The Eroticism of Infidelity, Part 4 with Michelle

Arana Returns: Six People, Eight Hours, and a Cake

The last time she was on the podcast, Arana told me about a fantasy she wanted to become a reality. Her partner had offered to help organize it. I told her: when this happens, you have to come back and tell us. It happened. In September, six lovers spent eight sultry hours with her in her own home. Her metamours — the lovers of her lovers — even got together separately and made her a cake. The banner read: "Happy First Gang Bang." In this conversation, we go into: * How the night actually got planned (and why she didn't plan it) * What "cherished, not used" actually feels like * The brain goblins that showed up afterward — and how she met them * Why safety, in her words, is an inside job * The unexpected male bonding that came out of it * Practical wisdom she wishes someone had given her (yes, including the blankets) Arana is a relationship anarchist, solo polyamorous, a mother, and a professional who runs two businesses and is writing a book. She's also someone who's stopped apologizing for being "a lot". This is part two of her story. I already have a feeling there's a part three coming. Previous episode: https://podcast.morganhalebooks.com/2471543/episodes/17725531 Content note: This episode is a candid conversation about adult sexuality, polyamory, and group sex. Listener discretion advised.

The Eroticism of Infidelity, Part 4 with Michelle

Filthy Little Secrets is a sex-positive podcast about the stories women rarely say out loud — and desires that don’t fit neatly into polite conversation. In this episode, Morgan sits down with Michelle, a woman who slowly discovered that what excited her most wasn’t just sex… it was taboo. Michelle shares how her journey began after leaving a controlling early relationship and stepping into independence for the first time. What followed was a secret two-year affair with a married coworker — complete with coded pager messages, late-night meetings, and encounters everywhere from a parked car to empty offices on weekends. For her, it wasn’t simply attraction. It was the electricity of secrecy, risk, and breaking rules. The conversation explores a provocative idea: sometimes what fuels desire isn’t the person — it’s the boundary. In this episode, Michelle talks openly about: • why secrecy intensifies arousal  • how guilt changed for her over time  • navigating sexuality inside an open marriage  • intentionally choosing married partners  • separating emotional attachment from physical intimacy  • the stigma women face around infidelity She also shares a series of unforgettable stories — public and semi-public encounters, impulsive decisions, and the moment she says changed her life: a 2:00 AM hotel meeting wearing only a trench coat and boots with a former high-school boyfriend, which she still calls the best sex she ever had. Throughout the interview, Michelle returns to a simple philosophy: she follows what she feels drawn toward and answers to herself. For her, sex is freedom and curiosity. If this episode challenges you, intrigues you, or makes you uncomfortable — that’s exactly the point. Filthy Little Secrets isn’t about persuasion. It’s about letting women tell the truth about their experiences without shame. Subscribe so you don’t miss future stories. If you're a woman with a secret of your own, you can apply to be on the show at:  morganhalebooks.com/podcast

The Eroticism of Infidelity, Part 3 with Veronica

What happens when the life you were told to want feels lifeless? In this episode, Veronica continues sharing her story—the unraveling of a traditional marriage, confronting the verbal abuse that damaged her self-esteem, and the fierce freedom that followed when she stopped living by rules that never fit. Veronica began questioning everything: monogamy, desire, loyalty, and the quiet shame women are taught to carry around their wants. Liberation followed. Through deeply personal stories—including long-term lovers, falling for a married man, and a spontaneous threesome in Ireland that still makes her swoon—Veronica explores what it really means to choose happiness over society's approval. This is a conversation about: * Why “doing everything right” can feel unbearable * How a woman's desire gets framed differently than a man's * And what freedom can look like when you stop asking for permission This episode isn’t about right or wrong. It’s about telling the truth—and letting that be enough.

The Eroticism of Infidelity: Part Two with Veronica

What happens when you return to the places where your secrets were lived—and finally say them out loud? In this episode, we hit record on the road and open into a candid conversation about infidelity, erotic shame, and the pull of breaking rules, while staying honest about the real-world consequences. I share why stories of women who cheat have always felt both true and electric to me, and why bringing that truth into the light is equal parts unsettling and necessary. Veronica joins me, sharing her journey that moves from survival to self-ownership: leaving an abusive marriage, exploring desire, and creating firm boundaries that made room for her safety, clarity, and pleasure. We talk about her carefully structured “roster,” a risky affair that tested values and empathy, and the moment when fantasy collided with reality. When guilt arrives, Veronica chose accountability without spectacle—no revenge, no humiliating details—just a decision to move forward without burning everything down. There are no easy heroes or villains here. Instead, we sit in the nuance: why taboo can be erotic, how power can return through structure and consent, and how compassion can exist for those who are hurt without weaponizing their pain. Faith appears as humility rather than judgment.  If you’ve ever wrestled with cheating as a kink or the narratives that dictated what a “good woman” is supposed to want, this episode invites you to listen with curiosity. Expect frank conversation and a humane look at complicated truths. If this resonates, follow the show, share it with someone who enjoys honest conversations, and leave a review. And if you’re a sex-positive woman with a filthy little story to tell, we’d love to hear from you.

The Eroticism of Infidelity, Part One with Kyera Kacey

In this intense and provocative episode, host Marvin (aka Morgan Hale) and guest, Kyera Kacey, step into the jagged topic of infidelity—a subject loaded with both eroticism and immense pain. The episode addresses two groups of women. Women cheating on partners or sleeping with someone else's partner. And women who have been cheated on. Kyera shares her personal experiences with infidelity, ranging from being a betrayed spouse to being an active participant in extramarital affairs as a way to cope with her own trauma. Together, they explore the complex emotions and the possibility of healing and self-discovery beyond betrayal. They also touch on the idea of turning pain into power and the concept of alchemy—transforming a 'shitty' situation into something extraordinary. This episode challenges listeners to confront their own judgments and embrace a path towards liberation and love. About Kyera: https://www.kyerakacey.com/ About the show: https://filthylittlesecrets.com/ About Marvin's books: https://morganhalebooks.com/ Video version of this episode: https://youtu.be/H2QqS9wS75c