Welcome to Dying ~ with Maru & Amalia

What This Was and Who We Were ~ with the 8

This season finale conversation is between all 8 colLaborators, in the very final moments of our time together in the Lab. We wander together through reflection on what this experience was to us, who we were to each other, and what our early experiment findings have been.  Thank you, listeners, for being a part of our process in this alchemical season! What’s to come from this temporal collective of artists in the near and far future? Will there be another season of lab partners? Will the colLaboratory run its experiment again with new scientists? We’re excited to find out with you.  If you loved Lab Partners, we’d love to know. Leave a rating and review, drop a comment, tag us on IG, or send an email to kelseyrosetort@gmail.com [kelseyrosetort@gmail.com] to be shared with the group.  Find out more about ColLaboratory and each of the 8 Lab Partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labparters [http://kelseyrosetort.com/labparters]. There you’ll find our astrology, designs, little bits of bios, and information about how to be in connection with each of us through our work.

Welcome to Dying ~ with Maru & Amalia

Maru and Amalia step into the terrains of death, dying, and the small and large endings that shape a life. They explore fear, desire, grief, and ego-shedding, inviting listeners into an inquiry of why we might compulsively push death away and what becomes possible when we don’t.  Topics explored include: * Feeling “close to death” and the clarity, emptiness, or non-narrative states that accompany those seasons * Aging, mortality, and the wisdom available when we stop resisting the inevitability of death * Suicidality and the cultural and pathological perspectives that shape how we relate to death * Ancestral contact and thinning veils in emotional, spiritual, and philosophical proximity to death * The relationship between death, desire, and impermanence, and the generative potential of letting go * Non-physical experiences of death: ego deaths, initiations, psychedelic states, chosen pain, kink, and microdosed endings * Astrological and Human Design references to difference in calibrating to death and dying: the water signs, fear motivation, the undefined spleen 🧪 This episode's Lab Partners: * Maru is a 6/2 Sacral Generator, Leo Rising with Sun in Cancer and Moon in Virgo * Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator, Taurus Rising with Sun in Aquarius and Moon in Pisces You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work. 💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day. Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Body Spirit Money Bridge ~ with Amalia and Eréndira

In this intimate conversation, Amalia and Eréndira explore the emotional, spiritual, and communal dimensions of resource. What emerges through their inquiry is a nuanced transmission around nourishment, trust, and the future of reciprocity beyond transactional norms. Here is some of what they touch upon together: * The solar plexus as a bridge between spirit and form: reconnecting body, spirit, and resource * Trusting the absence of creative flow and resource flow as sacred guidance, too. * The relationship between money and community * The contradiction of being abundantly resourced while simultaneously experiencing poverty * A tender moment in early relationship around value, worth, and exchange * Differentiated abundance: complexifying value and exchange * The Queen of Pentacles embodied and as a guide  * Reciprocity beyond transaction * Nourishment as the core question: what feeds each person? what feeds the relationship? how can exchange be mutually nourishing? 🧪 This episode's Lab Partners: * Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator, Taurus Rising with Sun in Aquarius and Moon in Pisces * Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor, Leo Rising with Sun in Taurus and Moon in Pisces You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work. 💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day. Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Through the Looking Glass: Projection, Community, and Belonging ~ with Kelsey and Eréndira

In this candid conversation, Kelsey and Eréndira take a retroactive look at their experiences in the projection field of community, sharing early takeaways from the coLaboratory experiment and what it revealed about belonging, leadership, and differentiation. Some of the threads woven together throughout include: * Belonging beyond homogenization: differentiation as the basis for connection and community * Queering the binary of belonging or not * Spirit as it lives in the individual vs. as understood by the tribe and collective * Deconstructing leadership, flattening hierarchy, and releasing expectation around role and contribution * Getting what you wanted and still feeling unmet as a doorway to liberation * World-building, cross-pollination, and gridwork through intimate conversation 🧪 This episode's Lab Partners: * Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor * Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work. 💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day. Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

We Ghost You Because We Love You ~ with Eréndira, Kelsey, Steph, and Quinn

Here’s an unfiltered peek into what’s happening Behind Closed Auras. ColLaboratory’s four manifestors lovingly and unapologetically invite you into this conversation about the felt mechanics, psychological burden, peace, and rage they experience moving through the world with their weird auras and initiatory capacities.  Eréndira, Kelsey, Steph, and Quinn discuss: * The tension between not wanting to pressure others, resistance to impact, and the burden of managing others’ responses to our initiations  * Energetic hygiene and the slippery slope from initiation to response * The cancerous nature of obligation based communications and manifestor “ghosting” as a stop to it’s growth * The mechanics of non-sacral bodies & sacral amplification: how manifestors can take in too much sacral energy and burn out, but also how this over-capacity is part of the initiatory mechanic itself. * Closed-aura protection + psychological conditioning: The paradox of being energetically protected yet psychologically over-conditioned; the “slow-drip barrage” of response demands on a closed aura. * Manifestation as initiation; the body leading, not the mind; being “at the mercy” of timing and urges. * The importance of not taking our cyclical absence as manifestors personally  * Differentiated “urges” - how the process of feeling and acting on urge/initiation differs in every single individual manifestor  * Surrender to form & cosmic timing: Trusting the body’s timing, surrendering the mind’s expectations, and the spiritual dimension of manifestor initiation. 🧪 This episode's Lab Partners: * Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor * Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor * Steph is a 2/4 Emotional Manifestor  * Quinn is a 4/6 Emotional Manifestor You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners [http://www.kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners], including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work. 💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day. Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo