Riding Through Fear

What If Success Is Simply Love

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2518529/fan_mail/new] Season 2, Episode 13 I talk about what it feels like to swing through a whole stack of emotions in one day and how living with PTSD can make that feel like different versions of me. I share a tough reminder that PTSD still shows up sometimes, plus a few bright spots like better sleep, creative projects, and small wins that keep me moving forward.  • feeling emotions again after coming off strong antidepressants and learning to regulate reactions  • a sudden work nightmare and the shock of realising PTSD is still there  • sleep improving and how that changes day-to-day energy and motivation  • entering the local country show with honey, jams and relishes and the chaos of collecting entries  • starting quilting and sewing, hyperfixating on projects and learning a new machine  • using thrifted denim to plan a throw quilt and making the hobby affordable  • inviting listeners to share their stories and jump on for interviews  • a mentor’s TED Talk on internal dialogue and a simple thought about success and self-love  You can find me on Facebook and Instagram, and don't forget to like and follow.  Song of the week: Bitch by Meredith Brooks  https://youtu.be/_ivt_N2Zcts?si=_ND-AclPQNzMAA1y Thought of the Week The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse by Charlie Mackey " What do you think success is? asked the boy. To love, said the mole"

Stop Living For Other People’s Opinions

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2518529/fan_mail/new] Season 2, Episode 12 **** trigger warning - talk of mental health and suicide**** We follow the thread of “Follow Your Arrow” into the messy reality of PTSD, stigma, and why other people’s opinions can quietly steer our choices. I share how a sore knee and a jarred finger triggered a sudden mental health crash, then work through practical ways to reframe setbacks and speak to ourselves with more kindness.  • using the song “Follow Your Arrow” to challenge stigma and judgment  • putting our needs first even when others disapprove  • reflecting on Jeff’s honesty about alcoholism, AA, and PTSD masking  • noticing how quickly physical pain can trigger depression  • navigating the catch-22 of staying active while risking injury  • dealing with exhaustion, sleep issues, and low tolerance days  • attending the hospital memorial rock garden opening ceremony  • redefining productivity and celebrating small wins to reduce negative self-talk  You can find me on Facebook and Instagram, and don't forget to like and follow.  Song of the week: Kasey Musgraves - Follow your arrow https://youtu.be/kQ8xqyoZXCc?si=ScT33a_VGahmHd2l Thought of the week: The boy, the mole, the fox and the horse by Charlie Mackesy "you fell - but I've got you"

Jeff Explains How Alcohol Masked PTSD Until It Finally Caught Up

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2518529/fan_mail/new] Season 2, Episode 11 ***TRIGGER WARNING: TALK OF SUICIDE, DEATH AND OTHER TRAUMA RELATED INCIDENTS**** Please listen with caution and seek help where needed. We sit down with Jeff, a medically retired police officer, to talk honestly about PTSD, alcohol dependence, and the moment his body and mind forced him to stop running. He shares how AA, inpatient treatment, and real connection help him rebuild family life and stay alive when shame and stigma try to keep him silent. • meeting in an outpatient program and what first impressions reveal about trauma and trust  • what inpatient treatment at St John of God feels like when you are scared and exposed  • how validation and peer support speed up recovery  • why cumulative trauma can start years earlier than you think  • alcohol as a coping mechanism that quietly becomes the enemy  • the fear of asking for help in policing and the risk of being “punished” for it  • pancreatitis as a turning point and what AA gives in early sobriety  • rebuilding marriage and parenting after quitting drinking  • the PTSD breaking point, suicidal thoughts, and the power of someone intervening  • coping strategies without alcohol, including service and routine in AA  • where to start if you need support, including GP pathways, AA, detox, and rehab  • a funeral letter that makes the case for reaching out early You can find me on Facebook and Instagram, and don't forget to like and follow. Song of the Week: Somebody Save Me - Eminem & Jelly Roll https://youtu.be/Vwa0HenQMi4?si=heG7LPvz-MorhMFs Thought of the Week: "To my friends, family and colleagues. Please, if you are struggling with an addiction, reach out for help. If you let your addiction ruin you, you will more than likely lose the most important things in the world to you. I am unfortunately proof of that. I am 176 days sober. Please reach out if you need help. / wish / would have reached out earlier and forced my demons. It is never too late to reach out for help. You are important and you are worthy." Please be kind to yourself and seek help if needed.

Riding Through Fear

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2518529/fan_mail/new] Season 2 Episode 10: We catch up on what’s been happening in my life with PTSD and why “I’m good” can be the easiest answer even when it’s not true. I share how the Never Late Female Posty Ride pushed me straight through fear and still ended with pride, friendship, and big funds raised for Wings For Kids.  • Song of the week and why it hits  • Why we default to “I’m good” and what it costs  • Using a simple number scale to communicate feelings  • Choosing who to open up to and when  • What Wings For Kids does for regional families  • Riding back roads on postie bikes and the realities of dirt  • Watching fear spike after last year’s crash and working through it  • Finishing the ride plus water crossings pink night and gala night  • Raising over $400,000 this year and why volunteer charities matter  You can find me on Facebook and Instagram and don't forget to like and follow.  Song of the Week Kingdom of Fear - Cameron Whitcomb https://youtu.be/YZ2WXl3VXLU?si=Uz3zZb-o7Ic3gWXL Thought of the Week: The Boy, the Mole, the Fox and the Horse - Charlie Mackesy "Well Hello, Do you have a favourite saying? asked the boy. Yes, said the mole. What is it? If at first you don't succeed have some cake. I see, does it work? Everytime"

If Words Can Shape A Life What Are Yours Building

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2518529/fan_mail/new] Season 2, Episode 9 We talk about the parts of my PTSD recovery I rarely say out loud, including how faith helps me keep moving when life feels too heavy. I also share a moment with Rory that reframes body image and self-worth, plus a story that proves how words can shape what we believe about ourselves.  • thanking my brother and reflecting on why family chats feel cathartic  • faith as a private but steady support in PTSD recovery  • the song God I Tried But I Fell Again and what getting back up really means  • Rory’s photo comment and why weight does not equal worth  • losing weight, losing muscle, and starting strength work again  • why words have power and how self-talk can become your truth  • a daily affirmation challenge: I am enough and I am worthy  • thought of the week on gratitude and perspective from The Boy, the Mole, the Fox and the Horse  You can find me on Facebook and Instagram, and don't forget to like and follow.  Song of the Week: God I Tried But Fell Again - Chris Stapleton & Lauren Daigle https://youtu.be/rJvNxJOYVj8?si=UBN97dUMmmFHQcUm Thought of the Week: The Boy The Mole The Fox and The Horse - Charlie Mackesy "Is your glass half empty or half full? Asked the mole. I think I'm grateful to have a glass said the boy"