"The Year of the Horse" Episode 3

Episode 6 - "The God Paradox"

In this episode, Lindsey and Brittany dive into the deeply personal idea of religious beliefs and have a conversation about how faith shifts after profound loss. Lindsey opens up about the intense anger and doubt that followed Jason's death, touching on the struggles that come with common platitudes, Catholic teachings, and lingering questions about purgatory, the afterlife, and whether our loved ones can send us signs or visit us in dreams. Brittany, a lifelong Catholic, shares how her own faith was tested during her infertility journey and the COVID era — and how leaning into the study of her beliefs ultimately deepened her faith and brought her a sense of peace, including a greater understanding of intercession and purgatory. Together, they arrive at a beautifully honest conclusion: faith is ever-evolving, all paths deserve respect, and as Jason always reminded us — live for today, because tomorrow is promised to no one.

"6 Month Stuck" Episode 5

In this episode, Lindsey shares the feeling of being trapped in a repetitive, dark loop of grief nearly six months after Jason's death, juggling parenting responsibilities that leave little space to mourn and feeling farther from him, so she talks to his photo throughout the day. She describes taking the Australia trip she and Jason had booked for the kids' spring break, inviting her father-in-law Scott to join, and choosing to go with no expectations while trying to "find Jason in the little things," guided by her mom's reminder: "Get busy living or get busy dying." After returning, Lindsey and Brittany debrief the two-week visit with Jason's brother Andy and sister-in-law Becki near Sydney, noting smooth travel, a slower pace of life, and Lindsey's surprising reprieve from omnipresent grief. Lindsey recounts a family moment spreading Jason's ashes at the beach and reflects on balancing closure with staying connected, including a video of Jason's laugh that made him feel present, and her hope that happy memories will eventually outweigh sadness.

"When Life doesn't go as planned" Episode 4

*]:pointer-events-auto scroll-mt-[calc(var(--header-height)+min(200px,max(70px,20svh)))]" dir="auto" tabindex="-1" data-turn-id= "request-6966b0a6-1364-8330-8dc3-4260ca8b231d-0" data-testid= "conversation-turn-6" data-scroll-anchor="true" data-turn= "assistant"> When Life Doesn't Go as Planned: Moving Forward in 2026 Lindsey and Brittany reflect on entering 2026 after a difficult 2025, sharing highlights from earlier in the year focused on experiences and travel, including mother-daughter and father-son trips, a California road trip with Disneyland, and a Midwest baseball stadium road trip through Madison, Milwaukee, and Chicago. They discuss how life can upend expectations, with Brittany sharing her later-in-life marriage, infertility journey, and the grief of missing expected milestones, as well as reframing a child-free life with peace and new freedoms. Lindsey relates this to grieving Jason and the pain of future milestones he won't be present for, while emphasizing perspective, "moving forward," and making small daily choices toward joy. They note the importance of not assuming things in life are guaranteed, acknowledge that platitudes can be unhelpful even when time and micro-decisions matter, and share their intent to continue to move forward in 2026.

"The Year of the Horse" Episode 3

Facing 2026: Embracing Hope and Navigating Grief In this heartfelt episode, Thiss Sucks reflects on the challenging transition into 2026, discussing the journey of grief following the loss of Jason in August 2025. Lindsey shares personal experiences over the past months, including the support from the 'Best Christmas Ever' organization that provided hope and community during the holidays. Thiss Sucks delves into the emotional juxtaposition of sadness and the pursuit of joy, illustrated through poignant anecdotes, including a touching conversation with her daughter. With a blend of humor and sincerity, the episode conveys the universal struggle with loss and the importance of finding new paths to happiness and healing. As they embrace the Year of the Horse, Lindsey Brittany explore the metaphor of the buffalo facing storms head-on, symbolizing resilience and the courage to confront grief directly, while seeking moments of joy in the journey ahead.

"The Playbook Nobody Wants" Episode 2

Navigating Grief: The Playbook Nobody Wants In the second episode of 'This Sucks' podcast, host Lindsey shares her deeply personal journey of navigating life after the sudden passing of her husband, Jason. The episode focuses on practical advice for dealing with immediate tasks following the loss of a spouse, such as funeral arrangements, legal paperwork, and financial planning. Lindsey also discusses the emotional aspects of grief, the importance of having a strong support system, and the role of preparation in mitigating the overwhelming challenges that come with such a loss. Co-host Brittany joins in to provide additional insights and reflections.