My Open Relationship Disaster

I've Been Masturbating Wrong [SEX]

On today’s sex episode of The Naked Puppet… we’re getting very personal. I’m talking masturbation, celibacy, sexual awakening, and a realization that completely unraveled my understanding of my own body. After going on a few dates and almost breaking my celibacy, I discovered something that sent me into one of the biggest trauma epiphanies of my healing journey. Turns out I had spent 30+ years following a hidden rule my brain made without me even realizing it. We’re talking about why I only ever masturbated a certain way, why I couldn’t feel anything during intimacy, the shocking realization I had in a gay bar, and what I learned after discovering I had never truly connected with parts of my own body. This episode gets raw, vulnerable, NSFW, and honestly a little heartbreaking. But if you’ve ever struggled with trauma, shame, dissociation, sexuality, or feeling disconnected from your own body… this conversation might hit a little deeper than you expect. Curtain up. Let's do this.

I Got a New Job [BRAINS]

Season 2 of The Naked Puppet is here… and everything is changing. I've been gone for a few months, continuing to heal but also starting a new job... one that’s helping me heal in ways I didn’t expect. What started as a simple brand ambassador role turned into something much deeper: real-life exposure therapy for my brain. If you’re new here, I’ve spent the last few years navigating dissociation, OSDD, and reconnecting with my body after uncovering repressed childhood trauma. Season 1 of this podcast was all about interviewing my different “parts”… but now, things feel different. I feel different.  Welcome to Season 2 🤍

The Trauma of Mixed Hair

I got boho braids for the first time and unlocked a whole new personality because of it! But what started as a cute, carefree hairstyle quickly turned into a full-blown hair horror story... one that had me genuinely contemplating shaving my entire head… and unexpectedly unraveling my identity as a mixed girl. In this episode of The Naked Puppet, we dive into the unique grief of having mixed hair - from childhood teasing and chemical straightening to the lifelong feeling of being “too much” or “not enough.” I bring two of my parts on stage to explain why that appointment triggered a full internal team face-off in my brain: the part that wanted to laugh it off… and the part that wanted to disappear. This episode is storytime, nervous system realness, and a love letter to the messy, complicated journey of learning to wear your texture, and your identity, without apology. TW: racism/microaggressions, identity trauma, dissociation/OSDD discussion, emotional distress. Personal experience only; not medical advice.

My Open Relationship Disaster

Years ago I told my Youtube friends how I ended my 8-year long relationship, but it wasn't the entire story. For years, I believed that I was the villian in the story... but that's not quite the truth. Not even close. In this episode of The Naked Puppet, I sit down with one of my own OSDD parts, Housewife Jacy, to unpack what really happened behind closed doors: the subtle emotional manipulation I never recognized, the open-relationship “solution” that blew everything apart, and how dissociation buried the entire memory so deeply that I forgot the truth for almost a decade. We talk about obligation sex, covert guilt-tripping, crumbling identities, and the wild moment that finally pushed me out the door. And for the first time, I share how this breakup literally created a new part of me... and why discovering that has changed everything. Plus: our new intermission segment System Spotlight, where Housewife Jacy talks hobbies, tattoos, musical eras, and all the little things she left behind when the relationship ended. TW: emotional manipulation, trauma, dissociation, sex, open relationships. Personal experience only; not medical advice.

I Got Depersonalized at Oktoberfest

I just got back from a fun and flirty trip to Germany for Oktoberfest! What started as the most sexually liberating night of my life turned into one of the most confusing spirals I’ve ever had. I felt confident, powerful, and finally safe being seen... until I saw the photos of myself the next morning. Suddenly, my brain flipped the script. The memory changed. The confidence vanished. In this episode of The Naked Puppet, I unpack what really happened at Oktoberfest: how depersonalization hijacked my joy, how trauma can literally rewrite our memories, and what it takes to hold onto empowerment without shame. Plus: a fun round of PopLight —Would You Rather face-off for these iconic world events. TW: trauma, dissociation, sex. Personal experience only; not medical advice.