I Quit My Big Tech Job and Why I Don't Feel Free

I Quit My Big Tech Job and Why I Don't Feel Free

I quit my big tech job at 37 with no backup plan - just savings, a podcast, and a feeling that something in me was dying. I thought I'd feel free. Instead, I felt lost. This is the episode nobody talks about: what actually happens after you make the brave choice. One month in. No KPIs. No performance reviews. No one telling me where I stand. What I didn't expect was that the hardest part wouldn't be the financial fear or the beginner mistakes at 37 - it would be the voice in my head asking: do I even deserve to want this? That voice has a name. It's the Good Girl script. And it doesn't go quiet just because you took the leap. If you're a brown woman who has blown up a life that looked good on paper - or is standing at the edge of it - this one is for you. Not the highlight reel of the brave choice. The actual cost of it. Chapters: * 00:00 Why Quitting Didn't Feel Like Freedom * 03:54 What My Colleagues' Reactions Actually Revealed * 05:20 The Hidden Cost of Losing Your Corporate Identity * 06:18 The Good Girl Script Nobody Warned Me About * 08:38 The Three Unexpected Gifts of Quitting * 11:43 Unlearning the Script, One Episode at a Time * 12:09 If You're Standing at the Edge of Your Own Leap * 12:55 Celebrating progress and announcement Connect with Dirty Brown: * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/_dirtybrown_/] * YouTube [https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCCFxyY8xM2hz0zg_r3qoukA]

The Art Of Performing - Why I Chose To Be 'Unpalatable' To My Family ft. Reet German

At age seven, Reet German was brought from India to Canada by a father she had never met, leaving her mother behind. In this episode of Dirty Brown, Reet joins host Kriti J to discuss how that moment of "shock" birthed a lifelong performance of being the "Good Girl" - and the radical, "besharam" choices she made to burn that script down. From checking herself into a hospital alone at her lowest point, to selling everything and world-schooling her daughter across 20 countries, Reet's story is what it actually looks like to stop performing and start living on your own terms. Connect with Dirty Brown: * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/_dirtybrown_/] * YouTube [https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCCFxyY8xM2hz0zg_r3qoukA] Connect with Reet German [https://www.instagram.com/reignitewithreet/] Chapters * 00:00 Introduction: "I Was In Shock": Uprooted From India at 7 * 01:04 Meet Reet German: The Woman Behind Reignite with Reet * 01:24 Growing Up in Punjab: A Childhood Full of Love and Roots * 04:20 The Day Everything Changed: Brought to Canada by a Stranger * 07:38 "Someone Pulled the Rug Out": The Trauma of Displacement * 09:09 Learning the Art of Performing: The Good Girl is Born * 14:00 The Checklist Life: Marriage, House, Baby - and Emptiness * 21:00 Hitting Rock Bottom: Checking Herself Into Hospital Alone * 23:20 People Pleasing to Free: Selling Everything and Starting Over * 27:28 Going Back to India After 31 Years * 28:38 Trusting Her Gut: Finding Her Mother in a Punjab Village * 34:06 "It Didn't Happen TO Me. It Happened FOR Me." * 36:21 Closing: She Came With the Real Story

She Raised Herself, Had A Kid Outside Marriage, & Has Zero Regrets ft. Manisha Solomon

What does it actually cost a brown woman to choose herself - for decades? Manisha Solomon is an Indian woman in her 50s, unapologetic, and refuses to be invisible. In a culture that expects brown women to fade into the background after 50, Manisha has spent her entire life doing the opposite - and paying the price for it. In this episode of Dirty Brown, Manisha opens up about growing up with an emotionally absent mother, being forced to become independent at age 8, and writing a declaration at 12 that she would never get married. From cycling alone to Muay Thai to acting in her late 40s, she has never once asked for permission. We also get into: * What it's like to be estranged from your mother as a brown woman * How she raised her son as the complete opposite of how she was raised * Why she has never once felt invisible - even in her 50s * Keeping her last name, having a child outside of marriage, and not caring what the community thinks * The Badchalan Energy Quiz - how her answers changed from her 20s to her 50s Chapters: * 00:00 Introduction: "Maybe I Just Am" * 00:25 Meet Manisha Solomon: The Brown Woman Who Refuses to Fade * 02:22 Forced to Grow Up at Eight: The Cost of a Broken Home * 05:04 Estranged From Her Mother: Why She Never Looked Back * 07:02 Grieving a Mother Who's Still Alive: The Kit Kat Theory * 10:32 Acting in Her Late 40s: A Brown Woman Choosing Visibility * 14:25 How She Dresses, How She Defies: Style as Rebellion at 52 * 16:42 She Wrote a Declaration at 12: No Marriage, One Child * 17:58 Having a Kid Outside Marriage & Keeping Her Last Name * 20:46 The 12-Year-Old Who Wrote the Rest of Her Life * 22:04 Raising a Professional Archer Instead of a Doctor or Engineer * 24:00 The Badchalan Energy Quiz: Age 20 vs Age 52 * 28:04 What She'd Tell Her Teenage Self About the Woman She Became * 30:55 Kriti's Closing Reflection: What Unlearning Actually Costs

Meet the woman behind Dirty Brown | Celebrating 10+ episodes

She's spent 11 episodes asking the questions. This time, she's answering them. In this special milestone episode, your host Kriti J switches seats and Shruti Sridhar takes the mic. What follows is one of the most honest conversations on the podcast yet: why Dirty Brown started from a place of anger and why Kriti is glad she waited, what it really means to be a brown woman living between two worlds, and the cultural script she's been quietly rewriting for the last decade. Plus: the Badchalan Quiz makes a return — and this time, the host is in the hot seat. In this episode: * The real story behind the name Dirty Brown * Why COVID cracked everything open * What's coming next for the podcast - including the naughty stuff * Kriti's vision for what Dirty Brown can become Chapters: * 00:00 Intro * 00:19 Dirty Brown Turns 10: The Host Gets Interviewed * 01:06 15 Years in Tech, H1B Dreams and Why COVID Changed Everything * 03:42 What Is Dirty Brown and Where Did the Name Come From? * 05:07 How the Badchalan Aurat Series Was Born * 08:30 Indian Woman Abroad: Identity, Marriage Pressure and the Cost of Freedom * 13:56 What Makes Kriti - Hobbies, Books and the Feminist She Became * 17:24 Have You Led a Full Life? Taking Risks and What's Coming Next * 24:57 Badchalan Energy Quiz: Is Kriti a Certified Badchalan? * 27:30 Outro Connect with Dirty Brown: * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/_dirtybrown_/]

Part II: Is Life For Brown Women Better Abroad? | The Negotiations Tax

Is life for Indian women better abroad? In Part II of our deep dive into the "India vs. Abroad" debate, host Kriti J and guest Sugandha S move from the safety of the streets to the safety of the systems we live in. If Part I was about the physical "Safety Tax," Part II is about the "Negotiation Tax." We explore sexism at workplace and systemic issues in India vs Abroad. We also get deeply personal about the "Marriage Script." In a culture that often views a woman’s 30s as a deadline, how do we use financial independence to reclaim our autonomy? From healing after emotional abuse to finding a "frequency match" in a partner, we discuss why choosing to stay unmarried isn’t a pause - it’s a move toward a more authentic life. Chapters: * 00:00 Intro * 00:29 Sexism in Global Workplace * 02:19 Paternity Leave & The Caregiver Trap * 03:55 Normalizing Period Leave in the Office * 05:28 Marriage Pressure and Family Expectations * 08:29 Financial Independence & Female Autonomy * 09:49 Red Flags: Dating Apps & Modern Feminism * 12:33 Relationships, Trauma & Healing * 14:29 Part I & II conclusion * 17:03 Outro