To all of the friends I've loved before

To all of the friends I've loved before

I used to be the friend who couldn’t decide in front of a store window, thinking the problem was indecision when it was really fear of accountability. In this episode, I reflect on decision-making, risk appetite, people-pleasing, and the quiet cost of trying to be liked, moving from venture capital pattern recognition and Jeff Bezos’ two-way doors to financial PR hierarchy and the question, “Am I happy?” It’s a story about shifting from optimization to ownership, about being the “difficult” student and the lonely top performer, about why receiving requests is a gift, and why love is not the same as unfiltered truth. Maybe there is no perfect decision. Maybe growing up is learning to live with the one you make.

"You met me at a very Chinese time in my life."

From post-colonial Hong Kong to K-pop geopolitics, this episode explores how attractiveness, visibility, and power are shaped by culture. For generations we shrank to survive. Maybe we don’t have to anymore.

The girl with the Dragon

A story about spilled water that never left. About a grandmother, a system, and the quiet weight of being chosen. This essay traces lineage, gender, and inheritance through love that protected and confined at the same time, and asks what it means to belong when the rules were never written for you.

Tell the world I'm coming home

Written during long hours in a hospital ward, this piece reflects on death, fear, love, and the limits of control. Moving between science, religion, culture, and family, it asks what it means to live, to care, and to let go, and how dignity survives even when the body no longer does.

Married to the hustle

A story about hustle, heritage, and the battles we fight before we finally learn who we are. From Hong Kong’s New Territories to London’s startup grind, this essay cuts through family legacy, cultural pressure, and the loneliness of ambition. It is about growing up too fast, burning out too early, and realizing too late that most of your battles were with yourself. A vivid, restless, sharp-edged reflection on work, identity, and learning when to surrender.