Still In It : 5-MeO-DMT Stories

Rewriting my life's story | Nick's 5-MeO-DMT Story

In this episode, we sit down with Nick, a former journalist and current psychedelic therapist-in-training, to explore the layered healing journey that led him to 5-MeO-DMT and an Awakening to Life Intensive at Enfold. Nick reflects on growing up with depression and anxiety shaped by early loss, intergenerational trauma, and a lifelong sense of insecure attachment and how earlier work with psilocybin and MDMA helped him reconnect with love, compassion, and meaning, but still left deep pain held in the body. Nick shares how 5-MeO-DMT brought that healing fully into the somatic realm, allowing long-held physical and emotional pain to move through and release. He describes his powerful Full Release ceremony, followed by an unexpected expansion into joy, connection, and embodied presence. A central theme of this conversation is the role of community as medicine — how the Enfold container, group process, and sense of being deeply held reshaped Nick’s understanding of safety, relationship, and belonging. Nick also explores nervous system regulation, polyvagal theory, self-compassion, repair in relationships, and the ongoing integration of psychedelic insight into daily life. He speaks candidly about moving from a story rooted in brokenness to one grounded in connection, resilience, and forward movement. A path he now hopes to extend to his family and future clients as he steps into service work of his own. — Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs. Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org [https://www.youtube.com/redirect?event=video_description&redir_token=QUFFLUhqa3J1cXc4Y1E0by1USVF6YWNYSENMeERiVkE4d3xBQ3Jtc0tuazM2bnZRb0NsZkZ6VkFvaDhJWkM3Tnl4a2MzM1RPVUYyb0RBVGRNSnJ0elkwTFNYb1JZMDNqeWNLZkgyal8xZFFsMm9TOGd2cDdYQlBQMzJmMl9uUC1VaEt3azhjSDl4eHFxWWR1S1lPT0d6V2tLQQ&q=https%3A%2F%2Fenfold.org%2F&v=Y1WlS-bB5hY]

Former Police Officer heals PTSD | Sande's 5-MeO-DMT Story

In this episode, Arthur sits down with Sande, a retired RCMP officer, mother of two, and long-time Enfold community member, to explore her journey through trauma, healing, and reclamation of self. Sande shares openly about living with undiagnosed PTSD following a near-fatal plane crash, years of panic, anxiety, and emotional shutdown, and the toll this took on her marriage, career, and sense of self. She reflects on her initial resistance to psychedelics, shaped by her background in law enforcement, and what ultimately allowed her to say yes to 5-MeO-DMT and the Enfold process. Across two visits to Enfold — one alongside her husband as their relationship stood on the edge of separation, and another after retirement — Sande describes profound somatic release, shifts in self-worth, forgiveness, and nervous system regulation. She speaks powerfully about learning to stop burying pain, allowing herself to feel again, and moving from “waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel” to realizing she is living in the light now. This conversation is a testament to embodied healing, relational repair, and the courage it takes to meet life fully after years of survival. If you'd like to hear more stories like this visit: enfold.org/still-in-it/ [https://enfold.org/still-in-it/] — Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs. Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org [https://www.youtube.com/redirect?event=video_description&redir_token=QUFFLUhqa3J1cXc4Y1E0by1USVF6YWNYSENMeERiVkE4d3xBQ3Jtc0tuazM2bnZRb0NsZkZ6VkFvaDhJWkM3Tnl4a2MzM1RPVUYyb0RBVGRNSnJ0elkwTFNYb1JZMDNqeWNLZkgyal8xZFFsMm9TOGd2cDdYQlBQMzJmMl9uUC1VaEt3azhjSDl4eHFxWWR1S1lPT0d6V2tLQQ&q=https%3A%2F%2Fenfold.org%2F&v=Y1WlS-bB5hY]

Discovering self-worth | Ep. 39 — John's 5-MeO-DMT Story

In this episode, John shares an intimate and courageous look at his healing journey — from a childhood shaped by trauma, to long stretches of depression and self-medication, to discovering 5-MeO-DMT and the profound shifts that followed. John speaks openly about growing up with his mother navigating schizophrenia, an absent father, and the deep sense of unworthiness that lived in him for decades. He reflects on how his first and second 5-MeO experiences at Enfold helped him understand his nervous system, release old survival patterns, and access a lasting sense of peace he had never known before. We also explore John's ongoing integration practice — including spirituality, IFS work, morning rituals — and how these have supported him through major life events, including a recent lung cancer diagnosis and surgery. John's story is an honest, hopeful example of what becomes possible when someone finally feels safe enough to meet themselves fully. If you'd like to hear more stories like this visit: enfold.org/still-in-it/ [https://enfold.org/still-in-it/] — Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs. Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org [https://www.youtube.com/redirect?event=video_description&redir_token=QUFFLUhqa3J1cXc4Y1E0by1USVF6YWNYSENMeERiVkE4d3xBQ3Jtc0tuazM2bnZRb0NsZkZ6VkFvaDhJWkM3Tnl4a2MzM1RPVUYyb0RBVGRNSnJ0elkwTFNYb1JZMDNqeWNLZkgyal8xZFFsMm9TOGd2cDdYQlBQMzJmMl9uUC1VaEt3azhjSDl4eHFxWWR1S1lPT0d6V2tLQQ&q=https%3A%2F%2Fenfold.org%2F&v=Y1WlS-bB5hY]

$150k in Personal Development | What Really Worked? (Ep.38 — Amanda's 5-MeO-DMT Story)

Amanda, a leadership coach and entrepreneur from Toronto, arrived at Enfold after years of personal development work and therapy that could not move the needle on her deepest patterns. Despite knowing exactly what she “should” be doing, she felt stuck in depressive episodes and self-criticism — caught between the part of her that wanted to heal and the part of her that believed love was only accessible when she was suffering. Her 5-MeO-DMT journey became a powerful homecoming to the love within herself. What began with fear — of doing it wrong, of not remembering anything, of wasting another investment — unfolded into a profound rewiring of her nervous system. In her ceremony, she released decades of shame, met the younger parts of herself that had equated suffering with connection, and learned what it felt like to be fully held. Four months later, Amanda’s life feels spacious and aligned. She’s stopped equating discipline with worth, stopped performing productivity as proof of value, and started leading from self-compassion. What’s emerging is a deeper sense of trust, self-love, and creative alignment — both personally and professionally. In This Episode 1. What happens when self-awareness alone can’t shift old patterns 2. How depression and procrastination can mask deeper misalignment 3. Meeting the inner child who believed love only came through suffering 4. The moment she asked to be held, and realized she was worthy of love and care 5. How integration deepened through internal family systems therapy 6. Rewriting the link between productivity and self-worth 7. Living from alignment rather than discipline 🔍 For anyone who’s done years of therapy but still feels stuck — Amanda’s story reveals that real transformation isn’t about understanding more, but finally letting love all the way in. 🗣️ “I can, without a doubt, say that Enfold was single-handedly the best investment I’ve ever made in myself.” — Amanda —  Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs.  Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org [https://www.youtube.com/redirect?event=video_description&redir_token=QUFFLUhqa3J1cXc4Y1E0by1USVF6YWNYSENMeERiVkE4d3xBQ3Jtc0tuazM2bnZRb0NsZkZ6VkFvaDhJWkM3Tnl4a2MzM1RPVUYyb0RBVGRNSnJ0elkwTFNYb1JZMDNqeWNLZkgyal8xZFFsMm9TOGd2cDdYQlBQMzJmMl9uUC1VaEt3azhjSDl4eHFxWWR1S1lPT0d6V2tLQQ&q=https%3A%2F%2Fenfold.org%2F&v=Y1WlS-bB5hY]

First-Responder Heals PTSD with Psychedelics | Ep. 37 — Mugs' 5-MeO Story

Mugs, a firefighter from just outside Seattle, came to us at Enfold in early 2025 after years of service left her system overloaded. A series of traumatic calls she dealt with — car accidents, suicides, fires — compounded earlier personal depression and trauma. “My world had gotten so small,” she says. “I stopped living or functioning.” Having tried talk therapy, EMDR, and countless modalities without relief, she arrived at Enfold with one clear hope: to find something that could reach the pain her mind couldn’t. What unfolded was an equally beautiful and challenging death & rebirth experience. During her 5-MeO-DMT ceremony, Mugs experienced a profound purge — a letting go of energy she says “never belonged to me.” Through that release came what she describes as a near-death experience that reoriented her entire relationship with life, family, and service. Returning home, she found her nervous system quiet for the first time in decades. The “hard drive” of her body and mind felt wiped clean, leaving space for presence, creativity, and love to return. “I just had space again,” she says. “It was absolutely incredible. The way it’s unfolded over time has been the best gift of my life.” In This Episode 1. How cumulative trauma and compassion fatigue can silently shut down the body 2. What happens when traditional therapies can’t reach the somatic roots of pain 3. The purging and release process of 5-MeO-DMT through Mugs’ lived experience 4. Moving from emotional numbness to gratitude and connection 5. How a near-death experience reshaped her relationship with her kids and work 6. Bringing empathy and forgiveness into difficult conversations 7. Reclaiming creativity and purpose after years of survival 🔍 For anyone carrying the unseen weight of service — especially first responders — Mugs’ story is a testament to how deep nervous system healing can restore the very qualities that trauma once buried: patience, compassion, and the simple joy of being alive. 🗣️ “I’m just so thankful. I care now. I didn’t care before… To be able to have that feeling where you actually genuinely care what the other person is going through.. it’s such a gift.” — Mugs —  Enfold offers safe and sacred transformational experiences combining psychedelic medicines, breathwork, coaching, and somatic modalities, with a grounding in Buddhist philosophy. We come together as a community to support one another on the path of transformation with events, circles, and ongoing programs.  Ready to embark on your own transformational journey? Learn more about our programs at: ⁠https://enfold.org [https://www.youtube.com/redirect?event=video_description&redir_token=QUFFLUhqa0MzQ0tyQVJmdEVleGZ0eEhaWk94Ukp0VW9vQXxBQ3Jtc0tuZWxaNHJRVWxMeWwxTjl3QWsyLWFNbmJNVmZOcU9SYlg2QTE5U0ZKT1lHRVZTdXBBMEFjcmtlT3VWZ1gyWHdfZ21QSTRBOTk5RnFXNno4bGtaY2ZfMzdRNXNlMjVfR1VXS0dLRElhdEg2RndFaXdMMA&q=https%3A%2F%2Fenfold.org%2F&v=PYms6_eDmtc]