EP4: I Tried to Be Perfect for God—It Broke Me (Testimony)

EP7: From King of My Life to Servant of Christ — The Hardest Lesson I Had to Unlearn

In this episode of Holy & Messy, we go deep into the journey of becoming — not the person we want to be, but the person God is shaping us into.We talk about:– How my pursuit of success, legacy and “building my own kingdom” eventually collapsed– The heartbreak that became the turning point that led me to Jesus– The mentor who showed me what true humility and kingdom generosity looks like– The dangerous temptation to make ourselves the “main character” in ministry– What I had to unlearn from Romans 7 & Proverbs 19:21 [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjigM62lEqA&t=1161s]– And the one truth I want to hold on to as I keep becoming:Be a servant, not a king.If you’ve ever wrestled with ambition, identity, calling, or the tension between your plans and God’s purpose — this episode is for you.Thanks for listening.Let’s keep becoming together.He is the King. We are not.

EP6: When Ministry Burnout Redefines Your Calling

"Is my worth just what I do for God?"In this episode of Holy & Messy, Beth joins us to share how God gently rewrote her understanding of calling, work and identity.From hating her own teenage years to becoming a youth worker…from a “boring” prophecy about being a counsellor to actually training as one…from burnout in full-time ministry to working in a pet shop and rediscovering God’s love…Beth’s story shows that calling isn’t a job title — it’s a journey of letting God shape who we become.We talk about:– How a simple prayer for a heart for young people changed everything – Life inside the Eden Network and living missionally in your neighbourhood – Studying counselling in a secular university while staying rooted in Jesus – Why authenticity matters more than trying to be “cool” in youth work – The difference between selling the gospel and sharing it genuinely – Learning that our identity comes from Christ, not our productivity – Recovering from burnout and rethinking what it means to be loved by GodIf you’ve ever felt guilty for “not doing enough,” if you’ve wondered how your 9–5 connects with your faith, or if you’re wrestling with direction and calling…this conversation is for you.This is Episode 7 of “The People, The Path & The Faith.”🕊️ If you’d like prayer or want to share how you’re living out your faith outside church walls, drop it in the comments. We’re building a community here — learning to follow Jesus in all the holy & messy places of life.—🎧 Podcast: Holy & Messy 🎥 Host: Christopher 👤 Guest: Beth — youth worker, trainee counsellor, pastor’s wife & follower of Jesus

EP5: When the Church Hurts You: Why I Stayed

What do you do when the place that’s supposed to be your spiritual family becomes the place that hurts you?In this episode of Holy & Messy, Jeffrey opens up about his journey through church hurt, disappointment, and feeling unseen — and why, despite all of it, he chooses to stay in the body of Christ.We talk about:Why church culture can feel like “conversion over care”What pastors are missing in modern ministryThe tension between calling and emotional burnoutWhy loving Jesus means learning to love His peopleHow God uses messy community to shape usThis isn’t another “church criticism” video.It’s an honest conversation about faith, wounds, healing, calling, and the beauty and cost of belonging to Christ’s body.If you’ve ever been disappointed by church, this conversation is for you.📌 Holy & Messy – The People. The Path. The Faith.

EP4: I Tried to Be Perfect for God—It Broke Me (Testimony)

Jordan grew up performing for love—father wound, people-pleasing, guilt and shame. At 14 he encountered Jesus in worship; at 18 he burned out, numbed with weed, and spiraled. Moving to the UK forced him to face his dad and his own heart. He didn’t find a quick fix—he found grace as patience and presence.If you feel “still unfinished,” this one’s for you. Don’t run past Jesus. Bring your mess to Him. He’s kinder than you think.

EP3: I Trusted Math More Than People — Then Jesus Happened

Hong Kong singer–director Henry shares how trusting logic, math and patterns felt safer than people—until reason pointed to God and love required a leap of faith. From skeptic/new age / ex-atheist to following Jesus, this is a candid talk about rational faith and real discipleship. In this episode you’ll hear: * Why “I trusted patterns more than people” * Logic, time & why reason can’t cross the last gap * Church friendliness vs KPI-style evangelism * Stop arguing, start loving: walking with skeptics * Community: “They’ll know we’re Christians by our love” If this helped you, share it with a friend who’s “logical but searching.” Subscribe for honest conversations about faith in real life.