1: To gain and lose a friend: This is how it began.

4: Did my dream last night make me paranoid? Or am I actually a creep?

I am going deeper into this broken relationship and I wonder... Was I a creep? What would I think if I saw myself from a third person perspective? Would I have warned her about me?

3: I visit a psychiatrist, revisit old clips (bad idea) and meet someone on a dating app.

I share impressions from my first experience with a psychiatrist, and I browsed through old recordings to make some funny TikToks - but that was a bad idea. And finally, I've met someone on a dating app that's made my days slightly brighter.

2: I visit my doctor, and try dating apps

I take the first steps in order to recover: I've asked my doctor for help. Something I should have done a long time ago. Also I try a few dating apps, until I realized what I actually did seek there. Also, those apps suck, and I'll tell you why.

1: To gain and lose a friend: This is how it began.

Here's the story of how a random person you meet in a video game soon can become your best friend ever. And how I lost her again.