A State of Semi-Conscious Grace

Rejection in the Room (Rikito part 2)

CW: Discussion related to assault & sexual abuse between 2:00 and 7:00 minute marks.  Rikito and I talk about early experiences of shame, romantic and social rejection, honesty, and my crying.

Burning it all Down with Renee

Renee Beauregard Lute talks about being a child malcontent, saints & nuns who terrified children, and worrying about not being a good person. I take notes on how to scare children and sneak in a short clip of the Nightwish song "End of All Hope."  Books mentioned in the episode:  Winicker Wallace: Winicker Hates Paris (by Renee Beauregard Lute) Winicker Wallace: Winicker and the Baby Wait (by Renee Beauregard Lute) Winicker Wallace: Winicker and the Christmas Visit (by Renee Beauregard Lute) Winicker Wallace: Winicker and the American Boy (by Renee Beauregard Lute) Little Beach Street Bakery (by Jenny Colgan) The Arrangement (by Sarah Dunn)  The Ramona Series (by Beverly Cleary)

A State of Semi-Conscious Grace

I talk organized religion, spirituality, and my own neuroses with Reverend Shane Montoya.

Voicelessness and Unconditional Love

In this solo episode, I talk about my early life experiences with my voice, my distrust of unconditional love, and keeping things private.

The Pit and the Patricks

Reese interviews me in this episode, and we talk about me getting bored, talking like a victim, emotional Patricks, and being shite at parties.