I survived the AVN sex convention!👌

How I was OUTED! /Side effects of Dissapearing

Have you ever tried to disappear? probably not-but a hiatus can become a disappearance and disconnection from this kind of career. It can be very painful for anyone to lose someone they enjoy in their life even if it’s a online symbiotic-parasocial relationship! Remember your worth more than money both users and performers! I hear many people that have holes in their heart after a performer disappeared and how sad they were you can see them asking in forums, too. This goes both ways though and whether they’re on the user end or the performer end and this can really affect a lot in any life. It’s taboo often we don’t have anyone to console us if needed to quit. A user may feel like they were just playing on a moment for some money perhaps-and that’s all it was not anything more. Yet the name we give ourselves is only as real as our freedom to be safe to be that name…for ourselves we have to hide so much in every day life, until we are free from shame the light will bring out those who have wanted to bask in the light of their truth. If we see #Sexworkisrealwork maybe we would never want do it but we must treat each other with enough respect to not have us living in the shadow of shame.

BURNOUT DIARIES; 1. How to Heal? No, Healing happens. Now do only which is your true desire.

From being burnt out right now and also many mannyyy burnouts before; I would note that eventually, you kind of give up! You just gotta give in, it doesn’t matter anymore! You’re Fucked! Then, and only then you can go on from the ground you lay on up. That is it! Within tasks naturally executed these moments weave and you can finally remember who you are and what you WANTED to be doing! What is something you’re enjoying? If you find that something you’re doing is and was before you the whole time-then you always loved Something of it! When we over-stress; somehow we forget things that aren’t ‘relevant’ or right in front of us! When nothing has value anymore, it can build meaning all over again! Listen in on how I have changed as a cam girl a little, and as I read aloud the beginning of The DAO DE CHING by LAO TSU ☯️

For Corona-Cammers! If You are Leaving; Don’t Forget Us.

Many people had taken up online sex work as a result of this pandemic-especially in the USA 🇺🇸 due to the lack of quickly accessible Unemployment and Stimulus $. Consent, is a spectrum we do things we don’t always want to do-at any job...but if camming, Onlyfans-ing and indie Clips weren’t your cuppa tea...Don’t forget us still in the industry-willingly. Advocate where we cannot. Be an ally and don’t throw us into the regret pile to be condemned even if you had a horrible experience. This letter is from me to you. Melody x

This whole Pandemic thing...

I’m back and holy moly I’m sorry I wish I could have been updating you all on this as it was taking place but here I am now to try and give you some information on the climate of the online sex industry in the Novel Coronavirus pandemic. I’m MelodyHero /Morrison and this is what the f**k happened from MY point of view!

I survived the AVN sex convention!👌

Goddamn I said God. Damn. The AVNs are tough. It’s in the heart of darkness-and my own personal Hell; Las Vegas, Nevada. I just left the place in summer swearing never to return but Doja Cat live at a private concert had the devil tempting me all the way to the hard r(cock) hotel. This is just my personal experience so for disclaimers; I didn’t cry at a greyhound bus station, I didn’t pee my pants when I got to downtown LV, I didn’t witness a 7-11 being robbed with an implied gun in a backpack and I didn’t have PTSD from living in Las Vegas to start with. Welcome to the shit-spo!