When It Feels Like My Faith Has Failed Me

Where I Got Happiness Wrong

For most of my life, I've strived for "holiness over happiness." In my mind, I knew they were not in competition, but in my heart and actions - I lived like they were. In doing so, I think I forgot how to simply be... happy. In this episode, I continue to reflect on why some people feel like they’ve never really seen me happy, the difference between perfect and imperfect happiness, and how God desires us to be happy and holy.

When the Red Flag Might Be... You

A few people throughout my life have told me they can’t really remember the last time they've seen me genuinely happy. This is me reflecting on that - looking at possible root causes and patterns, and how I’m learning to respond to them.

The Bubble: Working Outside the Church for the First Time in 10 Years

For over a decade, my entire professional life was inside the Church - Ministry. Seminary. Parish life. That was my world. But after getting let go from my most recent role, I found myself stepping into something completely different - a secular work environment where nobody knows my story, shares my faith, or expects anything from me. In this episode, I talk about what it’s like to leave the “bubble” of ministry and relearn how to live your faith without a title, platform, or built-in community. From navigating workplace culture and internal doubts… to wrestling with identity, pride, and starting over from the bottom - this is an honest look at a transition that a lot of people go through, but not many talk about. If you’ve ever had to start over, step into a new environment, or figure out who you are outside of what you used to do - this one’s for you.

When It Feels Like My Faith Has Failed Me

What do you do when your faith feels like it hasn't paid off? When the people around you seem to be thriving without it? In this honest, personal episode I wrestle with doubt, comparison, and the temptation to walk away - and make the case for why I'm still here anyway.

Keeping the Fire After Getting Fired (From a Church)

I got fired from a church. This episode isn't about what happened. It's about what nobody talks about after it does. The hardened heart. The shame. The identity crisis. The triggers nobody warned me about. And through all of it - how do you stay faithful?