The comparison loop: why pretty girls make me feel small, why "it girl" aesthetics drive me insane, and how to free yourself from all this bullsh*t!

When busyness becomes a distraction from yourself and the fear of not knowing

I sit down with the uncomfortable truth that I’ve been trying to outrun: I don’t really know what I want right now. And instead of slowing down to listen, I’ve been filling the space with busyness—movies, to-do lists, tagging along to other people’s plans. Inspired by Gabor Maté’s In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts, I explore how busyness can become its own form of addiction, a way to avoid the discomfort of not knowing. I talk about the quiet resentment that can build when you’re not in touch with your own needs, the comparison trap in relationships, and the challenge of being kind to yourself when your creative vision feels foggy or far away. Let me know how this episode lands with you <3 Pls support this channel by subscribing & sharing :)

The comparison loop: why pretty girls make me feel small, why "it girl" aesthetics drive me insane, and how to free yourself from all this bullsh*t!

Why do we shrink around certain women? Why do we feel threatened when we see someone else glowing? In this deeply imperfect and very human episode, I unpack a raw conversation I had with a friend about the subtle (and sometimes not-so-subtle) ways comparison, judgment, and insecurity show up — especially between women. From bathroom run-ins that trigger high school memories, to walking down the street and feeling like everyone is watching (and rating) you — this episode dives into the inner workings of the female psyche in a world obsessed with appearance and social currency. I’m not here to villainize other women. I’m here to explore what it means to witness beauty without shrinking, to feel safe in our own bodies, and to unlearn the belief that someone else’s shine takes away from our own.This one’s for anyone who’s ever felt small, judged, not enough, and who’s ready to take their power back, gently and with love. love you! & don't forget to love YOU!

The importance of tuning into your body to become more secure and self-loving

✨ I'm baaaaack! Here's a little life update & some thoughts on being human lately. I talk about what it means to start creative projects without having a clear roadmap — just presence, honesty, and a gut feeling that it matters. I share how tuning into the body (somatics!) is helping me build self-trust, compassion, and regulation, especially in moments of insecurity or transition. I also touch on navigating relationship honesty around desire, shifting friendships in your 20s, and how i’m learning to hold it all with more grace.

7: Keeping it real with yourself when you feel triggered

Hi y'all, in today's episode, I share a recent trigger that affected me... seeing my boyfriend’s ex was at his mom’s birthday party. I get real about the insecurity and fear it brought up: the fear of not being special and the longing for a deeper connection with his family. But instead of spiraling, I used this moment as a mirror. I dive into: * Detaching from your thoughts – how to recognize that not every thought is true and how to stop identifying with the stories your ego creates. * Keeping it real with yourself – learning to sit with discomfort and face your emotional patterns head-on, without running or numbing. If you’ve ever felt triggered by comparison, old wounds, or the feeling of being “not enough,” this episode is for you. Let’s get honest and move toward a mindset of trust and abundance. #relationships #selfawareness #egohealing #selfworth #mindset #healingjourney #abundancemindset #imperfectbutworthit #personalgrowth #podcast

6: Conversations with my dad: Frankie Goes to Hollywood's Welcome to the Pleasuredome (the album everyone needs to hear)

This is the album you didn’t know you needed. Welcome to the Pleasuredome by Frankie Goes to Hollywood isn’t just a collection of songs—it’s an immersive journey that defies convention. In this episode, we dive deep into the album’s bold themes of hedonism, politics, and human nature, exploring how it challenged societal norms and left a lasting impact on music history. Join us as we unravel the genius of producer Trevor Horn, the architect behind the album’s iconic sound, and discuss how his vision transformed Welcome to the Pleasuredome into an audio experience like no other. We also tackle the controversy and censorship that surrounded the album, questioning how its boldness led to unfair dismissal. From the power of the album format to the myth of the “pure” artist, we cover it all—including a thought-provoking look at the “Born to Run” cover and its take on the American dream. Whether you’re discovering this album for the first time or revisiting a forgotten classic, this conversation offers a fresh perspective on why Welcome to the Pleasuredome is still relevant today. Episode Breakdown: 00:00-07:50 — First impressions and our introduction to Frankie Goes to Hollywood 07:51-14:19 — The power of the album format and the challenge (and opportunity) of "difficult" music 14:20-20:00 — Trevor Horn: The architect behind the sound 20:01-22:19 — The poem that inspired the album 22:20-36:29— The album’s themes: hedonism, politics, and human nature 36:30-40:30— The “Born to Run” cover: the American dream fallacy? 40:31-51:20 — Who really made the album? The myth of the “pure” artist 51:21-56:49 — Sound quality: why audio fidelity matters 56:50- 1:10:04 — How to listen: production, dynamic range, and INTENTION. 1:10:05-End — Why this album STILL matters—let it speak to you and remind you of something deeper. Tune in to Relax and Rewind as we celebrate the 40th anniversary of Welcome to the Pleasuredome and explore why it’s the album you didn’t know you needed.