4.0.0.0. - Anxiety

4.0.0.0. - Anxiety

I talk about my relatively recent experiences coping with anxiety / a panic attack as someone who has no familial or previous history with either. The episode hasn't been edited and sucks due mostly to lack of logical flow, use of unnecessary "ands" and other fillers, and, in some cases, general coherence—despite that, I hope it's not entirely unbearable. JRE episode I referred to. Neuroscientist's name is Andrew Huberman: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLJowTOkZVo

3.0.0.0. - The Vampire of Sacramento

I talk about a serial killer who was eventually known as "The Vampire of Sacramento." He developed an insatiable appetite for drinking blood and eating viscera, starting with that from animals, then progressing to people. "All animals are equal, but some animals are more equal than others," is one of the most famous lines from George Orwell's "Animal Farm." "All serial killers are disgusting, but some serial killers are more disgusting than others," couldn't be truer than it is in his case.

0.0.1.0 - START HERE / Intro.: UPDATE - Episode Naming Convention

I decided to change the episode-prefix naming convention from 3 to 4 digits. A fourth digit allows me to easily manage multi-part series—with only three, what would've been hard to do. Digits, from left to right: The first is the episode number. The second is the "part" number—if it is zero, it's not a multipart series. As soon as it becomes one, the zero for the first part will be changed to a 1., and the second part to 2, etc. The third is the update or tangent number. The fourth is the update or tangent for an update or tangent. Example: "4.3.2.1." would be the first update or tangent to the second update or tangent for the third part of the fourth episode. Some advantages to preceding proper episode names with these digits is that if you're using a podcast player that allows you to sort episodes lexicographically / alphanumerically, doing so will automatically group episodes such that you can conveniently find all episodes and there parts / updates regardless of release date—some podcast players only allow you to sort by release date though, which in this case, the convention probably won't help you much. Another advantage is that you can at-a-glance determine whether some episodes are multipart, etc. Let's say "4.3.2.1." came out today and you decided to start there. By naming convention alone, you already know episode 4 has at least 3 parts, at least 2 part-3 tangents, and at least 1 part-3-2nd-tangent parts or tangents. Might be confusing at first, but I hope it's beneficial in the long run.

2.0.0.0.-NOT AFRAID: A Book by Daniele Bolelli

I don't know Daniele, but first learned of Daniele through Joe Rogan's podcast. On every Rogan appearance, I always appreciated how laid back and knowledgeable Daniele was. Through them I learned of Daniele's "History on Fire" podcast, which I enjoy a lot. Relatively recently did I learn that he has another podcast, "The Drunken Taoist podcast", which I highly enjoy. What I am most impressed by is that Daniele is this kind of person after experiencing massive hardship. He took care of his wife while she was dying of a brain tumor, and when she passed, was solely responsible for their then 19-month-old daughter. This episode is about his book, "NOT AFRAID: On Fear, Heartbreak, Raising a Baby Girl, and Cage Fighting." He talks about his life and many of the hard lessons that shaped him into who he is. Especially in part 2 of the book, I often had tears streaming down my face and damn near "ugly cried" a couple times, which I haven't done in years. I read quite a bit from the book, but in no way did I come close to covering all of it—I often skipped entire chapters, and even some of the "best" parts of the book. I hope that if this book moves you in any way, you consider buying it or at least showing Daniele your support in some way. Not Afraid:https://www.amazon.com/Not-Afraid-Heartbreak-Raising-Fighting/dp/1938875133/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=not+afraid+daniele&qid=1571582315&sr=8-1 [https://www.amazon.com/Not-Afraid-Heartbreak-Raising-Fighting/dp/1938875133/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=not+afraid+daniele&qid=1571582315&sr=8-1]History on Fire podcast:http://historyonfirepodcast.com/ [http://historyonfirepodcast.com/] The Drunken Toaist Podcast:http://thedrunkentaoist.com/ [http://thedrunkentaoist.com/]

1.0.0.0. - The Toolbox Killers: Lawrence Bittaker and Roy Norris

Lawrence Bittaker and Roy Norris raped, tortured, and murdered at least five teenage girls. About a month ago I first heard of them. They were referenced in the Netflix series Mindhunter. I started reading and listening, and couldn't keep from getting really emotional. This case / these murders bothered me since I first learned of it, and I've read and heard a lot of terrible things, and most of them don't affect me like this—I can't think of another time such things led me to tears. It's probably because I imagine what it would've been like if one of my sisters, girlfriend, or any other women I love in my life were the victims. A lot of what I read is what I wrote based on the sources—when I talk about their first offenses, it's basically taken directly from the First offenses section of the Wikipedia article listed below. Same can be said of their biographies. Most of the rest of what I say is based on what I wrote regarding what I read from the sources below. Sources: Chapter 8, "No Further Danger to Others" inAlone With the Devil: Famous Cases of a Courtroom Psychiatrist by Ronald Markman, M.D., and Dominick Bosco.https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lawrence_Bittaker_and_Roy_Norris [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lawrence_Bittaker_and_Roy_Norris] http://murderpedia.org/male.B/b/bittaker-lawrence.htm [http://murderpedia.org/male.B/b/bittaker-lawrence.htm] http://peopleoftheblackcircle.blogspot.com/2012/08/an-interview-with-serial-killer.html [http://peopleoftheblackcircle.blogspot.com/2012/08/an-interview-with-serial-killer.html]