30. The closing of a chapter: Four years, a thousand versions of me + the cyclical nature of life

36. Creating a fulfilling life again - one you don't want to escape from

Well people, we are falling madly in love with life again. What even is a fulfilling life anymore? Like truly? In this epi we share Taylor’s recent journey (pits of hell and all) of returning to a fulfilling life. One that feels nourishing, meaningful, and true to who you are. On your own terms!! We explore the difference between chasing someone else's version of success/ fulfillment and returning to the practices, rhythms, and values that genuinely support your well-being. We talk about the importance of coming back to what works for you, honoring the seasons of your life, and building daily rituals that create a deeper sense of joy, purpose, and connection. Micro moments people! Fulfillment is cultivated through the choices we make, the relationships we nurture, and the ways we learn to trust ourselves again and again. This convo is an invitation to redefine what a beautiful life looks like on your own terms and to remember that the path back to yourself has always been available. “Building a life that nourishes our soul may be one of the most powerful ways to honor and heal our lineage.” - Taylor & her ancestors xoxo THANKS FOR BEING HERE!!! You fulfill us <3  xx, ~ podcast links  Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ [https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/] https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ [https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/] youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast [https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast] tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie [https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie] website: https://sadflowerswritten.com [https://sadflowerswritten.com] podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477] substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten [https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten]  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3 [https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3]

35. The Universal Law of Threads - Yes, I made that up.

On trauma, neuroprogramming & harmonizing the matrix. "Yes... I'm a philosopher now." - Taylor In this epi, we explore what we coined The Universal Law of Threads - a philosophical framework that views trauma as energetic, emotional, and neurological threads woven throughout the tapestry of our lives. Drawing from the Reticular Activating System (RAS), neuroprogramming, nervous system patterns, and spiritual philosophy, we unpack how the mind continues to seek what is familiar and how our perception shapes the reality we experience. The stories we inherit and the meanings we assign become threads that influence what we notice, what we repeat, and what we create. Inspired by the principle that energy is neither created nor destroyed, this convo invites us to see healing as transmutation.  Rather than escaping the matrix… We are harmonizing it ("I’m also coining that shit" - Taylor)  If you've ever felt like a particular wound, relationship, or memory keeps resurfacing, perhaps there is a thread inviting you into deeper remembrance, integration, and transformation. Welcome to a philosophical musing from Taylor's corner of the universe. We are copywriting this shit so don’t even try to steal it! WE ADORE YOU!! xx,   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ [https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/] https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ [https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/] youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast [https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast] tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie [https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie] website: https://sadflowerswritten.com [https://sadflowerswritten.com] podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477] substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten [https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten]  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3 [https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3]

34. The spiritual, religious & internet cults podcast. This epi might trigger you.

WE'RE NOT HERE TO CALL ANYONE OUT ! We're here to call ourselves back in. An honest conversation about what happens when we unknowingly hand our power away... and how to find our way back to ourselves. This is an exploration of the spaces between guidance and dependency, wisdom and authority, community and conformity. And what it means to find your own way home in a world full of people telling you where to go. In this triggering epi, we explore the cultish dynamics that can emerge anywhere - spiritual communities, religious spaces, online movements, self-help circles, government ideologies, wellness culture, and even our own minds. This is not a callout of any specific person, teacher, organization, or belief system. Rather, it's an eagle-eye view of what can happen when we stop thinking for ourselves and begin outsourcing our truth to someone else. We talk about radical responsibility, personal sovereignty, discernment, and what it means to find your own way through an increasingly noisy world. We also introduce the concept of Radical Happiness - the practice of creating a life that genuinely feels aligned, meaningful, and true to you, rather than following a prescribed path handed to you by someone else. Yep... we coined that.™️ As the saying goes, "We are all just walking each other home." But home is your home. Not your teacher's. Not your guru's. Not your parents'. Not society's. Not the internet's. You cannot die in someone else's grave. You are here to live your own life. This conversation is offered from a place of love, curiosity, and awareness NOT judgment. Because being human is complicated, influence is everywhere, and learning to trust ourselves may be one of the most important journeys we'll ever take. If this episode challenges you, good. Let's talk about it. WE ADORE YOU HEHE. xx,   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ [https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/] https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ [https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/] youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast [https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast] tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie [https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie] website: https://sadflowerswritten.com [https://sadflowerswritten.com] podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477] substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten [https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten]  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3 [https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3]

33. STAR WEATHER REPORT: Cancer season is upon us. Intuition, mother wound, remembrance

Welcome to Cancer Season babieessss  In this epi we’re diving into the cosmic waters of the Sun, Mercury, and Jupiter all moving through Cancer - a season of feeling, remembering, creating, and coming home to ourselves while asking the question: “Do the stories I’m telling myself still feel like home?” The Sun illuminates. Mercury communicates. Jupiter expands. We explore intuition, the mother wound, and the sacred process of birthing creation from the depths of your inner world into the physical one. What stories are ready to be recreated? What old waters are ready to wash away and cleanse? Yummy. We talk about the energetic themes of this season, our inner and outer homes, the spaces we create, and the ways artistic expression becomes a portal for transformation. I share intuitive channel reads, energetic insights, and reflections on what to look for as we move through this Cancer season. A little astrology, a little soul excavation, a whole lot of spiritually f*cked magic. Because we adddooorreeee yoooouuuu!!!!!  xx,   Mentorship with Taylor: https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3 [https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3] Intuitive astrology reading with Taylor: https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr [https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr] ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ [https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/] https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ [https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/] youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast [https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast] tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie [https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie] website: https://sadflowerswritten.com [https://sadflowerswritten.com] podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477] substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten [https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten]  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3 [https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3]

32. I’m back!!! Spiritually F*cked and I love my life

We're back. 🤍 After months away from the podcast, this epi is a life update - a reflection on moving into a new home, turning 30, publishing my book, traveling, and the loud ass transformations that happen when you begin creating a life that actually feels like yours. *chefs kiss* We chit chat about following those intuitive pulls, trusting the timing of your life, and recognizing the signs that appear when you start living in alignment. Diving into self-worth, reflection patterns, the law of mirrors, and how the outer world is always revealing the inner shifts we’re meant to move. Taylor shares the deeper story behind weight gain as an energetic reflection, and her period returning after months of disappearing. Of course arriving right after publishing her second book and stepping into a new chapter of life. We explore what it means to feel whole, to feel resourced, to love your life as it is, and how true manifestation is about becoming someone who can receive the life they’ve been asking for. With the beginning of Cancer season, this episode is an invitation to come home to yourself, trust your own timing, and remember that the most magical moments often happen when you’re fully present for the life you’re already living. A reminder: you don’t have to chase the life you want. It unfolds when you finally let yourself love the one you’re in. WE ADORE YOU !  xx, Mentorship with Taylor: https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3 [https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3] Intuitive astrology reading with Taylor: https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr [https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr]   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ [https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/] https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ [https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/] youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast [https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast] tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie [https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie] website: https://sadflowerswritten.com [https://sadflowerswritten.com] podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477] substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten [https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten]  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3 [https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3]