Fifty Years of Exile

Fifty Years of Exile

In this deeply personal reflection, I share what it was like to return to my childhood home carrying decades of memories, disappointment, hope, and unanswered questions. Surrounded by family expectations, financial uncertainty, and the weight of the past, an unexpected encounter with butterflies became a quiet reminder that transformation rarely looks beautiful while it is happening. This isn't a story about butterflies. It's a story about exile, returning, and discovering that the struggle may not be evidence you've lost your way—it may be part of becoming who you were created to be. If you've ever wondered whether you've come too far, waited too long, or missed your purpose, this story is for you.

Episode 34 God Who Am I?

There comes a moment when truth gets louder than comfort. A moment when you feel the pain of the world so deeply you have to stop and ask— I asked God a question I could no longer outrun: Who am I? What followed was not silence—but an answer that changed how I see pain, purpose, and the world itself. This is a story about awakening. In this episode, I wrestle with awakening, suffering, truth, and the deeper question no one talks about: What is the gain? Because if awakening only leaves you in despair… something is incomplete.

Episode 33 You have Been Remembering Yourself in Pieces

What if you've been remembering yourself in pieces? Many of us remember the experiences that hurt us with remarkable clarity. The disappointments. The losses. The chapters that changed us. But what if there is another part of the story waiting to be remembered? Because your life is not only the story of what happened to you. It is also the story of what emerged from you.

There Is Life Behind These Words

There are things people carry quietly for years while appearing completely fine from the outside. In this short reflection, I speak about hidden struggle, silence, learning later in life, and what it feels like to slowly reclaim your voice after believing you were behind for much of your life. This is not a story about perfection. It is a story about becoming. There is life behind these words.

Episode 32 At the Crossroads: Standing Between Two Lives

In this episode of Butterfly The Becoming, Monette sits inside the quiet tension that comes when a life no longer fits the person you have become. What happens when the familiar path still offers safety… but something deeper inside you can no longer return to it? Through reflection, uncertainty, exhaustion, rebuilding, and truth, this episode explores the emotional crossroads many people quietly face when standing between survival and the life that continues calling them forward. A grounded conversation about fear, change, identity, and the difficult honesty required to keep walking toward a life that has not fully revealed itself yet.