Step One: I’m Not the One Who Saves Me

Becoming One: The Death of Cat West

In this final episode before I become a wife, I’m sitting down to say goodbye. Not just to my last name, but to the version of me that had to survive alone. This isn’t about perfection. It’s about surrender, identity, unity, and what becoming one flesh actually means. This episode is raw, honest, and sacred to me. It’s my letter to Cat West, and my commitment to the life I’m stepping into.

Forgiving What You Can't Forget

Forgiveness isn’t easy. It’s not cute. It’s not fair.But it’s necessary.This week, I talk about the kind of forgiveness that doesn’t erase the pain but frees you from being owned by it.Because bitterness will not be our inheritance.And healing is still possible even when the memory lingers.Let’s talk about forgiving what you can’t forget… and how to live free anyway.

The 100 Day Heart Check: Repent, Purify, Obey

The 100-Day Heart Check: Repent, Purify, Obey There are officially 100 days left in the year. So, what are you doing with them? In this episode, I’m talking about repentance. Not as a religious checklist, but as a real choice to turn around. To stop flirting with the things that numb us. To stop pretending partial surrender is the same as obedience. I share what this looks like in my life right now, the conviction that hit, and how I’m choosing to walk into these next 100 days with intention: through repentance, pursuing purity, and obedience. All rooted in love, not performance. This isn’t a “fix yourself” message. It’s a wake-up call. Because you can’t pursue purity without repentance, and you can’t obey Him without fully letting go of the things you were never meant to carry. Maybe this is your heart check, too.

Step One: I’m Not the One Who Saves Me

In this episode, we begin where every healing story truly starts: surrender. I talk about Step One in the Stepping Into Freedom course I’ve been walking through with my small group "Admitting My Powerlessness." But this isn’t a lesson from a workbook. It’s real life. It’s years of performing my faith, running from God, and trying to fix myself through jobs, people, perfectionism, and performance until I finally couldn’t anymore. I share what it looked like to grow up around church, experience religious trauma, walk through deep abandonment, and come face-to-face with the false version of Christianity I had been living in… all before finally falling into the grace of the real Jesus. If you’ve ever felt stuck in your own strength or like you’re doing all the "right" things but still drowning this episode is for you. You're not failing. You're being invited to stop performing and start surrendering.

Why I'm Here, Why This Matters, and Why I'm Still Speaking

This isn’t a podcast introduction. It’s a surrender. Today, I’m finally speaking the thing God put in my bones. Not with polish, but with obedience. This episode is raw. It’s messy. It’s personal. And it’s the start of something I tried to run from for years. I’ll share what led me here: the abandonment, the rage, the bathtub baptism, the revenge podcast that turned into a ministry. We’ll talk about what happens when God hijacks your pain and calls you to speak anyway — even when your voice shakes, even when the enemy tries to shut it down. This isn’t for the perfect. It’s for the ones in the tension between surrender and survival. Between silence and speaking. You’ll hear pieces of my testimony. The verses carrying me. The reason I’m choosing to speak, even when it costs everything. Because the truth is: the choice is yours. Let’s begin.New episodes every Monday Follow the pod + connect on socials Feel something deep? Message me. We weren’t meant to walk this alone.