I WAS HERE... BUT I WASN'T ALIVE

IT'S NOT UNCONDITIONAL. I WANTED SOMETHING BACK.

Some moments stay with you because they reveal something bigger underneath them. After traveling across states for her grandson’s birthday, a mother finds herself wrestling with something many people quietly feel: the lack of common courtesy, consideration, gratitude, and emotional awareness in modern relationships — even within families. What begins as a conversation about a difficult weekend gradually turns into something deeper: * expectations between people * feeling unappreciated after extending yourself * boundaries with family * what we quietly hope love will return to us * and the complicated truth behind the phrase “unconditional love.” At one point, she says: > “It’s not unconditional. I wanted something.” A deeply honest conversation about family dynamics, emotional reciprocity, parenthood, and recalibrating how we show up for the people closest to us. Listen through the embedded player and full episode library at: TheeBigSwing.com Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2569456/fan_mail/new] Thee Big Swing is a reflective podcast about the emotional reckonings and subtle internal recalibrations that change our trajectory over time — and the possibilities still available in life.  Each episode explores the moments when curiosity, courage, accountability, or reflection opens new ways of seeing ourselves and the world. Through personal reflections and thoughtful conversations, Lloyd and his guests explore changing identities, relationships, and the quiet decisions that alter how we see ourselves and our lives over time. The biggest swing isn’t always dramatic. Often, it’s the shift inside that changes everything. If something here stayed with you, you can reach me at lloyd@theebigswing.com

MY SON WAS LIVING IN HIS CAR - THEN EVERYTHING CHANGED

Two years ago, my son was sleeping in his car in Los Angeles… working long hours, moving through life day by day, trying to figure it out. Today, he’s in a different place. Not perfect. Not finished. But clear. In this episode, we sit down as father and son and talk honestly about what changed—and what didn’t. This isn’t really about trading. It’s about discipline, frustration, identity, and the moments where you’re forced to look at yourself and decide who you’re going to be. If you’ve ever felt stuck… uncertain… or like you were figuring life out in real time—this conversation will meet you there. Because sometimes the shift doesn’t happen all at once. It happens quietly… and then everything feels different. Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2569456/fan_mail/new] Thee Big Swing is a reflective podcast about the emotional reckonings and subtle internal recalibrations that change our trajectory over time — and the possibilities still available in life.  Each episode explores the moments when curiosity, courage, accountability, or reflection opens new ways of seeing ourselves and the world. Through personal reflections and thoughtful conversations, Lloyd and his guests explore changing identities, relationships, and the quiet decisions that alter how we see ourselves and our lives over time. The biggest swing isn’t always dramatic. Often, it’s the shift inside that changes everything. If something here stayed with you, you can reach me at lloyd@theebigswing.com

I WATCHED THE WOMEN AROUND ME SLOWLY LET THEIR GUARD DOWN

She thought she had to do it alone. Four women in my life—very different, strong, independent—believed the same thing. They resisted help. They resisted anything that felt unfamiliar… or outside of themselves. And then, one by one, something shifted. This isn’t really about AI. It’s about what happens when you realize you don’t have to carry everything alone. Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2569456/fan_mail/new] Thee Big Swing is a reflective podcast about the emotional reckonings and subtle internal recalibrations that change our trajectory over time — and the possibilities still available in life.  Each episode explores the moments when curiosity, courage, accountability, or reflection opens new ways of seeing ourselves and the world. Through personal reflections and thoughtful conversations, Lloyd and his guests explore changing identities, relationships, and the quiet decisions that alter how we see ourselves and our lives over time. The biggest swing isn’t always dramatic. Often, it’s the shift inside that changes everything. If something here stayed with you, you can reach me at lloyd@theebigswing.com

I WAS HERE... BUT I WASN'T ALIVE

Some of us are not alive when we're here... This episode came from a moment I had recently—one I didn’t plan, but couldn’t ignore. Sitting in a movie theater, I found myself thinking about something I’ve thought about many times before: the difference between the time I’ve lived… and the time I likely have left. But this time, it stayed with me. And what struck me most wasn’t just that time is limited. It’s how different life can feel once you finally arrive at something real—and realize how long it took to get there. For a long stretch of my life… I wasn’t really living. I was just getting through it. In this episode, I reflect on what it feels like when something you’ve known for a long time… becomes something you can’t ignore—and the quiet realization that life moves faster than you think. This isn’t advice. Just something I’m seeing more clearly now. And maybe it’s worth seeing a little earlier. Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2569456/fan_mail/new] Thee Big Swing is a reflective podcast about the emotional reckonings and subtle internal recalibrations that change our trajectory over time — and the possibilities still available in life.  Each episode explores the moments when curiosity, courage, accountability, or reflection opens new ways of seeing ourselves and the world. Through personal reflections and thoughtful conversations, Lloyd and his guests explore changing identities, relationships, and the quiet decisions that alter how we see ourselves and our lives over time. The biggest swing isn’t always dramatic. Often, it’s the shift inside that changes everything. If something here stayed with you, you can reach me at lloyd@theebigswing.com

SHE BET ON HERSELF...BUT NOT ALL THE WAY

I sat down with my sister—and what she shared stayed with me. This is a story about self-doubt, survival, and what it really means to bet on yourself. She talks about growing up in poverty, struggling to believe she was smart enough, and becoming a young mother while trying to find her way forward. Along the way, she faced setbacks, difficult relationships, and years of second-guessing herself. But she never stopped moving. From cutting classes in high school to earning her degree, raising her children on her own, and building a life across multiple states, her journey is not about perfection—it’s about persistence. One of the most powerful realizations in this conversation: She was willing to bet on herself… just not all the way. This episode is about growth, resilience, and the quiet decision to keep going—even when you don’t fully believe in yourself yet. Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2569456/fan_mail/new] Thee Big Swing is a reflective podcast about the emotional reckonings and subtle internal recalibrations that change our trajectory over time — and the possibilities still available in life.  Each episode explores the moments when curiosity, courage, accountability, or reflection opens new ways of seeing ourselves and the world. Through personal reflections and thoughtful conversations, Lloyd and his guests explore changing identities, relationships, and the quiet decisions that alter how we see ourselves and our lives over time. The biggest swing isn’t always dramatic. Often, it’s the shift inside that changes everything. If something here stayed with you, you can reach me at lloyd@theebigswing.com