I Was Here... But I Wasn't Alive

I Thought I Had Outgrown That

When Someone Doesn't See You Being underestimated has a way of reaching past your growth and pulling out an older version of you. In this episode, I share what happened during a lunch conversation that triggered something I thought I'd moved past. After someone questioned my credentials — and my character — I defended myself well. Too well. And when the euphoria wore off, I had to sit with what that said about me. This isn't really about the man who doubted me. It's about the man who answered. Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2569456/fan_mail/new] THEE BIG SWING is a reflective podcast about the emotional reckonings and subtle internal recalibrations that change our trajectory over time — and the possibilities still available in life. Each episode explores the moments when curiosity, courage, accountability, or reflection opens new ways of seeing ourselves and the world. Through personal reflections and conversations, Lloyd explores changing identities, relationships, self-trust, and the quiet decisions that alter how we see ourselves over time. THEE BIG SWING is for people who are quietly realizing they are not the same person anymore and that there are still choices left. The biggest swing isn't always dramatic. Often, it's the shift inside that changes everything. If something here stayed with you, you can reach me at lloyd@theebigswing.com

It's Not Unconditional. I Wanted Something Back.

Some moments stay with you because they reveal something bigger underneath them. After traveling across states for her grandson's birthday, a mother finds herself wrestling with something many people quietly feel — the lack of courtesy, gratitude, and emotional awareness that can exist even within families. What begins as a conversation about a difficult weekend gradually turns into something deeper. Expectations between people. Feeling unappreciated after extending yourself. Boundaries with family. And the complicated truth behind the phrase unconditional love. At one point she says: "It's not unconditional. I wanted something back." A deeply honest conversation about family dynamics, emotional reciprocity, parenthood, and recalibrating how we show up for the people we love most. Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2569456/fan_mail/new] THEE BIG SWING is a reflective podcast about the emotional reckonings and subtle internal recalibrations that change our trajectory over time — and the possibilities still available in life. Each episode explores the moments when curiosity, courage, accountability, or reflection opens new ways of seeing ourselves and the world. Through personal reflections and conversations, Lloyd explores changing identities, relationships, self-trust, and the quiet decisions that alter how we see ourselves over time. THEE BIG SWING is for people who are quietly realizing they are not the same person anymore and that there are still choices left. The biggest swing isn't always dramatic. Often, it's the shift inside that changes everything. If something here stayed with you, you can reach me at lloyd@theebigswing.com

My Son Was Living in His Car. He Decided to Rise.

Two years ago, my son was sleeping in his car in Los Angeles… working 80 hours a week, barely showering, just trying to survive.  Today he’s in a different place. Not perfect. Not finished. But clear. In this episode, we sit down as father and son and talk honestly about what changed - and what didn’t. This isn’t really about trading. It’s about discipline, frustration, identity, and the moment you’re forced to look at yourself and decide who you’re going to be. Because sometimes the shift doesn’t happen all at once. It happens quietly. And then everything feels different. Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2569456/fan_mail/new] THEE BIG SWING is a reflective podcast about the emotional reckonings and subtle internal recalibrations that change our trajectory over time — and the possibilities still available in life. Each episode explores the moments when curiosity, courage, accountability, or reflection opens new ways of seeing ourselves and the world. Through personal reflections and conversations, Lloyd explores changing identities, relationships, self-trust, and the quiet decisions that alter how we see ourselves over time. THEE BIG SWING is for people who are quietly realizing they are not the same person anymore and that there are still choices left. The biggest swing isn't always dramatic. Often, it's the shift inside that changes everything. If something here stayed with you, you can reach me at lloyd@theebigswing.com

I Watched The Women Around Me Slowly Let Their Guard Down

I Watched Them Let Their Guard Down She thought she had to do it alone. Four women in my life — all very different, all fiercely independent — believed the same thing. They resisted help. They resisted anything unfamiliar or outside of themselves. And then, one by one, something shifted. This isn't really about AI. It's about the moment you realize you don't have to carry everything on your own anymore. Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2569456/fan_mail/new] THEE BIG SWING is a reflective podcast about the emotional reckonings and subtle internal recalibrations that change our trajectory over time — and the possibilities still available in life. Each episode explores the moments when curiosity, courage, accountability, or reflection opens new ways of seeing ourselves and the world. Through personal reflections and conversations, Lloyd explores changing identities, relationships, self-trust, and the quiet decisions that alter how we see ourselves over time. THEE BIG SWING is for people who are quietly realizing they are not the same person anymore and that there are still choices left. The biggest swing isn't always dramatic. Often, it's the shift inside that changes everything. If something here stayed with you, you can reach me at lloyd@theebigswing.com

I Was Here... But I Wasn't Alive

Some of us are not alive when we're here... This episode came from a moment I had recently—one I didn’t plan, but couldn’t ignore. Sitting in a movie theater, I found myself thinking about something I’ve thought about many times before: the difference between the time I’ve lived… and the time I likely have left. But this time, it stayed with me. And what struck me most wasn’t just that time is limited. It’s how different life can feel once you finally arrive at something real—and realize how long it took to get there. For a long stretch of my life… I wasn’t really living. I was just getting through it. In this episode, I reflect on what it feels like when something you’ve known for a long time… becomes something you can’t ignore—and the quiet realization that life moves faster than you think. This isn’t advice. Just something I’m seeing more clearly now. And maybe it’s worth seeing a little earlier. Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2569456/fan_mail/new] THEE BIG SWING is a reflective podcast about the emotional reckonings and subtle internal recalibrations that change our trajectory over time — and the possibilities still available in life. Each episode explores the moments when curiosity, courage, accountability, or reflection opens new ways of seeing ourselves and the world. Through personal reflections and conversations, Lloyd explores changing identities, relationships, self-trust, and the quiet decisions that alter how we see ourselves over time. THEE BIG SWING is for people who are quietly realizing they are not the same person anymore and that there are still choices left. The biggest swing isn't always dramatic. Often, it's the shift inside that changes everything. If something here stayed with you, you can reach me at lloyd@theebigswing.com