Heavy Past. Grateful Heart

Heavy Past. Grateful Heart

This one hit me hard. Because after everything — the drugs, the jail, the chaos, the grief, the self-destruction, the survival mode — I’m still here. And for the first time in a long time… I’m genuinely grateful for my life. Not because it’s perfect. Not because everything went my way. But because I know what it feels like to lose yourself… and fight your way back. This episode is about gratitude that comes after pain. The kind that hits different when you’ve survived yourself. Untamed Spirits — raw, real, no filters.

Party Girl To Prison Cell

This one isn’t pretty. This is the part of my life where the partying stopped being fun… and started costing me everything. I went from blackout weekends, drugs, and chasing a high to sitting in the back of a cop car at 18… facing an attempted murder charge. A year in jail. Cold reality. No distractions left. In this episode, I get real about what meth did to my brain, how fast things escalated when I surrounded myself with the wrong people, and the moment it all caught up to me. I talk about the fear. Seeing my dad through glass. Thinking my life was over before it even started. But I also talk about the shift — the wake-up call that forced me to look at who I was becoming and decide if I was done… or if I was going to keep going down. If you’ve ever felt out of control… like you’re in too deep… like one decision could change everything — this episode is for you. This is where the truth hit. And nothing was the same after that.

Strong Enough to Break

This wasn’t about productivity. It was about being pulled apart by life. Working full time. Being a mom. Building something that matters. Holding space for everyone. Trying not to lose myself in the process. By the time I walked into that hotel room, my nervous system was fried. I wanted to rip my fucking hair out. And then I closed the door. Dropped my body on the bed. And felt relief hit me like oxygen. This episode isn’t about doing more. It’s about what happens when you finally stop. When you choose yourself before you break. 🎙️ Untamed Spirits This one is for the women who are tired of being strong and ready to stop abandoning themselves.

The Calm Before The Storm

This episode is the moment before everything went sideways — the quiet breath before the chaos I ran toward for years. Before the drugs, the streets, the jail time, the rape, the hustling, the “strong girl” mask I wore like armor. This is the version of me I never honored: the calm-before-the-storm girl who didn’t know what was coming, but damn sure survived it. If you’re ready to Break the Fuck Out of Numbing just to survive. https://www.paypal.com/ncp/payment/NY9ANGXRLQQNA [https://www.paypal.com/ncp/payment/NY9ANGXRLQQNA]I’m pulling back the curtain on the life I built in survival mode, the identity I crafted out of pain, and the chaos I chased because I didn’t know another way to feel powerful. This isn’t about trauma. This is about reclamation. About becoming the woman who leads with her voice instead of her wounds. About owning the story that shaped me and using it as fuel — not a cage.

Un-numbing what I drank to forget

In this raw, unfiltered episode of Untamed Spirits, I rip the mask off. I take you into the party house where it all started, the all-nighters at the skating rink, my first DUl at 19, and the brutal truth behind why I drank-not to celebrate, but to disappear. This is where the "the strong one" was born, the party girl armor was built, and the addict identity took root before I even had a chance to grow up. This isnt healing-this is war. This is nervous system regulation for the woman who never felt safe. This is emotional reparenting for the girls who were left alone with trauma. This is your permission to feel what you've been swallowing for decades. If you've ever felt too far gone, to fucked up, or too broken to begin again-this episode is for you.