Cauldron Her Daddy

10: Scapegoating And Healing From Nonprofits With Mazarine Treyz

Scapegoating And Healing From Nonprofits With Mazarine Treyz CW: Death and Grief In this episode, Mazarine Treyz joins Sarai and Meredith to talk about her new book (and workbook), Healing From The Nonprofit Sector [https://www.healingfromnonprofits.com/]. Mazarine and Sarai both have extensive history working in nonprofits, and recovering from them. In this episode, Mazarine talks about the dynamics of scapegoating, which might be something you've experienced if you've ever considered yourself a witch. The episode covers the anger that is normal from that experience, as well as the systemic and institutional dynamics that underpin it such as white supremacy and cultures of silence. If you have experienced unhealthy dynamics in the nonprofit sector or if you have found yourself over-giving, be sure to check out Mazarine's book! Also mentioned in this episode: Sarai's work with Leave in Love [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ojyDvEC2X78] and Holy Ghosting [https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/holy-ghosting/id1627628186] Meredith's books Career Defense 101 [https://careerdefense101.com] and The Inclusive Leader's Guide to Healthy Workplace Culture [https://healthyworkplaceculture.com] WhiteSupremacyCulture.info [https://WhiteSupremacyCulture.info] GriefHouse.org [https://GriefHouse.org] Feelings Wheel [https://feelingswheel.com/] Needs Wheel [https://galiacollaborative.com/wp-content/uploads/2022/09/Galia-Needs-Wheel.pdf] Wheel of Power/Privilege [https://libguides.pratt.edu/gcpe-social-justice-resource-guide/deij-primer/understanding-power-privilege-intersectionality] Julie Ann Wambach's book The Battle Between Somebodies and Nobodies [https://www.thriftbooks.com/w/battles-between-somebodies-and-nobodies-combat-abuse-of-rank-at-work-and-at-home_robert-w-fuller_julie-ann-wambach/896139/?srsltid=AfmBOopRpHBhOrd8IB-4ykr_yI_mBKYvux3_mo3uLAl2Y5cATnJ3uRiK#edition=4918795] Gabor Mate's book The Myth of Normal [https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-myth-of-normal-exp-trauma-illness-and-healing-in-a-toxic-culture-gabor-mat-md/62a15730b7505a5c?ean=9780593083888&next=t] Sara Ahmed's book Complaint! [https://bookshop.org/p/books/complaint-sara-ahmed/46c9da4cb0dd5159?ean=9781478017714&next=t] Modern Witch Tarot [https://www.lisasterle.com/mwt] Work with Meredith: fourthcupastrology.com Work with Sarai: saraijohnson.com

9: Twin Flame or Hot Stove?

Twin Flame or Hot Stove? In this episode, Sarai and Meredith unpack the concept of Twin Flames. That concept was originally coined by Elizabeth Clare Prophet [https://www.eprophet.info/elizabeth-clare-prophet] in the 1970s, but it reaches back to Greek and Christian myth in the way we think of it today. The concept refers to a fated relationship that feels like it has a karmic component to it, and is somewhat different than the concept of soulmates, although there is overlap between the two concepts. In this episode, Sarai describes the Twin Flame Universe (watch Escaping Twin Flames on Netflix [https://www.netflix.com/title/81615919]), and the cohosts discuss the draw of the concept of twin flames and some of the pitfalls in how that concept plays out as a practical matter, from stalking to obsessive relationships to enmeshment. If you might be in a twin flame relationship, the cohosts have been there and hopefully this episode does not judge that experience. Instead, they talk about some steps you can take to relieve the suffering component of a twin flame relationship if necessary and move toward healthy sovereignty and community. We all need each other, we all need growth, and also twin flame relationships can stifle personal power and create annihilation in a way that can become unhealthy. Also mentioned in this episode: Lucy Maude Montgomery [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lucy_Maud_Montgomery]'s books, Anne of Green Gables, [https://bookshop.org/p/books/anne-of-green-gables-l-m-montgomery/e5e6a0af5abbb038?ean=9780147514004&next=t] Emily of New Moon [https://bookshop.org/p/books/emily-of-new-moon-the-first-book-of-the-emily-trilogy-l-m-montgomery/8970409c0856faea?ean=9781515439820&next=t], and The Blue Castle [https://bookshop.org/p/books/the-blue-castle-lucy-maud-montgomery/02770f7c87a53dc8?ean=9781774715031&next=t] Zora Neale Hurston's book Their Eyes Were Watching God [https://bookshop.org/p/books/their-eyes-were-watching-god-a-novel-zora-neale-hurston/ddab738a0c95ef04?ean=9780060838676&next=t] CNN's article exposing an online rape academy [https://www.cnn.com/interactive/2026/03/world/expose-rape-assault-online-vis-intl/index.html] Work with Meredith: fourthcupastrology.com Work with Sarai: saraijohnson.com

8: Sex Magic

Sex Magic In this episode, Sarai and Meredith dive into one of the most misunderstood — and most human — forms of magic: sex magic. Not the dramatic, velvet-robed version you've seen online. The real kind. The kind that lives in your body, in your breath, in the quiet space between who you've been told to be and who you actually are. They start with the basics. What sex magic actually is, why so much of the information out there feels either inaccessible or performative, and why that matters — especially if you grew up being taught that your body was something to manage rather than inhabit. From there, the conversation gets honest. They talk about the way purity culture, capitalism, and spiritual frameworks that trade on shame have separated so many of us from our own pleasure and power. About the idea that sex is simultaneously more sacred and more ordinary than we make it — a doorway into transformation, yes, but also just a deeply human thing that most of us are already doing. Sarai shares real stories of using sex magic for manifestation — solo practice, partnered practice, the unexpected downloads that arrive in liminal moments — and both hosts get into what consent, sovereignty, and genuine healing actually look like in this space. Plus: what your astrology chart and human design can reveal about your relationship with sexuality, and the gentlest possible places to start if your body still feels like unfamiliar territory. This one is for anyone who was taught that their desire was a problem — and is ready to find out it was always a gift. Work with Meredith: fourthcupastrology.com Work with Sarai: saraijohnson.com

7: Astrology of May 2026

Astrology Forecast for May 2026! In this episode Meredith and Sarai talk about the astrology of May 2026 and the cycles of time related to the astrological weather. Your hosts at Cauldron also dedicate this episdode to Chidi Anagonye from the show The Good Place. If you don't know who Chidi Anagonye is, here's a little taste of his vibe. [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6bz8yWHsIg] These are the aspects Meredith and Sarai talk about for May 2026 (all times are Pacific): May 1: Full Moon Scorpio at 10:23am 11:45am Venus sextile saturn 1:07pm Mercury conjunct Chiron May 2: Mercury into Taurus 7:56pm May 4: Mars Aries square Jupiter Cancer 7:08pm May 5: Mercury in taurus square Pluto Aquarius 3:08pm May 6: Pluto goes retrograde 8:34pm May 10: Sun Taurus sextile Jupiter Cancer 7:13pm May 12: Mercury sextile Jupiter 9:43pm May 14: Mercury conjunct sun (cazimi) 7:24am May 16: NEW MOON in Taurus 1:00pm Mars conjunct Chiron in Aries May 17: Mercury to Gemini 3:26pm Venus in Gemini sextile Chiron in Aries 11:03am Mercury conjunct Uranus in Gemini at 5:10pm May 18: Mars to Taurus 3:25pm Venus to Cancer 6:05pm Moon into cancer right after at 6:46 Mercury in Gemini sextile Neptune in Aries 9:04pm Venus in Cancer sextile Mars in Taurus 10:37pm May 19: Mercury in Gemini trine Pluto in Aquarius May 20: Sun goes into Gemini at 6:36pm May 21: Venus in Cancer square Neptune in Aries at 11:31pm May 22: Sun conjunct Uranus 7:26am May 24: Sun Gemini sextile Neptune in Aries 7:22pm May 25: Mars in Taurus square Pluto in Aquarius 9:01pm May 26: Sun in Gemini trine Pluto in Aquarius 8:52am May 28 Venus in Cancer square Saturn in Aries May 31 Full Moon in Sagittarius at 1:45am   Mercury in Gemini sextile Chiron in Aries at 5:32pm Work with Meredith: fourthcupastrology.com Work with Sarai: saraijohnson.com

6: Cauldron of Wisdom

The Cauldron of Wisdom In this episode, Sarai and Meredith turn to the third and final cauldron from the ancient Irish poem, the Cauldrons of Poesy — the Cauldron of Wisdom. It sits at the top of the body, the seat of mind, imagination, and spirit. And yet, as they quickly discover, you can't talk about wisdom without talking about everything else first. They open with the story of Ceridwen — the sorceress who brewed transformation in a cauldron for a year and a day — and use it to explore what wisdom actually is: not intellect alone, but the capacity to imagine something different than what already exists. To dream a new world into being. From there, the conversation gets honest and a little uncomfortable in the best way. They talk about what happens when the mind becomes a runaway animal — spinning in closed circuits, debating itself into exhaustion, attending to everything we don't want and calling it awareness. About the difference between overthinking and undirected thinking. About dissociation as a brilliant childhood survival strategy that quietly overstays its welcome into adulthood. Meredith brings in thought work — the unglamorous, surprisingly effective daily practice of giving your mind conscious direction — and walks through four of the most common thinking patterns that keep us stuck: the narcissism spiral, the race to innocence, the safety wound, and the endless reach for power and control over other people. None of it is a moral failing. All of it makes complete sense given where it came from. They also get into what gaslighting yourself actually looks like in spiritual spaces — the performance of a conversion experience, the veneer of progressive values pasted over unchanged behavior — and why one quiet degree of real change moves you further than any dramatic about-face. Plus: the Four of Cups, confirmation bias, and why "no fascism" is neurologically identical to "fascism" — and what to say instead. This one is for anyone whose mind has ever felt more like a maze than a compass — and is ready to finally point it somewhere worth going. Work with Meredith: fourthcupastrology.com Work with Sarai: saraijohnson.com