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I Thought God Couldn't Use Me | From Shame, Abortion & Addiction to Finding Jesus

40 min · 10. juni 2026
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The enemy convinced her she was too broken for God to love her. After years of abuse, addiction, toxic relationships, shame, heartbreak, and searching for identity in all the wrong places, Emma Ciaramitaro believed her life was beyond redemption. In this powerful episode of Out of Focus, Shannon sits down with Emma as she vulnerably shares her journey through trauma, drugs, partying, abortion, deep shame, and hitting rock bottom — before encountering the life-changing love of Jesus. Emma opens up about the emotional pain she carried for years, the emptiness she tried to fill through the world, and the moment she realized that only God could heal what was broken inside of her. Together, Shannon and Emma talk about: • Shame and redemption • Identity and worth • Toxic relationships and trauma • Addiction and brokenness • God’s relentless pursuit • How Jesus transforms lives from the inside out This episode is a reminder that no one is too far gone for the grace of God. If you’ve ever struggled with shame, regret, or believing your story is beyond repair, this conversation will encourage you to run to the Father exactly as you are. “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” — Psalm 34:18 🤍 RESOURCES & LINKS: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/_shannon_stewart [https://www.instagram.com/_shannon_stewart] Podcast Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/outoffocuspodcast [https://www.instagram.com/outoffocuspodcast] Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/shannonstewartmodel [https://www.facebook.com/shannonstewartmodel] TikTok: http://www.tiktok.com/shannon_stewart [http://www.tiktok.com/shannon_stewart]_ 🎙️ All platforms & freebies: https://linktr.ee/shannonstewart [https://linktr.ee/shannonstewart] 📩 Booking inquiries: info@shannonstewartmodel.com #OutOfFocusPodcast #ShannonStewart #ChristianPodcast #Testimony #Redemption #Grace #Faith

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