The Whole Hearted Woman: When the Pain Became Too Much

The Whole Hearted Woman: When the Pain Became Too Much

Most people don't break because of one thing. They break because a hundred things were already resting on their shoulders. In this episode, we go back—not just to the hospital room I told you about last week, but even further. Back to the little girl who learned to listen for footsteps. Who learned to read the emotional temperature of every room before she walked into it. Who was learning to survive long before she learned who she was. I'm sharing the years that formed the wound—the instability at home, the voices at school that planted a lie so deep it attached itself to everything, and the relationship that ended when the entire structure finally gave way. Not because that relationship was the cause. But because it was the crack in the dam. The moment the accumulated weight of a lifetime could no longer be contained. If you have ever felt like something is fundamentally wrong with you... If you have carried the quiet belief that you are not worth staying for... If you've wondered why certain wounds seem to follow you no matter how much faith you have... This episode will meet you there. Gently. Honestly. And with great care. Because what was spoken over you is not the truth about you. What happened to you is not who you are. And you are allowed—finally—to call it what it was. Bring your journal. There may be moments you'll want to sit with long after the episode ends. ✨ New episodes every week. 💛 Share this with a woman who needs to know she is not alone. 🌿 Learn more at heart2heartministry.com About the Podcast The Whole Hearted Woman Podcast with Kristen Rey is a faith-based podcast for women who love God — or want to — but know there are parts of their heart that still need healing. Through Scripture, emotional insight, and Spirit-led reflection, each episode helps women move from surviving to living from a whole heart. If this episode spoke to your heart, follow or subscribe so you can continue the journey.

Welcome Home - A Heart Fully Alive: A Journey from Brokenness to Whole Hearted Living

What if the very thing you've been hiding is the thing that sets someone else free? This is Episode 1 of a brand new season — and a brand new beginning. If you've been here before, welcome back. If you're finding this podcast for the first time, I believe you found it for a reason. This episode is an invitation. Into a heart room — a safe, judgment-free, pretending-free space where your story matters, your pain is welcome, and healing is not just possible. It's the whole reason we're here. I'm Kris Rey, founder of Heart 2 Heart Ministry, and in this episode I'm doing something I should have done from the very beginning. I'm stepping out from behind the curtain and telling you the truth about how I got here. At 22 years old I was in a hospital. Not because I wanted to die — but because the pain had become louder than any hope I could find. I grew up in a home that wasn't safe. I learned early that love was something you earned, that keeping secrets kept people close, and that performing okayness was how you survived. And I performed it so well that even I forgot what was underneath. If you have ever whispered — even just to yourself — I don't want to die, I just want the pain to stop — this episode is for you. You are not alone. You are not beyond repair. And God is closer to you right now than you may realize. This season, A Heart Fully Alive: A Journey from Brokenness to Whole Hearted Living, walks chapter by chapter through my book and my story — from the darkest places of brokenness, through decades of searching, all the way to the healing and wholeness only Jesus could bring. Bring your journal. Bring your honest heart. And know that whatever you carried in today — you are welcome here, exactly as you are. ✨ New episodes every week. 💛 Share this with a woman who needs to know she is not alone. 🌿 Learn more at heart2heartministry.com About the Podcast The Whole Hearted Woman Podcast with Kristen Rey is a faith-based podcast for women who love God — or want to — but know there are parts of their heart that still need healing. Through Scripture, emotional insight, and Spirit-led reflection, each episode helps women move from surviving to living from a whole heart. If this episode spoke to your heart, follow or subscribe so you can continue the journey.

The System That Formed You — Why We Become Who We Become

What if the patterns you struggle with didn’t begin with behavior… but with formation? In this deeply honest and eye-opening episode of The Whole Hearted Woman Podcast, Kristen Rey explores the hidden systems, wounds, beliefs, and survival patterns that quietly shape the way we think, respond, relate, and live. Many women love God deeply… yet still feel stuck in cycles they can’t fully explain. Why do we minimize ourselves? Why do we abandon our own needs? Why do we stay in what hurts us? Why does survival sometimes feel more familiar than freedom? This episode goes beneath surface behavior and into the deeper formation of the heart. You’ll learn: • Why patterns don’t begin with behavior • How pain shapes beliefs and identity • The hidden agreements we make in survival • Why awareness alone doesn’t transform us • How surrender allows God to heal at the root If you’ve ever found yourself asking: “Why do I keep responding this way?” or “Why does this feel so normal to me?” — this episode will help put language to what your heart may have carried silently for years. Healing begins when we stop only asking, “What’s wrong with me?” and begin asking, “What formed me?” This is a gentle invitation into deeper awareness, deeper healing, and deeper wholeness in Christ. ✨ Download the free 5-Day Heart Healing Starter Guide and learn more at Heart 2 Heart Ministry.com [https://www.heart2heartministry.com] #WholeHeartedWoman #HeartHealing #ChristianWomen #FaithAndHealing #IdentityInChrist #EmotionalHealing #HealingAtTheRoot #HeartFormation #ChristianPodcast #TraumaInformedFaith About the Podcast The Whole Hearted Woman Podcast with Kristen Rey is a faith-based podcast for women who love God — or want to — but know there are parts of their heart that still need healing. Through Scripture, emotional insight, and Spirit-led reflection, each episode helps women move from surviving to living from a whole heart. If this episode spoke to your heart, follow or subscribe so you can continue the journey.

Before Anything Formed: Returning to the Heart God Knew

Before the fear. Before the performance. Before the version of you that learned how to survive. There was a you that God already knew. In Episode 18 of The Whole Hearted Woman Podcast, we go back to the beginning — not to a theological concept, but to a deeply personal truth that may change the way you understand yourself. Because the version of you that formed in pain, in survival, in performance — that version is real. But it is not original. And God is not asking you to become someone new. He is inviting you to return to who He knew before anything in your life required you to become someone else. In this episode: What Jeremiah 1:5 actually reveals about how God knows you — and why the Hebrew word yada changes everything. What Genesis 1 and 2 show us about the original design of the human heart — before anything distorted it. The tender moment in the garden where a woman was named, recognized and known — and what God did when she failed. Why "you are fearfully and wonderfully made" is present tense — not past. Why awareness alone is not enough — and what the gap between who you were created to be and who you feel like on a Tuesday morning actually means. "You haven't lost yourself. You just don't know how to get back yet. And that is exactly what restoration is for." The Heart Healing Starter Guide is available in the show notes — a gentle first step into the five movements of the Whole Hearted Woman journey, beginning with identity. 👉 Download the free Heart Healing Starter Guide: heart2heartministry.com 🌿 Learn more: heart2heartministry.com [https://www.heart2heartministry.com] 📩 Connect with Kristen: kristen@heart2heartministry.com [kristen@heart2heartministry.com] 🎧 Enjoying the podcast? Follow or subscribe so you never miss an episode — and share it with a woman in your life who needs to hear that the need for healing is not a failure of faith. The Whole Hearted Woman Podcast is produced by Heart 2 Heart Ministry — a Christ-centered space where faith meets emotional healing and the quiet work of heart restoration. About the Podcast The Whole Hearted Woman Podcast with Kristen Rey is a faith-based podcast for women who love God — or want to — but know there are parts of their heart that still need healing. Through Scripture, emotional insight, and Spirit-led reflection, each episode helps women move from surviving to living from a whole heart. If this episode spoke to your heart, follow or subscribe so you can continue the journey.

The Performing Heart: When Looking Whole Becomes Its Own Kind of Hiding

She shows up every Sunday. She gives the right answers. She serves faithfully. She knows how to look okay. And she is quietly not okay. But nobody knows. Because she has been doing this for a very long time. If you recognized yourself just now — this episode is for you. In Episode 17 of The Whole Hearted Woman Podcast, we talk about the performing heart — the exhausting, isolating work of maintaining an outer life that doesn't match the inner one. We look honestly at why so many women who love God deeply have learned to show up faithfully while quietly carrying something nobody else can see. And why God is not asking you to keep performing for Him. In this episode: Why the performing heart is not a bad heart — and where it actually comes from. The three faces of the performing heart that are hardest to recognize because they look like virtues. The woman in Luke 13 who was bent over for eighteen years — present, faithful, and carrying something invisible — and what Jesus said to her. What Psalm 51:6 reveals about what God is actually after — and it's not your best performance. What it looks like to begin telling the truth in the hidden place. "God is not waiting for you to straighten up before He calls you forward. He is calling you forward so He can straighten you up." The Heart Healing Starter Guide is available in the show notes — a gentle first step into the five movements of the Whole Hearted Woman journey. 👉 Download the free Heart Healing Starter Guide: heart2heartministry.com 🌿 Learn more: heart2heartministry.com 📩 Connect with Kristen: kristen@heart2heartministry.com [kristen@heart2heartministry.com] 🎧 Enjoying the podcast? Follow or subscribe so you never miss an episode — and share it with a woman in your life who needs to hear that the need for healing is not a failure of faith. The Whole Hearted Woman Podcast is produced by Heart 2 Heart Ministry — a Christ-centered space where faith meets emotional healing and the quiet work of heart restoration. About the Podcast The Whole Hearted Woman Podcast with Kristen Rey is a faith-based podcast for women who love God — or want to — but know there are parts of their heart that still need healing. Through Scripture, emotional insight, and Spirit-led reflection, each episode helps women move from surviving to living from a whole heart. If this episode spoke to your heart, follow or subscribe so you can continue the journey.