far gone * [00:24:00 - 00:26:00] What has genuinely made a difference for Ally, including an honest conversation about medication and why she stopped being ashamed of it * [00:27:00 - 00:29:00] The tender mercies hiding inside the hard season and why appreciating the good days more is one of the quiet gifts of this kind of struggle Resources Mentioned * Silently Surviving Souls on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/silentlysurvivingsouls] * Life After Survival Mode Guide [https://subscribepage.io/skYpZa] Your Next Steps * Get the Life After Survival Mode Guide [https://subscribepage.io/skYpZa] * Follow Ally on Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/silentlysurvivingsouls] * Listen on Apple Podcasts * Listen on Spotify

Episode 50: The Warrior Mode Pattern Every Physician Spouse Needs to Recognize

Mother's Day can be the loneliest day of the year when your inside life doesn't match what everyone around you is celebrating. If you spent any part of it going through the motions, this episode is for you. Today we're talking about what happens when the thing that kept you functioning starts costing you yourself and how one physician spouse found her way back. In this episode, we talk about: * The "warrior mode" archetype and how it mirrors survival mode: blinders on, action-focused, tightly controlled, and quietly exhausting * The TIANT framework (Tension, Intention, Attention, No Tension) as a tool for recognizing when you're trying to control a situation and how to release it * The language signals that tell you you're in warrior mode, the "shoulds," "need tos," and "have tos" you're placing on the people around you * Why reconnecting with small sensory joys (a postcard of autumn leaves, a smell you love) is not indulgence but the specific antidote to warrior energy * The three-question reflection practice Margaret and her husband use for everything from holidays to hard conversations: what worked, what didn't, what do we try differently next time You'll hear: * Margaret's story of giving birth via emergency C-section while her neurosurgeon husband was in New Zealand, and what it taught her about surrendering expectations * The dinner conversation where she told her husband she had nothing left to contribute and the moment she realized the warrior had consumed everything else * The Mary Poppins bag moment: what happened when she finally handed her husband the diaper bag, said "have fun," and let go of control for two hours * The question she now asks herself to start coming back: not "what do I want for my life," but "what do I want for the next five minutes" This episode is especially for you if: * You can tell anyone exactly what your husband needs, what your kids need, what the dog needs but if someone asked you what you want right now, you would genuinely not know * You've been so deep in survival mode for so long that you've stopped noticing the tension in your shoulders, the grinding of your teeth, the tightness you've just accepted as normal * You know something needs to shift but pursuing anything for yourself still feels like a selfish act you haven't earned yet Links & resources mentioned: * A Hero's Journey in Parenting by Margaret Webb [https://www.amazon.com/Heros-Journey-Parenting-Expect-Expecting/dp/1737542102] * The Joy Diet by Martha Beck [https://www.amazon.com/Joy-Diet-Daily-Practices-Happier/dp/0609609904/ref=tmm_hrd_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&dib_tag=se&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.5plFtYE365r1VzChSYWUckgNU-fy0qSM9-vHRKgw6zplAhcBO_Y2Umz5l_HcNy0yQFbuMiqrX0gf0gk5cxAkziQwqTYURaI34vU9-VynX9jC7u7R5ZqHpKFnUN_PMD6_LBIKKCo5IGuQRZybnd9WWiqL9FfJ850QWDweWebH872pnBV96alQm7srQdPHDnpUeyM7uYFXyQ79JI_25UJt2vklMJTDMyp0kUeTRK75MGg.GSlI1Fz1OhivOQwlc7f26lpcjqgV5bDxHYeemvNp0xE&qid=1778447785&sr=8-1] * Margaret Webb's Website [https://www.margaretwebblifecoach.com/] * Life After Survival Mode Guide [https://subscribepage.io/skYpZa] Stay connected: * Follow us on Instagram: @supportingphysicianspouses | @kendra_itgetsbetternow * Learn more about coaching: www.itgetsbetternow.com