the price of the bag: what success costs when no one's looking

Daddy Issues [AUDIO]

DADDY ISSUES | The Father Wound, Generational Trauma & Breaking the Cycle | kill pride club ABOUT THIS EPISODE Most men are carrying wounds their fathers never had language for. In this episode of kill pride club, Terrence Smith sits with three men who've built organizations around fatherhood — Rashamod Torrance (founder of Active Dads), Khari Arnold(founder of Library Dads), and Ron Anthony (author, pastor, and thought leader) — for one of the most honest conversations about Black fatherhood, the father wound, and breaking generational cycles you'll find anywhere. What starts as a question about emotion becomes a full excavation: the emotional armor Black men inherit, what it cost them to become who they are, and what they're choosing to keep — or lay down — for the next generation. This is not a conversation about absent fathers. It's a conversation about what presence actually looks like, why "be strong" is incomplete advice, and how the men who look the strongest in the room are often the ones carrying the most. If you've ever searched for healing from childhood wounds, wondered what your father didn't teach you, or found yourself parenting from a place of fear instead of freedom — this one is for you. IN THIS EPISODE Healing the father wound: what emotion shows up first when you think about your dad's impact? The one thing each man inherited — good or bad — from his father What love looked like in Black households (provision, protection, presence) The real cost of becoming the man you are when nobody taught you how Breaking generational cycles: are you the dad you needed as a kid? What parts of your father's legacy are you keeping — and what are you intentionally laying down? Why the strongest man in the room is often the one struggling the most Men's mental health, vulnerability, and why Black men don't talk about their feelings — and what happens when they do IF THIS HIT, YOU MIGHT ALSO BE SEARCHING FOR: healing father wound | Black men mental health | generational trauma healing | breaking generational curses | Black fatherhood | men's mental health podcast | absent father healing | what my father didn't teach me | first generation man | men and vulnerability | Black men therapy | intentional fatherhood | raising Black boys | men's wellness | overachiever burnout | present father | father son relationship | men's community Atlanta | emotional unavailability | men who don't talk about their feelings UPCOMING kill pride club DATES ⁠ April 24, 2026⁠ [https://www.eventbrite.com/e/kill-pride-club-meetup-april-24-2026-tickets-1983159513490?aff=ebdsshcopyurl&utm-campaign=social&utm-content=attendeeshare&utm-medium=discovery&utm-term=] July 24, 2026 (Annual Birthday Party & Family Reunion weekend) October 9, 2026 CONNECT WITH kill pride club ⁠killpride.com⁠ [killpride.com] kill pride club is an Atlanta-based men's wellness and community organization. It is a space where men practice honest dialogue, self-awareness, and accountability — together. New episodes drop quarterly.

Daddy Issues [VIDEO]

DADDY ISSUES | The Father Wound, Generational Trauma & Breaking the Cycle | kill pride club ABOUT THIS EPISODE Most men are carrying wounds their fathers never had language for. In this episode of kill pride club, Terrence Smith sits with three men who've built organizations around fatherhood — Rashamod Torrance (founder of Active Dads), Khari Arnold(founder of Library Dads), and Ron Anthony (author, pastor, and thought leader) — for one of the most honest conversations about Black fatherhood, the father wound, and breaking generational cycles you'll find anywhere. What starts as a question about emotion becomes a full excavation: the emotional armor Black men inherit, what it cost them to become who they are, and what they're choosing to keep — or lay down — for the next generation. This is not a conversation about absent fathers. It's a conversation about what presence actually looks like, why "be strong" is incomplete advice, and how the men who look the strongest in the room are often the ones carrying the most. If you've ever searched for healing from childhood wounds, wondered what your father didn't teach you, or found yourself parenting from a place of fear instead of freedom — this one is for you. IN THIS EPISODE Healing the father wound: what emotion shows up first when you think about your dad's impact? The one thing each man inherited — good or bad — from his father What love looked like in Black households (provision, protection, presence) The real cost of becoming the man you are when nobody taught you how Breaking generational cycles: are you the dad you needed as a kid? What parts of your father's legacy are you keeping — and what are you intentionally laying down? Why the strongest man in the room is often the one struggling the most Men's mental health, vulnerability, and why Black men don't talk about their feelings — and what happens when they do IF THIS HIT, YOU MIGHT ALSO BE SEARCHING FOR: healing father wound | Black men mental health | generational trauma healing | breaking generational curses | Black fatherhood | men's mental health podcast | absent father healing | what my father didn't teach me | first generation man | men and vulnerability | Black men therapy | intentional fatherhood | raising Black boys | men's wellness | overachiever burnout | present father | father son relationship | men's community Atlanta | emotional unavailability | men who don't talk about their feelings UPCOMING kill pride club DATES April 24, 2026 [https://www.eventbrite.com/e/kill-pride-club-meetup-april-24-2026-tickets-1983159513490?aff=ebdsshcopyurl&utm-campaign=social&utm-content=attendeeshare&utm-medium=discovery&utm-term=] July 24, 2026 (Annual Birthday Party & Family Reunion weekend) October 9, 2026 CONNECT WITH kill pride club killpride.com [killpride.com] kill pride club is an Atlanta-based men's wellness and community organization. It is a space where men practice honest dialogue, self-awareness, and accountability — together. New episodes drop quarterly.

Anxiety: What is This I'm Feeling?

Keywords anxiety, fear, anger, vulnerability, community, mental health, emotional intelligence, leadership, personal growth, Black men Summary This conversation delves into the often unspoken issues of anxiety, fear, and anger, particularly among men. It explores personal experiences with these emotions, the societal pressures that contribute to them, and the importance of vulnerability and community in managing mental health. The fellas (Ron Anthony, Andre Walker, Cody Deese and Terrence Smith) share their journeys, emphasizing the need for open dialogue and support systems to navigate the complexities of emotional well-being. Takeaways Anxiety is often unspoken among men, leading to isolation. Vulnerability is essential for connection and healing. Fear and anger can manifest in physical ways in our bodies. Community plays a crucial role in managing anxiety and emotional health. Personal experiences with anxiety can provide language for others. Understanding the difference between fear and anger can aid in emotional regulation. Rest and sleep are not the same; both are essential for well-being. Building connections with others can alleviate feelings of loneliness. Anticipatory grief can complicate our emotional landscape. It's important to check in on ourselves and others regularly. Chapters 00:00 Understanding Anxiety in Society 05:56 Personal Experiences with Anxiety 12:50 The Impact of Fear and Anger 18:36 Navigating Emotions: Fear vs. Anger 27:18 The Role of Community in Managing Anxiety 33:35 Vulnerability and Leadership 57:27 Messages to Our Younger Selves 01:03:33 Building Connections and Community

i'm tired, but I'm here.

This conversation delves into the complexities of being tired yet present, particularly among black men. It explores themes of burnout, the weight of expectations, the importance of community, and the need for intentional rest. The speakers share personal experiences and insights on navigating relationships, vulnerability, and finding purpose amidst challenges. They emphasize the significance of hope and resilience, and the power of presence in fostering meaningful connections. Takeaways Being tired can mean occupying space without truly being present. Chronic overload and financial strain are significant causes of burnout. Isolation can amplify feelings of tiredness and pressure. Intentional rest is crucial for mental and emotional well-being. Vulnerability in relationships fosters deeper connections. Hope is essential for resilience in the face of adversity. Community support can alleviate the weight of expectations. Purpose can be a guiding force through challenges. Acknowledging one's struggles is a step towards healing. Nothing in our experiences is wasted; every moment contributes to our growth. Sound bites "I'm tired, but I'm here." "What does being tired mean to you?" "We are not allowed to be human." Chapters 00:00 Introduction to the Conversation 02:04 Understanding Tiredness and Its Implications 09:12 Identifying Causes of Burnout 11:26 Carrying Hidden Burdens 22:22 Establishing Boundaries for Well-being 27:43 The Importance of Safe Spaces and Rest 31:27 The Essence of Rest 36:37 Releasing Expectations and Fear 39:17 The Power of Community and Presence 45:05 Gratitude and Hope in Adversity 57:08 Purpose and Leadership in Challenging Times 59:17 Recognizing Purpose and Showing Up 01:03:07 Transforming Pain into Purpose 01:05:49 The Importance of Being Human 01:07:04 Nothing is Wasted: Embracing Life's Journey 01:09:19 Creating Safe Spaces for Vulnerability 01:14:59 Breaking Down Stigmas Around Therapy

the price of the bag: what success costs when no one's looking

Some costs don’t show up on receipts. They show up in our bodies, our homes, our souls.We chased the bag.Somewhere along the way, it started chasing us.This episode is an unfiltered look at what “making it” really takes for men—especially for Black men in leadership. We talk about the money lessons (or the silence) we grew up with, the mold we’re told to fit into in corporate America, and the quiet ways success can wear us down.You’ll hear personal stories, hard-earned wisdom, and practical ways to hold onto yourself while climbing the ladder. Because the bag might be worth it—but not if it costs you you.Timestamps:00:00 – Why this conversation matters05:15 – The money talks we grew up with15:30 – Fitting the mold in corporate America25:45 – The hidden toll of the climb35:00 – Can you really balance career and life?46:40 – Staying yourself in the system55:00 – Audience stories & lessons1:05:00 – Closing thoughts: Success on your own termsShare your story: What has the “price of the bag” cost you? Drop it in the comments.#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #atlanta #fun #manhood #leadership #CorporateAmerica #money #pride #brother #brotherhood