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Chaos and Change with Kris Beardsley

Everything feels loud, fast, and certain on the surface—and yet, inside, most of us are unsure which voice to trust. We sit down with Kris Beardsley—West Point grad, Army veteran, former FBI leader turned astrologer and community member—to explore how people actually change when the world goes off-script. From the internet’s information war to AI-fueled noise and institutional drift, we chart a different path: build an inner compass, shift your state, and let discernment become a daily practice. We unpack a powerful metaphor: mushroom spores that form perfect geometry on a pure note, then tumble into chaos before reorganizing at the next note. Change works the same way. The task isn’t clinging to the last pattern—it’s learning to move between notes with courage. That means loosening our identities, letting fear move through breath and sound, and honoring seasonal wisdom like wintering, rest, and stillness. We talk about joyful protest as medicine, how small acts ripple into culture, and why feeling joy during hard times isn’t betrayal when it lifts others. We also go where few podcasts do: spiritual hygiene in psychedelic and breathwork spaces. Chris shares why intention and attention matter, how to create a neutral, protected field, and the importance of facilitators who know their own shadows. With access rising and privacy thinning, we name what makes deep work possible again: the container is love—practical love with clear agreements, confidentiality, and a shared commitment to do no harm. Curiosity replaces judgment, community replaces isolation, and wholeness replaces the endless chase for “the best.” If you’re navigating chaos and craving a steadier note, this conversation offers practices you can use today and a vision of community that helps you remember who you are. Subscribe, share with a friend who needs it, and leave a review with the practice that grounds you most right now.

Becoming a U.S. Citizen

My journey of becoming a dual citizen unraveled life-altering insights and emotional reckonings, tales of which I unfold in this episode. Through a transformative encounter with the US immigration authorities to the empowering moment of my naturalization, I delve into the intricacies of personal narrative and the profound impact of redefining my story. It's a reflection on healing, embracing a new sense of identity, and discovering an unwavering connection to the lush landscapes of Oregon.

The Meaning of Stories

Embark on an exploration of the landscapes of narratives, as we uncover the stories that shape our identities and how they can serve as both constraints and catalysts for change. My own journey through illness and recovery taught me that sometimes the most challenging stories we tell ourselves are the very ones we need to let go of. This episode invites you to listen to the profound lessons learned when we embrace our narratives with love, release the chains of the past, and step into the power of rewriting our futures. As the narrative unfolds, we reflect on the transformative potential of aligning with our deepest values, recognizing that at our essence, we are beings of love. We imagine a world infused with 'hope with teeth'—a tenacious optimism that inspires tangible action in the face of global challenges. Join us as we weave a new collective story, one where embracing our individual truths leads to a richer, more compassionate world.

Namae's Stories - Part 2

In this episode, I continue a conversation with my guest, David Bornstein. We share an enthralling discussion on how the powerful modality of holotropic and shamanic breathwork helped me traverse my own battles with physical pain and emotional shackles. We unfold the narrative of my transformative journey, with a nod to the incredible mother-daughter duo who facilitated my breathwork sessions in Australia. Through the lens of my own experiences, we shed light on the sacred role of skilled facilitators, the nuances of group dynamics, discuss the nature of masculine and feminine energies and the essential processes that enable us to safely journey through our psyches. Diving into the mystique of Tantra and sexual energy, we challenge the prevalent misconceptions surrounding Tantra, sharing how breathwork and tantric principles birthed my enduring connection with the life force itself, and with the Dakini traditions. We engage in a candid conversation about the potency of choice and the impact it wields on the canvas of our lives. As we paint the picture of personal transformation, both subtle and seismic, we touch upon the pillars of healing—compassion, connection, acceptance—and their power to guide us from the shadows of shame, back into the embrace of love.  I warmly extend an invitation to you seekers and listeners to follow this journey of awakening, sharing the foundational values of CWays Home, where the creative narrative continues and where every moment is a step closer to our heart's truest desires.

Namae's Stories - Part 1

Stories are the weft and warp, the weaving of our lives. Stories help us make sense of our experiences. Whilst often fascinating, they can only ever give us a glimpse into who we really are. It is not what happened that matters, it's what we do with what happened that matters the most.