Blueballed by Emotion

The Funeral vs Scattering Ashes. One Year On.

AKA: The mothership. It's all been building to this one. T/W: Grief, depression, death, detailed end-of-life care. This episode is pretty hardcore - feel free to skip or come back to it when you're ready. We go back to the week Mum died. Her decline, watching her have seizures, becoming non-responsive. The moments that haunt us: her opening her eyes for Bunny, tapping Amy's hand while music played. We talk about asking her to leave. Playing pub clear-out songs so that she’d get the memo.  Then Amy writing the eulogy. The funeral. And finally, scattering her ashes a year later. 📆 Recorded July 2025 (12 months post-loss)

The Mum, The Myth, The Legend // 19 Homes

AKA: Dead Mum Dreams & Spirituality We struggled with energy this episode, sorry! We cover all things Mum memories. Going to festivals and gigs with her, doing a Cornwall trip in a pink VW vintage campervan and walking our rabbit around the campsite. Also visits from Mum in our dreams, ghosts, and spirituality. We talk about the spiral of grief, Mum's final letters, option paralysis, job hunting in this f*cked up economy, and Bunny being avoidant at uni. 📆 Recorded April 2025 (9 months post-loss) T/W: Grief, depression

Crying at an Afters and Making People Feel Weird

AKA: Grief and Alcohol In this one, Amy talks about what it’s like managing grief alongside an addictive personality. Bunny admits her Vinted addiction might be getting out of hand. Also: feeling weirdly broody, bitching about the job market and falling out of love with London - and realising we’re literally the sisters from Fleabag. T/W: Grief, binge eating, addiction Recorded March 2025 (8 months post-loss)

Getting Emotional with RY X and Notting Hill Yummy Mummies

This was the month Amy blew her life up. Got dumped (sorry, *consciously uncoupled*), quit fashion, and ran off in search of a clean slate. We talk about getting emotional at a RY X meditation workshop, feeling held in a room full of strangers, and bonding over grief and holistic hippie chat. (If that’s not your vibe - completely fair - feel free to skip to the next episode, where we get into alcohol, addiction, and Bunny’s Vinted hoarding problem). T/W: Grief, breakups, depression Recorded March 2025 (8 months post-loss)

Blueballed by Emotion

AKA: Grief & Relationships This one’s about how grief messes with your relationships - romantic, platonic, family. We talk about leaning (or not) on people, relationship strain, and asking: who’s your partner’s support system when you fall apart? Also: rage at people with mums, crashing on WFH days, forgetting how to take care of yourself, and crying so hard you wind yourself. T/W: Depression, eating disorders Recorded Feb 2025 (7 months post-loss)