Secret Life of a Shy Producer

Hello! It has been a while since my last episode. In this episode, I talk about my experience at an event that I went and participated in (with perhaps a touch of self deprecation). As a shy, anxiety ridden, and introverted producer, I went to a public event in Toronto (April 13)which was awesome and it was a great experience. The producers who participated were astonishing and I'm hoping some of their creativity rubs off on me :) I discuss my idiosyncrasies (aka, how my mind loves to work against me). I decided to document this honestly personal account of how I've been getting over self judgement by basically changing my perception of comparing myself against others to comparing the actions of the older(past)me to the (relative)present me. Basically this is worthy of a 5th grade Dr.Phil episode.

This was a quick ep about what I've been up to during the week. Note: I decided against posting the second part of this podcast (which had nothing to do with music). It was about a tragedy that had happened a few days ago at my alma mater (suicide). I went off the deep end (I speak off the cuff) talking about it because it's a tough subject and after listening back to my ramble, I realized that my perspective would be perceived as highly offensive and anti PC or insensitive to any of the parties involved. Suicide is a multifaceted issue that I cannot tackle without coming off as if I'm blaming either the school, the family, the friends, the culture, or the victim(which would land me in hot water in any case). The way I would've tackled the issue of my university and suicides/mental health would be from my own (highly biased) perspective and I would sadly try to put my experience on the victim which is neither fair or accurate to their situation. Because I am no professional,  I would hope that if anyone is feeling depressed and anxious would express it and get help asap. It's easier to get help now than it was when I was a student.

I briefly talk about my experience going to LoopSessions Toronto. Summary: I didn't participate but I did stay for a while and got immersed in the atmosphere and watched the other producers/artists work and it was great :D.

Main Links: https://soundcloud.com/loopsessionstoronto https://www.instagram.com/loopsessionstoronto/ Note: for sign up, go to instagram page! The Free VST I forgot to mention that I used in my track is A1 Trigger Gate http://www.alexhilton.net/A1AUDIO/index.php/a1triggergate

Hey Hey Hey! Side notes: 1) I wasn't crying while recording note: 2) medias doesn't make sense...pretty sure media is plural 3) There are a myriad of reasons for why I deal with instrumental music on a whole. I guess impressionability (or sensitivity) is a large reason for why I don't listen deeply to lyrical tracks. Mind you, I used to listen to k-pop and j-pop (still kind of do) and I have to turn off subs because I'm not interested in their lyrical messages PS: Break up with your girlfriend, I'm bored=Ariana Grande (I messed up on the song title) Hope you enjoy the ramblings