On becoming real (self-surveillance, resurrection, and the courage to claim yourself)

The myth of the isolated self (On relation as the ground of existence)

We have been told that the self is a bounded, autonomous unit. That standing alone is freedom, that needing anything is weakness, that the work of a life is to become sufficient unto yourself. This is a myth with a genealogy, built carefully out of Descartes' mind / body split, Locke's proprietor of himself, capitalism's daily practice of turning your relationships into investments and your attention into a resource to be optimized. What if the isolated self was never free? What if it was always just confused, mistaking the wave for the ocean, acting from forces it cannot see toward ends it has not chosen? In this episode I trace the myth of the isolated self from its philosophical roots to its ecological consequences, and I look for what becomes possible when we stop believing it.  Drawing on Spinoza's immanence and conatus, Merleau-Ponty's flesh of the world, Haraway's sympoiesis, Kimmerer's grammar of animacy, Weil's attention as love, and guided by Ariadne's thread. Find the visual diary and other comments plus references on the Substack post of this episode.  [https://ximenaximena.substack.com/p/ep-04-the-myth-of-the-isolated-self] - You can find Florencia's music & work at @florence_q [https://www.instagram.com/florence_q/] Find me on:  * Substack [https://ximenaximena.substack.com/] * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/__ximenaximena__] * arootedimpact.com [https://www.arootedimpact.com/]

Despair is intellectually lazy (On remaining alive to possibility when the world asks you to give up)

Despair has become mistaken for intellectual depth. The more informed you are, the more you're supposed to be disillusioned, as if cynicism is the mark of truly seeing how things are. But what if this posture, this retreat into "nothing can be done," is actually a form of intellectual laziness? What if despair does exactly the work that systems of domination need it to do? In this episode, I work through why despair serves power, how imagination itself has been colonized, and what intellectual rigor actually demands of us in this moment. Drawing on Gramsci, Fanon, Arendt, and Marcuse, I explore the difference between grief and despair, between critique and action, between the pessimism that sharpens analysis and the despair that forecloses possibility. Because the crack in the foundation is there. The light is waiting to get in. And the future is not yet written. Find me on:  * Substack [https://ximenaximena.substack.com/] * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/__ximenaximena__] * arootedimpact.com [https://www.arootedimpact.com/]

Being Oracular (Learning to listen when the world is speaking)

In this episode, I invite you to journey with me into the realm of oracular consciousness. From the smoke-filled chambers of Delphi to the indeterminacy of quantum physics, and what it means to reclaim intuition as a disciplined, rigorous way of knowing. We'll explore the ancient practice of deep listening and how it transcends the traditional boundaries between mind and body, subject and object, and discover how this timeless wisdom can be applied to our modern lives, offering new perspectives and insights. Find me on:  * Substack [https://ximenaximena.substack.com/] * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/__ximenaximena__] * arootedimpact.com [https://www.arootedimpact.com/]

On becoming real (self-surveillance, resurrection, and the courage to claim yourself)

What if being “real” isn’t an identity but a process? This episode traces the quiet, difficult, process of unlearning the performances we mistake for identity and listening for the self that lives underneath. This first episode of Velvet Philosophy follows a deeply personal exploration of authenticity, self-avoidance, and the internalized surveillance that shapes who we allow ourselves to be. It reflects on the strangeness of not recognizing past versions of ourselves, the fear that feels far more sinister than impostor syndrome, and the exhausting vigilance of watching ourselves live instead of living. Drawing on neuroscience, psychology, philosophy, and mythology, the episode explores what it means to reclaim continuity, to acknowledge the parts of ourselves we’ve exiled, avoided, or tried to curate out of existence. It offers an invitation to approach the self with recognition rather than judgment, and to move, slowly and bravely, beyond performance. Find me on:  * Substack [https://ximenaximena.substack.com/] * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/__ximenaximena__] * arootedimpact.com [https://www.arootedimpact.com/]

Welcome to Velvet Philosophy

Trailer: Welcome to Velvet Philosophy, where the abstract becomes tangible and the intellectual turns visceral. A first glimpse into a podcast exploring critical thought that hasn't abandoned enchantment. Find me on:  * Substack [https://ximenaximena.substack.com/] * Instagram [https://www.instagram.com/__ximenaximena__] * arootedimpact.com [https://www.arootedimpact.com/]