Ep. 236: Loyal to the Wrong Things

Ep. 237: Disordered Eating at Disney World

A churro, a daughter, and a reminder that the thing you're most self-conscious about might be exactly what someone else needs from you.

Ep. 236: Loyal to the Wrong Things

Loyalty is powerful and it matters enormously where we place it. I learned this the hard way when loyalty to a person kept me stuck somewhere I shouldn't have been. Then a friend told me something that changed me: you don't have to be loyal to your suffering. This episode is a quick inventory. When we're more devoted to an influencer, a pastor, or even a skincare routine than to our actual divine source, we're one bad decision away from a crisis. People fail. God doesn't. The goal of this podcast has always been to point you back to your own relationship with God, not to me. I'm just a girl sitting in front of a microphone. (Diet Coke gets a pass.)

Ep. 235: The Pressure to Be Hopeless

A woman at church yesterday put words to something I've been feeling but couldn't quite name: the pressure to be negative. Not just cultural pressure to be negative, but the sense that despair and outrage have become the moral high ground. That if you're a good person paying attention, you're angry and hopeless and posting about it. I share a personal story about a time I got called out for not posting about an immigration situation while I was quietly helping families in my own neighborhood, and I make the case for a different way to fight. Hope is not naivety. Positivity is not opting out. And I think normalizing both of those things right now is actually the harder, more important work.

Ep. 234: Performative Christianity

I've been noticing the same theme showing up everywhere in my life lately, so I'm putting it on record. I believe God is inviting us to graduate from black and white, checklist-style living into something harder and better: holding complexity, living in the gray, and letting that be the standard. I get a little niche with my Mormon faith to make the point, but it applies everywhere. When we stop box-checking, performative action loses its power, judgment gets harder to justify, and we finally get free enough from ourselves to actually love other people well.

Ep. 233: God Isn't Insecure and This Song Really is About Us.

I share a newly articulated belief that's reshaping how I follow God: everything He asks of me is for my own good. Not because He needs something from me, but because He doesn't need anything at all. I unpack my past season of atheism, what I used to get wrong about jealousy and commandments, and why choosing this as a baseline assumption makes trust a whole lot easier.