Faith Audio Arsenal | Not Far
We’ve been talking all week about being near.
Close to truth.Close to the Kingdom.Close to Jesus.
But there’s a line we don’t talk about enough.
The one between:
* Agreement and surrender
* Understanding and obedience
* Near… and in
This song is about that line.
Because “not far” sounds encouraging…
until you realize it still leaves you outside.
Lyrics
Not Far
[Verse 1]I been close, yeah I know the linesQuote it clean, got the right repliesHead full, got the facts on lockHeart still saying, “yeah… maybe not”
Talk faith like I live it outSay “Lord” but I rerouteNever left, never ran awayJust conveniently stayed halfway
Sit in church, nod real deepHighlight verses I don’t keepGot the look, got the vibe just rightBut I ghost Him Monday night
[Pre-Chorus]I ain’t far, I can see the doorFeel the pull but I want controlStanding here like I’m doing fineBut I know I’m stalling at the line
[Chorus]Not far… but I’m not inRight there… playing edge againClose enough just to feel okayBut still one step away
Not far… hear You calling meTruth cuts through what I wanna beI can’t stay where I’ve always beenNot far… I’m stepping in
[Verse 2]Say I’m good, I’m a decent guyDidn’t steal, didn’t cheat, didn’t lieGrade myself on a sliding scaleLike “pretty good” is gonna prevail
“I believe”—yeah, I say that quickTill belief means I gotta submitGot opinions I won’t releaseCall it “growth” when I keep the leash
Half in, half out, nice and neatGot one foot in eternityOther foot where I want controlTrying to crown my own soul
Funny how I call it faith—but it’s my plan
[Pre-Chorus]I ain’t lost, but I ain’t foundStill guarding what I won’t lay downStanding close don’t make it mineIf I never cross that line
[Chorus]Not far… but I’m not inRight there… playing edge againClose enough just to feel okayBut still one step away
Not far… hear You calling meTruth cuts through what I wanna beI can’t stay where I’ve always beenNot far… I’m stepping in
[Verse 3]What’s it worth if I stay right here?Safe, controlled, and insincereCall it faith but it’s dressed-up fearTruth is knocking—I just don’t hear
Keep saying “soon” like I own timeLike tomorrow’s guaranteed to be mineStanding still but I call it wiseMan, I’m really good at spiritual lies
No more spin, no more pretendNo more “close enough” againIf You’re Lord, then it’s all the wayNot my terms, not another day
[Bridge – Spoken]You can know every verseDrop every referenceWin every argument
…and still not follow Him
That’s not depthThat’s trivia with a halo
[Verse 4]Gave it up, yeah I crossed that lineNo more “mine,” now it’s all Yours, GodHands open, what I used to gripFell apart when I loosened it
Didn’t lose—man, I finally sawWhat I called life was a shallow drawNow I walk what I used to quoteTruth ain’t theory—it’s what I wrote
Peace hit different when You’re in controlNo more split, now a single goalWhat I feared was the cost to payWas the very thing that cleared the way
All in—not halfway anymoreNot just standing at the doorWhat I thought I had to defendI surrendered… and that’s where life began
[Final Chorus]Not far… no more delayI won’t stand here another dayAll I held, I’m letting goYou said come—so here I go
Not far… now I’m stepping throughNot my will—I’m choosing YouNo more edge, no in-betweenI was close… now I’m in
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