Confidence: Why You Don't Have to Lead Alone - Field Note

Confidence: Why You Don't Have to Lead Alone - Field Note

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2396573/fan_mail/new] Confidence is a tricky thing in midlife leadership. For some of us it's been quietly draining away — through a loss, a reversal, an injury, or pain we've carried a long time. For others it's a newer ache: there was once a confidence tied to our wins, and now a fresh challenge has us rattled. Either way, the higher we climb, the lonelier it can get. We "mask up" for the day, hold it together for everyone around us, and tell ourselves we can't show the cracks. In this field note, Noel sits with that tension and then does what we love to do here at Canyon Pathways — he goes back to the word itself. Confidence comes from the Latin confidentia: con (with, together) and fidere (to trust). Tucked inside it are the words confide, confidant, fidelity — every one of them about trusting someone outside ourselves. Which turns the whole thing on its head. Confidence, it turns out, is less about belief in ourselves and more about belief in others. Self-confidence may even be a kind of oxymoron. But to live like a son is to live in abiding confidence — always trusting that we are seen, known, covered, and provided for by a faithful Father who has already prepared a table for us, right here in the valley. That's a confidence the canyon can't take away. Pull up a chair, brother. We'll stoke the fire while you settle in. What we explore in this field note * Why confidence wavers in the canyon — and how the isolation of leadership quietly erodes it * The word behind the word — confide, confidant, fidelity, fiduciary, and what the Latin root reveals * The difference between a confidence and a secret — one unites, the other divides * Three takeaways: 1. The confidence we usually imagine is born out of individual experience — "I've done it, so I can do it again." But over the years that can curdle from I can into I must, only I can — and that's where the isolation begins. 2. Confidence is inherently relational. It literally means together-trusting. We were made for the "we will do it," not the lonely "I can." 3. The deepest confidence is the confidence of sonship — we're not a hired hand whose contract is running out. We're sons and heirs, with a Father who has already prepared the inheritance, and the table. A line worth sitting with > "It's not that I can do it, it's that we will do it. And by the way, we will continue to do it. That's the essence of Psalm 23." Scripture & references * Psalm 23 — the Shepherd, the valley of shadow, the table prepared in the midst of it * Hebrews 4:16 — "Let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace…" * Epicurus — "We do not so much need the help of our friends as we do the confidence of their help in need." * Back to the Future — George McFly as the unlikely patron saint of confidence Coming up next We're staying with confidence — but moving from the field note to the fire pit. Next episode, Luke Smith sits down with Canyon Pathways brother Kewmars Kazemzadeh (name spelling to confirm — see note below) for a conversation about his own journey into sonship and how the Father has guided him through his life. You won't want to miss it. Resources * Subscribe so every episode drops right into your feed. * Discussion questions (PDF) — use this episode for personal reflection or with your small group. [link] * More field notes: canyonpathways.org/blog [https://www.canyonpathways.org/blog] * Bring our table to your inbox — the weekly devotional: canyonpathways.org/meditations [https://www.canyonpathways.org/meditations] * About Canyon Pathways: https://www.canyonpathways.org/about [https://www.canyonpathways.org/about] * Learn about our retreats: https://www.canyonpathways.org/retreats [https://www.canyonpathways.org/retreats] * The Heart of Man Film: http://heartofmanmovie.com [http://heartofmanmovie.com/] * The Canyon Pathways Spotify playlist: https://canyonpathwayspodcast.com/cpspotify [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5XT2TpA0AZ6eD0dQ6tAjZB] Produced by the team at Maroon Harpoon LTD. Thank you to our donors who make this venture possible — and thank you, friend, for being part of this Canyon Pathways community as we together live like sons and lead like fathers.

PROGRESS: A Story of Alignment w/ J.P. Avekoe

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2396573/fan_mail/new] |“Progress is not just advancement… it’s alignment.” We all want progress. But what happens when progress isn’t about moving faster… but about moving in the right direction? In this conversation, Luke sits down with J.P. Avekoe to explore what progress really looks like—not in theory, but in a life marked by challenge, success, loss, and ultimately, surrender. J.P.’s story stretches from Togo to the U.S. and back again. From survival… to success… to a deeper calling. And along the way, one thing becomes clear: Progress isn’t just movement. It’s alignment. What This Episode Explores When life feels like a grind Midlife can feel repetitive, heavy, and unclear. J.P.’s story gives language to that tension—and the desire for something more. Progress beyond external success From building a business to achieving financial success, J.P. experienced forward movement… but discovered that external progress doesn’t always lead to internal peace. Alignment over achievement True progress began when J.P. stopped trying to control everything—and started reorienting his life toward God. Faith vs. trust Faith says “I believe.” Trust says “I’m stepping into it.” J.P.’s journey is the shift from one to the other. Responding to the call After multiple moments where his life was preserved and redirected, J.P. reaches a turning point—not just believing in God, but trusting Him enough to follow. Resources * Subscribe so every episode drops right into your feed. * Discussion questions (PDF) — use this episode for personal reflection or with your small group. [link] * More field notes: canyonpathways.org/blog [https://www.canyonpathways.org/blog] * Bring our table to your inbox — the weekly devotional: canyonpathways.org/meditations [https://www.canyonpathways.org/meditations] * About Canyon Pathways: https://www.canyonpathways.org/about [https://www.canyonpathways.org/about] * Learn about our retreats: https://www.canyonpathways.org/retreats [https://www.canyonpathways.org/retreats] * The Heart of Man Film: http://heartofmanmovie.com [http://heartofmanmovie.com/] * The Canyon Pathways Spotify playlist: https://canyonpathwayspodcast.com/cpspotify [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5XT2TpA0AZ6eD0dQ6tAjZB] Produced by the team at Maroon Harpoon LTD. Thank you to our donors who make this venture possible — and thank you, friend, for being part of this Canyon Pathways community as we together live like sons and lead like fathers.

FIELD NOTE | PROGRESS: When Forward Doesn’t Feel Like Forward

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2396573/fan_mail/new] We all want progress. We want to feel like we’re moving… like something is changing… like we’re not just stuck. But midlife has a way of complicating that. Sometimes it feels like a grind. Sometimes it feels like we’re going backward. And sometimes everything looks like it’s moving forward on the outside… while something inside is wearing down. In this Field Note, we slow down and reconsider what progress actually is—and what it isn’t. A Thought to Sit With > “Progress means getting nearer to the place you want to be. And if you’ve taken a wrong turn, then to go forward does not get you any nearer.” — C.S. Lewis  What This Episode Explores • The weight of midlife Responsibility in every direction can leave us feeling stuck, exhausted, and unsure if we’re actually moving forward. • The illusion of movement Not every step is progress. It’s possible to stay busy, take action, and still drift further off course. • The need for reorientation Real progress isn’t just motion—it’s direction. And for us, that direction is relational. • Progress as return Like the younger son, progress begins when we turn back toward the Father—and take one step at a time in that direction. A Simple Invitation If things feel stuck right now, don’t overcomplicate it. * Pause. * Reorient. * Take one step toward the Father. That’s progress. Reflection Questions *  Where do you feel stuck or stagnant right now?  *  Are you moving—or actually moving forward?  *  What might it look like to reorient toward the Father this week?  Resources * Subscribe so every episode drops right into your feed. * Discussion questions (PDF) — use this episode for personal reflection or with your small group. [link] * More field notes: canyonpathways.org/blog [https://www.canyonpathways.org/blog] * Bring our table to your inbox — the weekly devotional: canyonpathways.org/meditations [https://www.canyonpathways.org/meditations] * About Canyon Pathways: https://www.canyonpathways.org/about [https://www.canyonpathways.org/about] * Learn about our retreats: https://www.canyonpathways.org/retreats [https://www.canyonpathways.org/retreats] * The Heart of Man Film: http://heartofmanmovie.com [http://heartofmanmovie.com/] * The Canyon Pathways Spotify playlist: https://canyonpathwayspodcast.com/cpspotify [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5XT2TpA0AZ6eD0dQ6tAjZB] Produced by the team at Maroon Harpoon LTD. Thank you to our donors who make this venture possible — and thank you, friend, for being part of this Canyon Pathways community as we together live like sons and lead like fathers.

Anticipation: Leading with Vision w/ Aseka Taabu

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2396573/fan_mail/new] Anticipation sits at the center of leadership. In this episode of the Canyon Pathways Podcast, Sherman Bradley sits down with Aseka Taabu, a Canyon Pathways brother based in Nairobi, Kenya, to explore the Field Note word Anticipation and how it shapes the journey of sonship and leadership. Anticipation isn’t simply about predicting what might happen next. It’s the posture of reaching forward—seeing what may be coming and preparing both yourself and others for what lies ahead. As responsibilities increase in midlife, anticipation can begin to shift. What once felt like excitement about the future can slowly become anxiety or a sense of waiting for something to go wrong. Yet the invitation of sonship calls men back into a different posture—one rooted in trust. In this conversation, Sherman and Aseka reflect on how anticipation shapes leadership, parenting, relationships, and the decisions men carry as they steward influence in their families and communities. Aseka shares reflections from his own leadership journey in Kenya, offering wisdom on responsibility, preparation, and the importance of remaining grounded in identity as a son while navigating the demands of leadership. Anticipation, when rooted in sonship, is not about controlling the future—it’s about stepping toward it with faith, wisdom, and clarity. Key Takeaways * Anticipation plays a critical role in leadership and decision-making. * Leaders must learn to anticipate both opportunities and challenges. * Midlife leadership can shift anticipation from excitement to anxiety if identity isn’t grounded. * Anticipation allows leaders to prepare others—especially children and teams—for what lies ahead. * A son approaches the future differently than a servant. * Healthy anticipation helps leaders navigate uncertainty and guide others through complex seasons. * Identity as a son restores confidence and hope in how we face the future. Sound Bites “Anticipation can make or break leadership.” “Good leaders anticipate not only threats, but opportunities.” “Anticipation means reaching into the future and bringing it into the present.” “Midlife leadership can shift anticipation from excitement to anxiety.” “A son learns to anticipate with confidence.” Resources * Subscribe so every episode drops right into your feed. * Discussion questions (PDF) — use this episode for personal reflection or with your small group. [link] * More field notes: canyonpathways.org/blog [https://www.canyonpathways.org/blog] * Bring our table to your inbox — the weekly devotional: canyonpathways.org/meditations [https://www.canyonpathways.org/meditations] * About Canyon Pathways: https://www.canyonpathways.org/about [https://www.canyonpathways.org/about] * Learn about our retreats: https://www.canyonpathways.org/retreats [https://www.canyonpathways.org/retreats] * The Heart of Man Film: http://heartofmanmovie.com [http://heartofmanmovie.com/] * The Canyon Pathways Spotify playlist: https://canyonpathwayspodcast.com/cpspotify [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5XT2TpA0AZ6eD0dQ6tAjZB] Produced by the team at Maroon Harpoon LTD. Thank you to our donors who make this venture possible — and thank you, friend, for being part of this Canyon Pathways community as we together live like sons and lead like fathers.

Intentional Sonship: Redefining Identity and Purpose w/Jacob Johnson

Send us Fan Mail [https://www.buzzsprout.com/2396573/fan_mail/new] In this conversation, Jacob Johnson shares his journey of personal transformation, the founding of Calyan Wax Co., and the importance of intentionality in life. He reflects on his experiences with family dynamics, forgiveness, and the role of community in personal growth. Jacob emphasizes the significance of understanding God's love and intentionality, encouraging listeners to embrace their identity as sons and to pursue meaningful relationships and purpose in their lives. Key Takeaways: * Healing begins when we stop striving and start receiving. * Addiction and fatherlessness often distort our sense of worth and identity. * God meets us in our lowest moments—not with shame, but with invitation. * Sonship is not a title we achieve but a truth we are invited to receive. * Restoration is possible when we stop hiding and allow others to walk with us. * Spiritual fathers can play a critical role in calling out identity. * Confession and community are powerful agents of transformation. * Freedom often begins with one simple question: “Who told you that you’re not a son?” Memorable Quotes: * “There’s a war over your identity.” * “You can’t earn sonship. It has to be received.” * “You’re not as alone as you think you are.” * “God fathered me through the kindness of others.” * “My addiction was a symptom of something deeper.” Chapters 00:00 Building Community and Connection 02:46 The Journey of Sonship and Testimony 05:38 The Impact of Canyon Pathways 08:26 Living Light: A Transformative Word 11:43 Intentionality in Life and Faith 14:32 The Spectrum of Intentionality 17:31 Childhood Influences on Intentionality 19:27 Navigating Confusion and Anger 22:38 Identity Shaping Moments 25:36 The Role of Justice in Personal Growth 44:21 From Pain to Purpose: The Journey Begins 49:14 Summer of Transformation: Seeds of Change 53:39 From Candy to Candles: The Entrepreneurial Shift 59:51 Building a Legacy: Balancing Family and Business 01:07:04 Forgiveness and Healing: A Father's Impact 01:14:18 Understanding the Heavenly Father: A Journey of Trust 01:21:18 Encouragement for the Journey: You Are Enough Resources * Subscribe so every episode drops right into your feed. * Discussion questions (PDF) — use this episode for personal reflection or with your small group. [link] * More field notes: canyonpathways.org/blog [https://www.canyonpathways.org/blog] * Bring our table to your inbox — the weekly devotional: canyonpathways.org/meditations [https://www.canyonpathways.org/meditations] * About Canyon Pathways: https://www.canyonpathways.org/about [https://www.canyonpathways.org/about] * Learn about our retreats: https://www.canyonpathways.org/retreats [https://www.canyonpathways.org/retreats] * The Heart of Man Film: http://heartofmanmovie.com [http://heartofmanmovie.com/] * The Canyon Pathways Spotify playlist: https://canyonpathwayspodcast.com/cpspotify [https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5XT2TpA0AZ6eD0dQ6tAjZB] Produced by the team at Maroon Harpoon LTD. Thank you to our donors who make this venture possible — and thank you, friend, for being part of this Canyon Pathways community as we together live like sons and lead like fathers.