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On April 1st, 2026, I opened a patient portal and read the words that officially closed an 11-year chapter of cancer surveillance. No fanfare. No one else in the room. Just me, the screen, and a quiet exhale that had been building for over a decade. But this episode isn't really about a scan result. It's a story I've never told publicly — the plot twist that added an extra year to my surveillance, the six-month stretch of unexpected medical news that cracked me open in ways cancer treatment never did, and the slow, devastating process of wriggling my identity free from both the Good Patient and the Good Provider I'd been trained to perform. From Christmas Eve biopsies to crying through Taylor Swift at the Eras Tour in Paris, to throwing myself a 10-years-cancer-free party before I was technically "done" — I trace how I rebuilt my relationship with my own body, reclaimed sovereignty inside a system designed to strip it away, and learned what true co-regulation in medical care actually feels like. And how rarely I'd experienced it. This one is for the high-achieving women in healthcare who have spent years knowing their patients' bodies better than their own. Who go full provider-mode at their own appointments. Who brush off subpar care because they understand the system. Who have never once been asked — really asked — how they're doing in the middle of it all. I'm asking those questions out loud in this episode. The ones most of us have never let ourselves finish. 00:00 — The Portal Moment: What 11 Years of Waiting Felt Like in Two Seconds 09:17 — Benedict and the Backstory: The Cancer Diagnosis Nobody Saw Coming 13:49 — The Good Patient™: On Surveillance, the Sick Cycle, and Handing Over Dominion 22:14 — The Plot Twist: When the Year-Nine Scan Added a Year You Didn't Have to Give 31:08 — Defiant Joy: How She Held Lung Nodules, Dog Crises, and the Eras Tour in Paris at the Same Time 47:52 — The Beet-Red Breast Specialist and the Nurse Who Reached for Her Hand 01:00:49 — Declaring Yourself Free Before Anyone Else Does If this episode speaks to you, hit subscribe, leave a review, and share it with a friend 👉Looking for more of where this came from? Sink deeper with coaching support from Julie and Book a Soul Story Mapping Session [https://www.illuminatefreedomcoaching.com/soul-story-mapping] Keep up with what's going on by joining the Notes from a Fart Walk Newsletter [https://illuminate-freedom-coaching.myflodesk.com/email-club] and don't miss an episode or update Watch full video episodes and clips on Youtube [https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL5pnvs17ub-2d2B7NedN_ShnUz6sGKHej] Social Media: Follow Julie for clips, bonus content, and updates throughout the week. You can also shoot her a DM to connect! Instagram @drjuliegranger [https://www.instagram.com/drjuliegranger/], Substack @drjuliegranger [https://substack.com/@drjuliegranger] LinkedIn juliegrangerdpt [https://www.linkedin.com/in/juliegrangerdpt/]
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